17:27:00 +07:00 Extreme and weird bullying - I recently wrote about a bag I was gifted. It's a nice bag, but it has on three sides of the bag the word PINK in giant white letters. I actually think it looks quite cool, but bullies don't share my exquisit style and have been using it as an excuse to chastise me.
Yesterday someone tampered with my other bag, a backpack, when I wasn't looking. I don't know what they did exactly, but they had moved the position of the bag from horizontal to vertical. About 20 minutes later I moved the bag, and the strap that stretches across your chest, which is very stabilizing when the bag is heavy, was caught in the chair it was on and it became detached from the bag. Kind of a weird coincidence that that would happen right after the tampering insident.
Well today I've been inspecting the strap in a well lit room so I can see clearly the situation. The bag is all black with all black stitching. The strap that became detached was a sliding strap and it's not possible to re-attach it. I think it would require unstitching and restitching, and likely I'd end up with the bag in a worse state. Imagine my suprise to find not only that the stitching is freyed right at the top of the slider rail, it wasn't before, but even stranger was when I peel back the seem right next to the freyed bit, there are 4-5 stitches made using pink thread. The matching strap on the other side doesn't have these rogue pink stiches. No pink stiches anywhere else on the bag.
Both bags were gifts from totally different people in totally different places. One was from a male, the other from a female. The backpack, I actually picked it out in the shop. What are the chances? All day today both males and females have been randomly saying 'no' to me for no apparent reason. Sometimes the world just doesn't want you to exist, it doesn't matter what you do.
Also worth noting, since I mentioned the weirdness with milk gifts, and food drenched in red sauce, and red splodges a few weeks ago, food gifts have literally fallen off a cliff. They had been getting me by on tough days. Now I'm really struggling often. Most people it seems are only willing to help if I accept their belittleing, or totally outrageously insulting and totally wrong framing, and if I standup for myself they are the ones that 'no' me, with enormous righteousness. Tis a crazy crazy world. #