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2024/07/26 #

• 06:12:00 +07:00 I was physically assaulted again last night by what appears to have been a drive-by attack from the motorbike gang stalkers. I didn’t see exactly what happened, but at some point in the early hours when I wasn’t looking I recieved what felt very much like lots of small stones hitting my face. It felt like there was some type of impact. It was painful, I shouted in pain, and I instinctively held both hands up to my face to protect myself.

  After a moment when I realised I was okay, I looked around and the very strange thing, is that there was no debris or rocks or any sort of projectiles around me. I still haven’t completely figured out how it could have happened, but I have a few ideas. In any case a few monents later several motorbike drive-by harrassment attacks occurred, in quick succession. At least one of them was someone shouting 'you learn' directly at me while reving their engine. These appear all to have been by young adults in their late teens / early twenties.

  I was quite shaken up by the whole episode, but I’m okay. This appears once again to have been part of a bigger planned escallation that has been happening over the past few days. I might write more about that later, it’s very weird, including elements sexual in nature, starvation, anger goading, but much darker than most previous incidents. I just wanted to have at least something writen about the attack here regardless.

  This happened the day after a westerner tried to help me, trying to give me some options to improve my situation, and imo is just another example of me being blocked any time I try to fix my situation being stuck here. The message is pretty clear: you try to leave, we will hurt you. #

2024/07/25 #

• 05:58:00 +07:00 I managed to get the bulk of the refactoring needed to move to reusable workflows for all the builds. The world was of course trying to trip me up the entire way. The new favorite thing is to have someone give me an order early morning then make that thing they ordered me to do impossible. It’s just more examples of their 3 step manouver: create problem, block solution, escallate & blame.

  For example, day before yesterday, in the shop where I get hot water for noodles, another apparent customer in the queue after me told me to 'work!' as I was arranging my bag, then in the cafe seating area of a place I go to to listen to podcasts, write blog posts and code, the entire day there was what can only be described as a relay race of eggregious blocking that ensued. One after the other, from gangs of youths playing group video games making a racket, to loud angry women on the telephone, to solo gamers loudly getting angry at their video game and continuously tutting, to women telling off small children, and much more people not working. It just never ended. Blocked again and again by the opposite of the thing they are telling me to do. Literally one would leave and another would arrive within 60 seconds. The entire day. Then of course they blame me for everything and mutilate me.

  It was the same yesterday except the order was 'happy', followed by literally tsunami after tsunami of extremely unhappy people, doing much the same. Always back to their 3 step manouver.

  So so so bleak.

  Someone bought me a sandwich yesterday evening, that was nice. But the world was right back to it’s bullying with sleep depravation from women on motorbikes all through the night, and white tissue anger goading this morning. Oh and of course they are back to starving me again, while doing drive-bys shouting 'Money!' at me. #

• 14:56:00 +07:00 Since hearing that some americans think MI6 is behind the failed Trump assassination, I've been trying to figure out a scenario where that would even make sense. My lived experience in the UK is that aside from the occasional joke, the vaste vaste vaste majority of people just don’t spend any time at all thinking about the US being independant. In fact we all think it’s awesome.

  The MI6 conspiracy just makes no sense to me at all. The only reason I can think for MI6 to do something that extreme is that they believe the US, or an entity controlling the US, is doing something even more extreme.

  Likely my experience here in Vietnam over the last few years is affecting my thinking on this, but I’ve become a bit sceptical about infiniti. In fini tea. What are the chances?

  Can’t we all just chill out, go to the pub, and all get along?

  Btw, probably compleately unrelated, but MI in Vietnam means noodles, but bizarely is also used in the word for sandwich which is Banh Mi. I always thought was quite odd.

  Update: Bang means cake according to Google translate #

2024/07/24 #

• 05:34:00 +07:00 I did eventually get the code for the reusable workflows feature I mentioned yesterday writen, but oh gosh was there push back from an angry world definitely on the war path pretending quite unsuccessfully to not be on the war path. I also managed a blog post, and that too was a slog to get through. Just so much hate and anger, disguished as 'you learn' and 'pay' harrassment incidents. Getting blamed quite literally for the things being done to me. That’s the thieves little trick, they steal from you while blaming you for stealing. It’s not always obvious because the thing they steal often isn’t a physical thing, but it equates to one because ultimately in one way or another you end up paying for it with time or money.

  I listenned to a pretty wild episode of Gold Goats ’n Guns podcast, talking all about the Trump assassination attempt. It meanders on for quite a while but it sure does finish on a whopper of a conspiracy theory. I had no idea people in the US thought like this. Kind of want to hear more about these wild ideas.

  Seems like I’m on the brink of another starvation cycle from the gang stalker thiefs who just want to control every single concievable aspect of my life. Makes the pro-choice issue in the US seem a bit quaint. Broadly I would describe it as pro-infiniti-slavery. It’s so extreme that people simply don’t believe it’s a real thing. Finding it hilarious like some kind of joke. Meanwhile it’s totally happening.

  I have a few podcasts to review, and need to go through yesterday’s code I wrote. Let’s see how far I get, hard to do on an empty stomach.

  Another day... #

• 10:00:00 +07:00 Ashley Esqueda on TWIT [10:42]: "There is an interesting device though, with younger people, particularly GenZ and younger, there’s this permeating feeling of, and I’ve seen this several times with multiple research and data that’s been published, they really feel like the most important news will make it to me. They feel that they don’t need to go looking for it because the most important news is going to find me. Like the thing that is the most relevant to me…they really trust the algorithm, which is slightly terrifying, but also it’s an interesting change, an interesting shift. The first group of people that have grown up entirely in algorithms, are people that really trust them to bring them the news that they need to know, as opposed to a even younger millennial who remembers a time when there wasn’t an algorithm to contend with." #

2024/07/23 #

• 14:48:00 +07:00 Crappy day full of fucking bullying from the dirty fucking thieves, non stop both aggressive and passive aggressive bullying. Managed a blog post, but it was a nightmare to write, and now once again I have a runny nose. Fucking thieves. Stop stealing from me thieves. #

2024/07/22 #

• 05:38:00 +07:00 Lots of low grade escallations this morning from motorbike drivebys. Yesterday there was a massive, IMO clearly co-ordinated, escallation that lasted the entire day. Literally every location I went to, and at key points I passed as I walked between places, there were folks waiting to shout harrassment at me. These were clearly manufactured incidents in each location. The general theme was you-do-what-we-say, you-belong-to-us. Yah’ing basically everywhere. I calmly responded in each case by calling the perpetraitors theifs and said for them to stop stealing from me. Ultimately, when all is said and done that’s what’s going on here. They might not like to hear it but that’s what it is.

  I’m not here by choice. I’m got stuck here and continue to be stuck here because of decisions other people made. I did all the right things I was asked and supposed to do at every step, and now I’m having my life stolen from me, by people who believe they literally own me. That’s theft of the worst kind. Stealing someone’s life is literally equivalent to murder. Calling them thieves is extremely generous, in reality they are murderers. Slow murdering me. Every. single. day.

  I took some notes about the escallations yesterday so maybe I’ll write them up into a blog post today.

  Trying to blog as much as I am able to but the conditions are very confrontational, adversarial and bleak everywhere. #

• 06:58:00 +07:00 I see this morning that president Biden has dropped out of the race. I have to admit part of me is a bit disapointed there won’t be a Rocky Balboa coming back from the brink moment in this story. That would have been a very american thing to happen, at least based on all the Hollywood movies I’ve watched in my lifetime, and the situation sure does feel like some sort of movie a lot of the time. Anyway, it will be interesting to see where this takes us. It’s not a Rocky movie.

  I wonder what kind of movie fits the current moment. What movies did GenZers grow up watching?

  Also video games, I don’t know anything about those though.

  Also what movies are scheduled to be released in the next 12 months. I’ve found in the past that somewhat bizarely movies can be quite an accurate bell weather of things to come. #

• 16:32:00 +07:00 It feels like societies are reaching some kind of maximum. Peak fakeness. Peak everything.

  It’s is happening so much quicker than in the past. Films have much more complicated plots than in years gone by, same for television series, video games, and it’s the same for other literature based art. We’ve been ramping up the complexity in many different dimensions for decades at this point.

  I wonder whether the pendulum will start to swing in another direction at some point, because in a similar way to Moor's law, perhaps we are running out of space. We are bursting at the seams. Is there a maximum complexity that these city based systems we live in can feasibly process?

  As a reaction to all the crazy fast paced infiniti everything, maybe there will be a shift towards more ambient and ephemeral ways of existing, maybe we need some time in the Chill Out room. More Brian Eno. Less Gaba. #

• 16:56:00 +07:00 I just can't bring myself to writing up the latest escallation I mentioned in this morning's note. Everything is just too dam bleak. Not much interesting to blog about today :( #

• 17:34:00 +07:00 Lots of people dressed in black today, many fake sneezing, and I’m sneezing now with runny nose, and wouldn’t you know it, the people all dressed in black are saying 'you learn'. I guess that signals the end of the current escallation cycle, me once again mutilated.

  Everything is clearly too difficult now that they’ve escallated everything in every dimension and the only solution is to mutilate me and blame everything on me for the millionth time. Lazy fucking thieves. #

2024/07/21 #

• 05:34:00 +07:00 Some thoughts about theft and stealing brought about by the past few days. I’m just thinking out loud.

  A bunch of malicious help last night. It’s unbelievable how 1 lot of malicious help leads to another, which leads to another. It’s like theft being used to fix a theft, which is being used to fix a theft. Each time they created the problem in the first place, yet blamed it on you.

  Theft just doesn’t work as a core of society, eventually you run out of people to steal from. Then you are stuck at this stupid self imposed maximum, an equilibrium between thieves and victims. If there is no stealing, there is no maximum, everyone can grow together and help each other without worrying.

  If you are stealing from somebody to teach them I think it’s likely that at best you are teaching them to steal. If you are stealing to teach you aren’t teaching, you’re stealing. #

• 16:18:00 +07:00 I wrote yesterday about Rogan’s advice to create successful and cool businesses. If the US is so incredibly divided politically, I mean everyone is saying the divide is the worst ever, that there is this insane level of hate, then how is it that people from both camps can go to the same comedy places and laugh at the same jokes?

  Wouldn’t you expect that eventually there would be Republican comedy places and Democrat comedy places and never the two shall meet? Or is that perhaps a thing that might still happen? Should we be taking measures to make sure this doesn’t happen?

  Is there a weird world possible where one side just decides to ditch comedy all together, and the other side then creates fake people to make it look like both sides are still laughing together when in fact they aren’t. The infiniti comedy division is a pretty dark thought. #

2024/07/20 #

• 11:11:00 +07:00 The new thing, since the evening before yesterday evening, is people dressed in black. Mostly head to toe black, occasionally just a black tshirt. They have been appearing everytime some sort of manufactured anger goading is in progress. They will often appear to be having a normal conversation, but then they drop in a word that was used in a key moment during the previous anger goading situation, which was usually in a totally different location. It sticks out like a soar thumb in amongst the apparent vietnamese they are speaking.

  There was quite a bit of sleep depravation by roudy groups that kept showing up one after the other yesterday evening like some sort of relay race. It was clear I was being blamed for something. There were several seruptitious 'you learn' shouting in amongst the frollicking cleary aimed directly at me.

  I’m still calling out people stealing from me. That’s going down about as you would expect. Usually resulting in even more stealing. Sandwich shops suddenly run out of ingredients, cafe shop seating areas suddenly get mysteriously sealed off with cardboard box tape, shop staff counters closing as you get to the front of the queue, getting redirected to another queue, only for that queue to also get mysteriously closed. Even self depracating jokes about being a tennis ball, go down like a ton of bricks. Only they are aloud to be funny, you can never be funny, even if you are taking the piss out of yourself.

  The hypocracy reaches the end of the universe and pokes a whole through to the next universe, while simultaneously springing a leak into 12 different dimensions you never even knew existed.

  Got issue #173 of the newsletter writen and published though. That felt pretty good.

  And I’m right back at it listening to podcasts, taking notes, writing blog posts and posting links. #

• 15:02:00 +07:00 Likely no blog posts today. I’ve gone through all the low hanging fruit from my daily notes, the ones remaining require a bit more thought and attention and space to think. The world has been yah’ing me for days now. Of course there is only so much of that I can withstand, eventually it turns into an infiniti block. I’m going to try and chill for the rest of the day. I've got the newsletter out, published a bunch of links, and done most of my backlog pruning, ready for next week.

  This past week had been a productive one, yet I need to find a balance where I can write code as well. Writing code and 3 blog posts a day, isn’t realistic. Certainly not on the puny hardware I'm currently stuck with. #

• 18:40:00 +07:00 There’s something really egregious about people that are openly generous but then passive aggressively discourage you from accepting their generocity. It’s really a very pernicious form of stealing, and the worst kind because it’s essentially stealing from everyone, it’s stealing from society. And it often comes from folks that say they are all for working together, for the common good. Double egregious. #

2024/07/19 #

• 05:24:00 +07:00 I’ve been able to write quite a few blog posts the past few days. One thing I changed in my routine is I started drinking a hot cup of coffee in the morning, and occasionally one in the afternoon. It definitely helps with getting focussed and into gear as far as writting goes, at least it has done for the past few days. The downside is that I’m not too into how it makes you feel afterwards when the coffee wears off. It’s not terrible, but I find I’m perhaps somewhat more irritable.

  The world of course gas noticed my slight change in routine, and has been doing it’s best to royally f it all up. Manufactured situations where people in cafes / shops are setting themselves up to sleep for the entire day, yet if I so much as put my feet up on a chair I get in trouble with the shop staff. It’s basically impossible to change anything without it causing enormous problems, as the malicious types try to find all the holes in the new configuration. It’s absolutely madenning.

  I call it what it is which is theft. Theft of your life is the worst kind of theft. It’s basically slow murder IMO.

  I've continued trying to do the podcast reviews as I listen to podcasts, creating links on the linkblog. When it works it feels good, but the world constantly getting in the way so it feels like a struggle. Somehow it’s easier to do that all in one go, rather than after each episode. I wish that wasn’t the case. It would be great to have all the reviews done when I start writing each issue.

  I'm a few reviews behind, so I’ll hopefully get those done today, world willing. Overall I kind if like this new way of doing it, but I’m not sure it’s very practical given my circumstances. Unfortunately.

  Anytime I start typing for more than a few minutes, it‘s like I trigger some sort of immune response from the hive mind, and the world starts yah’ing me, trying to hurry me up, and of course that has the opposite effect. Oh well, one must persevere regardless as they say. #

• 17:21:00 +07:00 I wonder if in the distant future governments will eventually just consist of AI brain trainer specialists. In this world a change of government, would essentually be a national brain transplant. The turn up with the new brain, plug it in, then everything just gets put through the new brain. #

2024/07/18 #

• 05:31:00 +07:00 Here’s a infiniti No! total reality inversion classic example that happened to me yesterday afternoon:

  It’s raining and wet everywhere. It‘s been raining for about 5 minutes. I'm walking to a sandwich shop, carrying all 3 of my bags, which are all quite full and heavy. As I walk / clamber around a tricky part in the pavement where there's a lamp post, a man on a motorbike pulls up close to me, veering towards me unexpectedly, asking me ‘where you go?’ motioning to get on his motorbike. It's bysy heavy traffic everywhere.

  That’s already quite unusual though not unheard of, but as I look at him I realise he is western. That really is VERY unusual. He repeats himself, he had a French accent. I politely decline, but it’s very awkward because the curb is very high where I am walking, and remember it’s raining, and I’ve got these heavy bags, and I’m now having to deal with this surprise offer. I stumble, my foot slips on the enormous curb, I go flying directly into some parked motorbikes, with enormous momentum because of the heavy bags.

  I’ve fallen over previously a few times with these bags and it’s really really dangerous, your legs literally buckle under you, so when it happens this time I get flash backs of previous times it happened. Miraculously I don’t fall to the ground, I stabilise myself with the parked motorbike, that I imagine are scratched by my bags after crashing into them.

  I instinctively say out loud "careful mate", because well, his manoeuvre was frankly bloody dangerous given the conditions. He looks very annoyed at me and shouts ‘No!’, then drives off. No sorry, no ‘are you ok’, no help getting back stable on my feet. Just a loud somewhat angry 'No!'. Like the entire thing is my fault. He then drives off.

  I finally get to the shop, buy what I went there for, and just before I walk off the girl working there, who historically is very often on a warpath, shouts ‘liar’. I call her a thief, she immediately says thank you in Vietnamese, like she was expecting me to say that, I’m completely exhausted and spent after continuous bullying all morning in every location and walk away, a few meters down the road I gather my thoughts and tell the world to stop stealing from me.

  I notice that on the top shelf of the items I was buying, that come in various sizes, the top shelf now has a size that’s 1/2 as big as the previous smallest size. Note there has been both 1/2 size food portion anger goading, as well as large butch women suddenly turning up and running all the sandwich shops along side the previous, often very moody, non-butch sandwich shop staff.

  This is what it has come to. The level of pettiness is such that people would quite happily consume an entire universe of resources just to win an argument on why a neutrino was out of place by a distance of one neutrino.

  The odd thing is that the girl and bloke from this sandwich shop always give off a sort of french vibe, in the way they behave, the things they say, perhaps they used to live there or something, but I always got a French vibe from them. What are the chances? #

2024/07/17 #

• 05:44:00 +07:00 The new thing is once again harrassment of a sexual nature, combined with starvation and food goading. A few days ago I was gifted a fancy croisant from an expensive bakery, by a woman on a motorbike. Now every evening a well dressed tall bloke turns up, sits nearby. He is always holding a large bag from the expensive bakery, full of nice pastries. He looks to be waiting for someone in the building across the road.

  While he waits the security guard in the building opposite, sits directly facing me, and repeatedly makes up and down motion with his right hand, very quickly. It looks very much like he’s pretend masterbate. He eventually stops, and fancy pastries bloke crosses the road and walks off with the person he was waiting for. About 30 mins before this a young woman offered me 1/2 a bagel, because she apparently "was full" and couldn’t eat it. I politely declined. The half food portions has been a thing for several days now, which I have written about.

  She had a very shifty attitute. Every morning, and I’m sure today will be no different, the sexual harrassment weird old lady puts used tissues in my path in the gutter. Yesterday evening whenever she appeared, right afterwards somebody appeared gorging on food. All these things are linked. It’s all harrassment, it’s all some form of stealing from me. Stop stealing my life world. #

• 16:39:00 +07:00 Eric Semler on Bitcoin company treasuries: "Bitcoin is the cheapest way to buy the future because it’s the only currency that doesn’t get debased." #

• 17:17:00 +07:00 I’m a couple of days into the newsletter prep experiment, and I have to say, it feels way more laborious. Doing each review right after listening to each podcast really creates a lot of friction to the listening experience. Feels a lot less free flowing than just listening to them all, taking notes, then boshing out all the reviews in one sitting. I’ll soldier on for the rest of the week.

  I think it’s partly made worse by the dire state of the hardware I’m using. Adding links to the git repo takes aaaaaggges. It’s disapointing because I had high hopes I could have added some cool automation to create the newsletter later down the line.

  Anyway, maybe I’ll feel different about it by the end of the week. #

• 18:40:00 +07:00 I’ve been using the podcast queue feature in my podcast app quite a bit recently. It’s a cool feature. Here’s how I use it:

  • Add to it the most interesting looking episodes after downloading every morning
  • Listen throughout the day
  • Add mostly new stuff, also maybe a few old ones you missed
  • You have to clear it every few days
  • More than 10 items starts to get a bit unmanageable

  The nice thing is that you do all the choosing agead of time, so you are never in a position to have to choose when the world is on the warpath with you. #

• 18:48:00 +07:00 The butch women army appears to be on the warpath with me again. All this morning, when I was trying to buy food they were joking / not joking about food access, and turning up on motorbikes surrounding me, very intimidating. What did I do? I’ve been calling out people as thieves when they quite clearly are steeling my life from me. Since people are constantly steeling my life from me in one way or another, seems to have ruffled some feathers. People want to be able to infiniti block you, but you can’t even call it out. When they do it, it’s a hilarious joke, when you so much as think about it, you are an infiniti Adolf Hitler. #

2024/07/16 #

• 05:26:00 +07:00 Right in the middle of another gang stalker escallation cycle. When all is said and done it’s theft. Theft plain and simple. So I’m calling what it is, everytime it happens, which is a lot because each time they try to fix the situation with another theft, each time disguised as something else. Before you know it it’s malicious help after malicious help after malicious help. Each time making the situation even worse while pretending to be the saviours. Until maximum perversion, at which point the entire social system starts to break down. And eventually I get blamed and often mutilated.

  Another starvation cycle is just about to start. The malicious help from last night involved two girls in their twenties on a motorbike ostensibly giving out meals, except they made a point of giving the weird old lady, who now is permanently camped outside the shop, a meal too. I could sense there was something up the second they artived. Anyway, opened the meal to find it was half sized. Thiefs.

  The other very weird thing that happened earlier in the evening, was that during the rain storm the weird old lady came over to where I was sheltering and started acting very bizarely, what can only be described as sexual advances. She eventually went away. During the night a meal was left in the place she had been sitting. All this stuff is harassment, it’s of a sexual nature. It’s combined with starvation, and constant anger goading. It is frankly disgusting.

  It’s all ultimately theft. Stop stealing from me world. Stealing someone’s life is murder.

  There have been at least 4 police walk bys this morning, so it’s clear it’s going to escallate in some way and everything will once again get blamed on me. #

• 08:49:00 +07:00 I’m going to try to write the podcast reviews as I listen to them this week, rather than wait until the end of the week. Hopefully it will improve both the reviews and the newsletter intro. It remains to be seen how the world will react to this new way of doing things. Let’s hope for the best.

  Update: Almost immediate push back from a world on the warpath yet again. Even a wiff if possible change sends the wirkd into perversion mode, where everything gets perverted and escallated and warpathed. One must persevere. #

• 10:00:00 +07:00 Following on from yesterday evening’s bizare sexual harrassment from the weird old lady, there was more of it this morning. Her new thing is to dump enormous amounts of tissues in your path, right in the gutter. Avid readers will remember that there was an incident in last week’s escallations involving condoms left in the gutter on front of the internet place. And you will also remember that ice lollys have started to feature everytime the weird old lady gets on a warpath.

  Well wouldn’t you know it, this morning at the shop / cafe, ice scream lolly wrapers left exactly where I charge my devices. Add to that all sorts of anger goading involving not flushing the toilet, sugar free coke bottles, and a bunch of other weird shit I won’t get into right now. It’s intimidation escallation, masquerading as perhaps humour, but really it’s harrassment.

  Ultimately it’s theft, using up even more of my time that’s alteady being fully stolen by the gang stalker pervert thieves. #

• 10:12:00 +07:00 I partly really like the expression / turn of phrase "And so on and so forth". It means roughly speaking something like "etc etc" but slightly cleverer because it demands of the listener to extrapolate based on what you just said and imagine similar examples.

  It’s good because it can save time when you are talking about something quite complex, time you can use to build up important ideas rather than laboriously be going over examples. When it’s used well, it is saying to the other person, "I know you know what I mean, you are a smart person, I'm not going to bother you with unnecessary explanations". If it’s used sparingly and respectfully it can be very effective at keeping the conversation moving forward.

  Having said that, there is the danger of over-use, of using it as a crutch, a way to be lazy, asking the listener to do your job for you. These are not respectful ways to use this expression.

  Anyway, I'm writting about it here so that I remember to use it sometimes. My impression is that I rarely use it. I think if used correctly it can make you sound quite smart. #

• 10:29:00 +07:00 Having been more focussed on UK and US politics than I usually am for the past few months, one thing that I think many brits are suprised about in the US is the level of hatred between various groups. Of course in the UK we have all sorts of disagreements too, but my impression is that the level of underlying hatred is much less pronounced.

  I could be wrong about this in some places, but on average, I think people tend to get along better most of the time.

  I wonder what people in the US think about the levels of hatred in the UK? #

• 12:25:00 +07:00 Just heard that brain - machine interface companies are collectively now referred to as Neurotech. I guess it makes sense, even if it feels a bit icky that there are folks building companies around our neurons. #

2024/07/15 #

• 05:38:00 +07:00 Shoplifting bloke appears to have disapeared the past 2 days, but he’s been replaced by another bloke who basically does the same charade. This bloke has a mobile phone and a backpack, looks much more normal. He stands there for ages looking at his mobile phone, looking confused. Then over to the shop, looking confused. He’s holding a plastic bag with something in it. Then eventually disapears.

  There’s also been this other older bloke on a motorbike that’s stopped two days in a row, yesterday evening with some food gift. He's very grumpy.

  The police did several walk-bys early this morning. That’s unusual. I mention all these things because I know from experience that they will all coalesce into some sort of thing where I get blamed for everything. They always do.

  Even as I write this note, two motorbike gang stalkers drove past and shouted No! at me. And so it goes, everything will be my fault now for the rest of the day. #

• 10:26:00 +07:00 I’ve listenned to several politics podcasts discussing the Trump assassination attempt and though there was much mention of the fist in the air, no one has mentioned the bizare nazi salute thing as he was evacuated from the stage. Was the video I watched a fake?

  Apparently he was shouting 'fight' rather than the f-word, which is what I thought at first. A bit weird but I can see how in the heat of the moment that could happen. But a nazi solute? WTF is that about?

  If it turns out I did watch the official real video, it’s really strange that everyone is just pretending the nazi solute didn’t happen.

  As part of today’s escallations from locals, there has been another photographer (there was one yesterday too), some sexual harrassment and a walk-by past me as I sat in the park earlier loudly saying 'fight fight'. Oh and another police walk-by in the shop / cafe I’m in now. What are the chances? #

• 11:38:00 +07:00 I hope I've reached peak blog post weirdness.

  They seem to be getting a bit weirder everyday.

  Must keep reminding myself we are living in the best days.

  Pretty sure there’s a Beatles song about all this :) #

• 13:13:00 +07:00 There was an interesting interaction between lawyers on a recent Vergecast episode all about music copyright in the age of AI [20:10]:

  Nilay Patel: Professor, let’s say you didn’t have Jonny B Good in the training data, but then you had the entire architecture of Rock ‘n Roll, that is built on Jonny B Good. Could you back your way into Jonny B Good?

  David Pierce: Monkeys and type writers and Shakespeare right? Is that the theory here?

  Nilay Patel: Do you need the seed crystal when you have the whole diamond mine of Rock ‘n Roll?

  Professor Charlie of NYU: That’s a really good question because if you look at this entire era of music where RnB, Rock ‘n Roll, Rockabilly, are all kind of one entity, the music is drawing on 12 bar blues, a very standard song structure, they are often in the same keys that play well on guitar, they are using the same guitar licks, they are mostly using pentatonic scales, they are using the same language, and you might think yeah you could sort of back into that. But the precise rhythms, the exact words? Let’s be clear, the copy is worse, it does not sound nearly as good as the real Jonny B Good.

  He goes on to say anyone defending the AI would lose. But it brings up an important question. Could you train an AI, remember it’s an infinite training regression, that would guarantie a specific output? What if you actually could?

  This is likely bigger than just copyright. It’s much more akin to fate. #

• 13:45:00 +07:00 Isn’t it a bit strange that the EU appears to hate vertically integrated companies like Apple, throwing all sorts of antitrust cases at them, but they also hate crypto, which is basically the opposite of a vertically integrated company? #

2024/07/14 #

• 05:33:00 +07:00 The world has gotten itself into another muddle, and it’s blaming me for everything again, going through the by now very familar escallation cycles, that eventually stop making any kind of sense, and you get mutilated. Several malicious help incidents yesterday evening, and motorbike gang stalker intimidation for much of the night and into the morning. Lots of yah’ing already today and it’s hardly even daylight. Looks like another day of spiritual traffic jams is upon us.

  I re-read my elections turnout blog post from yesterday, which at the time of writing felt a bit confused, but it’s not that bad. I think it expresses vaguely what I was trying to say.

  Worth noting, now that I’m up and writing, all the gang stalking has completely stopped. No more drive-bys from loud clunky motorbikes loaded up with scummy kids shouting abuse and driving around like hooligans, no more drive-bys by gravely voiced old men, or from mid twenties normies also on motorbikes. When the gang stalking and intimidation starts, it’s from all walks of life. But it can cease as quick as it started, and then it’s as if it never happened.

  Hopefully the world will somehow find a way off the warpath it’s gotten itself snagged onto. #

• 14:34:00 +07:00 Raoul Pal: "These are all decentralised businesses that sell blockspace, and they have different qualities to their blockspace, or a different narrative on what makes their blockspace effective"

  Reminds me of when Amazon S3 was introduced all those years ago. Maybe we’ll start to think about crypto as the blockspace internet. #

2024/07/13 #

• 10:00:00 +07:00 I got this week’s newsletter issue writen and scheduled. That’s always a relief. There’s something odd that it does to time, which can upset your rythm a bit. I can’t quite put my finger on the specifics, but the process of writing the newsletter is some sort of huge compression of the entire week. I find it often leaves you in a strange state where you feel like you're having to catchup with everything.

  Anyway today is going to be about listening to some podcasts, trying not to stress too much, eating some food, maybe a blog post. Doing my best not to get all caught up in the weird newsletter compression thing. #

• 18:13:00 +07:00 I totally did get caught up in the newsletter compression thing. I don’t know if I’m describing this very well. Anyway this is me sort of getting out of that, having published a blog post, some links and a few notes. Gosh it sure was very confusing getting this all sorted though.

  Sometimes the world just wants to fight you on absolutely everything. It punishes you for punishing you then forces you to pay for your own punishment, then is righteously offended by you just for existing.

  Still managed a newsletter issue, a blog post, a few links, some notes, and listened to a few cool pods. Oh and I ate some really nice food.

  Peace world, your friend Mark. x #

2024/07/12 #

• 05:30:00 +07:00 Today I'm going to try to tentatively take a look at the re-organisation of deploy workflows I had been working on last month when I got blocked by a build minutes shortage. The scope has decreased somewhat in the interim because I've improved the npm module caching in the existing main website deploy workflow, so I likely no longer need to separate out the cache refresh code. The plan is to move to reusable Github Action workflows, so that all the repos, including the plugins all use the eact same build and deploy workflow which are all in a special shared repository.

  This is one of those bits of work that makes you feel much better with the code base because something which is vital and often used, which currently has quite a lot of duplicated code, suddenly becomes 1 cohesive and consuatent well tested bit of code. All sorts of silly mistakes that can easily get introduced by copy paste mistakes that lead to almost the same code diverging, just totally disapear. It’s the sort ot thing that feels a bit like when you do a very thorough spring cleaning of your house, but where you've additionally built some shelves and put together some neat looking Ikea cupboards. Everything feels more robust and useful.

  I’m going to ease into it, and continue with the main focus on blogging. I don’t want to get into any issues with the build minutes this month. From what I recall I had a minimum viable version working, and it was just a question of moving over the more complicated workflow into 3 seperate workflows that are each reusable. One for build, one for deploy and one for backup. Quietly optimistic and excited about it. #

2024/07/11 #

• 19:55:00 +07:00 Rough few days, especially after last week where I only ate a meal 3 out of 7 days. After each bought of starvation my body takes a couple of days to recover, only to be plunged right back into another starvation. A westerner that occasionally stops for a chat passed by earlier this evening, gifted me a meal and a bottle of coke. The food was wonderful, my body was craving some nutrients, and it was also really great to have an actual conversation with another human lasting more than two words long. About 20 minutes later someone stopped on a motorbike and gifted me some chicken and rice. After days of bullying and starvation it’s nice just for my existence to be acknowledged.

  Pretty sure I'll realise later that there’s some meliciousness mixed in somewhere that I just haven’t noticed yet. I know from experience there always tends to be, it’s like clockwork. The dark side of things is always hiding between the cracks somewhere. In any case, for now it feels good. #

2024/07/10 #

• 05:05:00 +07:00 Rained quite a lot last night. Weird shoplifter bloke still hanging around. He appears to be pretending he was actually bringing gifts to the weird old lady that now hangs out outside the shop almost 24/7. Of course he would do that wouldn’t he if he was shoplifting, because he doesn’t want her to rat him out. I'm still calling him little boy to try and put him off so that I don’t get blamed for his criminality. There's not much else I can do. I certainly don’t want any violence. And the reality is he’s actually steeling from me. I saw him walk past the internet place yesterday, so no doubt something is going to happen there soon related to all this.

  I fixed the website's everything RSS feed, which was quite the challenge because the world literally always starts starving me any time I do any work on the RSS feeds. I pretty much only have to look at the feed code and starvation gets initiated, along with enormous infiniti total reality inversion bullying from every direction. It’s like a mass delusion pavlovian response or something. Anyway the urls in the by date everything feed had an undefined variable, breaking the urls.

  I had to add a way to seperate the webRoot and the itemsWebRoot in the template where you define a feed. That fixes the urls for feeds that are based on mixed data sources. I also updated both the Twitter and Mastodon autoposter tools, so there should only be a single auto posted link each day to the latest everything page post, rather than seperate auto posts for notes and links. I decided to keep an auto poster for individual blog posts. I want these to stand out a bit, since they are the most valuable content. Over the next few days it will hopefully be more obvious if the balance is right.

  Okay pat yourselves on the back 10x everyone, time to do some work. #

• 06:00:00 +07:00 In what-are-the-chances-world news, a new hot social media app called No Place is in the headlines, barely a week after the infiniti No! saga. #

• 17:01:00 +07:00 Jeff Snider from the Eurodollar University podcast asks why isn’t Bitcoin dominating the commercial landscape?

  It‘s an interesting episode, a recording of a recent conference presentation he made. He looks back at the fascinating history and evolution of ledger based money. He notes that each time there had been a massive step change in the technology, the adoption has happened rapidly within less than 15 years. Bitcoin had been around for that amoung of time, and it’s getting very popular, but the adoption just isn’t comparable.

  One problem he identifies is that in order to use your Bitcoin you have to convert it to Eurodollars, the current best version of ledger money that we use. He argues that that’s not a payment system. Jeff believes Bitcoin took a wrong turn by overly focusing on store of value, when the market wants a dynamic highly useable money. A better way of exchanging value.

  It’s not to say it’s store of value isn’t really useful, but it does make you wonder whether Bitcoin will become the next evolutionary step in ledger based money. #

2024/07/09 #

• 06:01:00 +07:00 Weird shoplifter bloke has been making more and more appearences. He just sits at the other end of the bench and tries to see when the nearby shop staff go into the back room so he can swipe stuff. At the same time to this, not unco-incidentally police have been turning up in other places that I go to. Yesterday one, who was enormous and a bit fat, sat directly on front of me next to a small young woman that had been sitting there for a while. He proceeded to continuously pat her on the back and side, just like how you would pat a dog. He then was basically necking with her interspersed with patting for most of lunch time.

  Once again perhaps not uncoincidentally previous to this at the internet place there were used condom packets in the street in the gutter.

  And once again previous to that, an old women dressed entirely in red was ostensibly doing early morning exercises in the exact spot where last week the gang stalkers had left a dead rat. Her exercise was very strange. She was facing the wall, both hands on it, then girating her torso backwards and forwards, so she was basically being the man in some bizare doggy style position.

  Don’t try to tell me none of this stuff is linked. That’s fucking bullshit. All these events are totally linked. It's anger goading, it’s intimidation, and it’s a total time suck for me, and that’s equivalent to murder. Get your feets off my neck world.

  Whenever shoplifter bloke shows up, I’ve started loudly saying 'go to bed little boy'. I have to deter him peacefully, because I’m going to end up being blamed for his shoplifting. Not to mention that people don’t stop to help when he’s loitering there, so he‘s literally starving me. He's now showing up early morning and all through the evening.

  Rowdy scummy gang stalker kids on motorbikes are driving by shouting 'Lie!' loudly right after shoplifter bloke leaves now. These are the same type that a few weeks ago physicslly assaulted me. They have attacked me with rocks many times before. Once they threw a huge stone brick at me that hit me directly in the face. These events always have huge aftermaths that last for days.

  Just another impossible situation. I’ll be the one who ends up being mutilated, and blamed for everything, then starved even more than they are already starving me.

  I wish I had more positive things to write about, because it’s not doing much for my employability, but this is life for me at the minute. And since I'm a blogger, I write about life, so it would be disengenuous for me to pretend it wasn’t happening.

  Everything is a catch-22 these days. #

• 14:48:00 +07:00 What the world says: Commons for everyone!

  What the world really means: No safe commons for you, and if you try not to use the commons, we'll punish you too! #

• 16:48:00 +07:00 John Gruber on iPadOS [01:53:34]:

  It’s like they’ve painted themselves into a corner and blindfolded themselves so they can’t see that they are painted in a corner. […]

  There is no easy solution. […]

  I feel like collectively Apple is just pretending it’s not a problem. […]

  General rule of thumb, you should eliminate modes, cause modes just aren’t intuitive, and they aren’t how people think. But the iPad is all about modes.

• 16:50:00 +07:00 From my blog post The Future of iPados vs Macos [30/05/2024]:

  Would Vim style quick mode switching solve the MacOS - iPadOS integration connundrum?

• 16:48:00 +07:00 John Gruber on The EU and DMA [02:19:16]:

  I really can’t help but think though that there are a lot of DMA proponents who really think it’s just about busting up the App Store, when it’s way more far reaching than that, and really does open up Apple non-compliance fines for anything that they do that is vertically integrated within their own products and services. […]

  I think henceforth, every future thing Apple does is going to come late and possibly limited to the EU. If Apple Watch were brand new, it would definitely be delayed, because it only works with iPhones. I think that’s illegal under the DMA, or it could be. They would need them to rule, and they don’t want to rule in advance, and Apple doesn’t want to tell them in advance. That’s not the Apple way of doing things.

  "Hey we’re thinking about unveiling these new smart glasses next year. What do you guys think in the EU?" - They’re not going to do that.

• 17:34:00 +07:00 Alistair Campbell and Rory Stewart on the french mind [30:06]:

  Alistair: And she said, I'll translate as I go, she said "it's not the least of the paradoxes, that on the evening..."

  Rory: I love the fact that when you translate french you have to go, "it is not the least of the paradoxes". If you were editing this into english prose, would you start with "it is not the least of the paradoxes"? [laughing]

  Alistair: "Ce n’est pas le moindre des paradoxes"..."that on the eve of the most important european elections in history, the most european of french presidents, took the least european of decisions to shake up Europe."

  Rory: Wait wait wait...before we go on, what a beautiful expression of the french mind. Not the least of paradoxes, the most european of presidents, on the eve of the european elections, took the least european of decisions...

  Alistair: It’s brilliant, exactly exactly, exactly

  I absolutely love this interaction. You really have to listen to it to get the full picture. The thing is, both Rory and Alistair speak very good french, as do I, and the unspoken bit, is that when you read the french press, it really is absolutely packed with this kind of unbelievably flowery language.

  It’s such a wonderful insight into french culture. But it’s great because it’s two politics nerds and admirers of France stumbling upon something that is so very very french.

  They are both taking the piss somewhat, but also being affectionate, at the same time. I can confirm it really is a very french turn of phrase.

  And it probably says something about the UK and even Europe in general as well. Btw, the english press has it’s own quirks when it comes to turns of phrase.

  Imagine all the shit we’ve had to go through that have resulted in these ridiculus yet beautiful ways of speaking. It boggles my mind. #

2024/07/08 #

• 05:30:00 +07:00 I listenned to quite a few great podcasts today. Brain, mind and body apear to be getting back into the swing of things following the past few days difficulties.

  Listening to music everywhere seems to be helping somewhat with averting escallations. I used to do that but the world didn‘t like it much, and also the headphones have a tendency to break much quicker. Anyhow maybe I won't need to do it once the world has calmed down a bit.

  The next few days are about trying to get back into more regular blogging. Just need to clear some of the digital clutter. #

• 08:59:00 +07:00 Mt Gox is finally giving back their customers money that they stole. But they are only paying back 15% of funds. That's an outrage, and it's even more outrageous to claim they were doing their customers a favour putting them through years of hell. It's disgusting victim blaming, something I’m unfortunately all too familiar with.

  How unbelievable that this should happen the exact same week I finished the everything page, after months of delays, and mentioned I would be retiring the current mountain homepage.

  It's just another example of total reality inversion that I experience daily, in this case it’s especially bad because the ordeal the Mt Gox customers have gone through feels earily similar to what I'm still going through here in Vietnam.

  What are you doing to me world?

  Update: While I was writing this note and associated linkblog link, a couple in their twenties had been sitting behind me relatively queitly. Just as I was putting the finishing touches to my wording, the bloke said audibly 'sorry' in my direction. They both then got up and left a few moments later. #

2024/07/07 #

• 10:31:00 +07:00 Yesterday everything felt incredibly rushed. For a start there was an insane amount of yah-blocking from seemingly everyone, everywhere. You get yah’d for absolutely no good reason, only to be immediately blocked in what you are doing. It can be infuriating if you don’t know it’s happening, and it very much appears to be the point by many. Personally I think it’s counter productive, as it spreads and just causes traffic jams real and imaginary, and generally seems to put everyone in a bad mood.

  I was already having to play catchup, having just been allowed to eat again after about a week of starvation. So I had many days of clothes to wash and just try to get back into the swing of things. Not so obvious, everything felt rushed, brain constantly doing that thing where it feels like it‘s having buffering issues, and just constantly wants to multi-task. All the yah-ing just makes it worse. Still I caught up with most of the physical stuff I needed to do. Still quite a bit of digital things to catch up on.

  I spent much of the day listening to music, and smiling each time a yah-block occurred. Ok world, you are doing another one of your innefective counter productive yah-blocks, I would think to myself. Knowing full well people would ultimately be more unhappy later. Then just slow down and try to keep a constant pace to get through it.

  I listenned to several podcasts, but had to pause and move on to another several times. Today has been a bit better. Your body and brain really get very affected by starvation and bullying, and it takes a while to recover.

  The music helps to ignore it and all the people calling you 'dog', which also happens all the friggin time. It's very brutal. Once it starts it spreads everywhere like the plague.

  I notice after each time they put me through these starvation days, that my hunger gets worse. I'm constantly thinking and feeling I should eat something, even if I've recently eaten plenty to get by to the next meal. I've never had trouble with weight, but I wouldn’t be suprised if that becomes an issue at some point. But maybe that‘s part of their plan, one other thing they shout at me is 'bear'. #

2024/07/06 #

• 04:56:00 +07:00 It's unreal how glorius food is after 3 days of not eating, and thinking you might die. Forget about drugs food is where it’s at. Got gifted some sweet breads and a hamburger last night. First time I've been gifted a hamburger here. A bit different to a western one but nice nonetheless. It's also nice to know that there are still kind people in the world.

  Lots of very weird incidents the past few days. This typically happens when being starved. I've found that the bullying in these times is often sexual in nature. First, the old lady that’s been hanging around outside the nearby shop exposed herself to me again the other day. Bit of a shocker. She walks up the street so she is directly in front of my field of vision, stands with her back to me, then 1-2-3 does a sort of Braveheart raised kilt thing but by pulling down her pants. I looked up exactly as she did it, not what you expect to see. I looked away almost instantly, let me tell you, it wasn't a pretty site.

  Then the next day there was the firedrill incident with the loud bully women repeatedly shouting 'gay' on their mobile phones, while the weird shoplifting bloke, who sits nearby and just stares at you, was loitering next to me.

  Then later and for the past two days in the park there has been this western bloke that takes a nearby bench and starts doing what I guess are yoga poses. Both times he installed himself with his back to me, then into what is some variation of downward dog position, looking more like a cat though, arse right up in the air. Frankly it really didn't look like the sort of pose one should be doing in a public park.

  And then finally perhaps the weirdest, and the thing that makes you wonder if all these events are linked in some way. An oldish lady gets off her motorbike, sits down next to me, wants to talk. I take out my earplugs, and smile. She starts whitering on about something. Sounds a bit like english, but I can only understand about 5% of the words she is saying. She says words like 'Vietnam' and 'president' and 'money', but these are interspersed with mumbling, and she appears to lower the volume considerably when she's mumbling. I strain to understand what she's saying, try having a conversation, it's impossible, it's apparent and obvious after a while that the whole mumbling is a put on thing, on purpose. I'm very polite to her.

  Then she says 'bottom' and motions what can only be described as the motion you do when you are wiping someone else's arse. I say to her that‘s strange and ask her why she said that and why she is pretending to wipe someone’s bottom, she does it again and continues to mumble. Eventually the 'bottom' turns into 'Biden'. At which point you know it’s definitely some sort of prepared bit.

  She walks away and comes back a few times. Eventually leaves. I just sat there with a wtf look on my face. After she leaves, I remember she'd done something similar to me before a few months back. That time she stayed on the motorbike, did the same mumbling thing, but kept starting to leave, then stoping. She must have done it 10 or 15 times. As it happens I really needed the bathroom at the time. Very strange. Pretty sure they, whoever the group is that she is a part of, track your bathroom visits.

  Btw this time she tried to get me to get on her motorbike with her. I politely declined. After she left, about a minute later a motorbike gang stalker drove by and shouted 'good liar' directly at me.

  WTF vietnam? #

• 05:37:00 +07:00 I'm hoping to be able to listen to a few podcasts today, read some javascript programming articles I have saved, eat a bit of food and do a tidy up of the features backlog for my static site generator. Just trying to stay sane in an insane world. Looks like I'll be able to wash my clothes and charge my devices again, which is lucky because I was down to 20% on iOS device with almost nothing left in spare batteries. #

• 18:48:00 +07:00 Time is money, money is property, stealing someone’s money is theft #

• 18:51:00 +07:00 Time is money, money is life, stealing someone’s life is murder #

• 18:58:00 +07:00 Bitcoiners, gold bugs and sound money folks are all against debasing money, and they make really great arguments that make a ton of sense. Maybe though the problem with making money completely bulletproof is that the debasement just gets moved somewhere else. What if debasement is in some way part of the human condition?

  And what if the debasement gets moved to somewhere where it’s even worse? Maybe the money layer is the safest place for the debasement to happen. What if it moves to the social layer, or language itself. Many feel that society is going to hell, but what if that was quaint compared the maximum debasement that was possible. Maybe we can't even imagine how badly society could get debased.

  Perhaps we should setup some metrics to track key aspects of societies to ensure that doesn't happen? #

2024/07/05 #

• 06:05:00 +07:00 Weather quite cold last night and this morning. I've written up some notes on the recent current theme they are bullying me with, which appears to be shoplifting, which I absolutely haven't done anything if the sort, but that's what they are trying to make it look like. Anyway I'll put all that in a seperate note.

  It's the second day of the new everything page, I'm super happy about getting it completed, but it's difficult to be happy because of all the bullying. It's the 3rd day without food. They are starving + food goading + shoplifting intimidating me at the minute. I have barely any electricity left in my batteries, with no way to charge any devices. Also washing clothes has been essentially cut off. It's all a nightmare, and people have clearly been spreading false rumours about me. I am some sort of pariah. I think most people would be happy for me to die at the curb of the road in the gutter.

  I got the everything page rendering though. That bit of knowledge cheers me up enormously. #

• 06:15:00 +07:00 Some notes about the recent shoplifting theme the gang stalker bullies appear to be on with me at the minute. These are very lightly edited, because I'm very low on power for my devices, but also because it's very difficult to write about this stuff, while I'm being bullied. Weird synchronicuties keep happening. Thankfully this morning is a bit quiet. The notes are because I want to document it in some way so that I can remember these incidents, for others to see what it can be like here, but also in case something bad happens like getting accused of something by police. They are only very lighyly edited, so they probably won't meet my usual high standards of readability :)

  • Shoplifting is the new theme. First there was this manufactured incident at Circle K Shop where staff said "Error" as I paid. That what is says sometimes on the hit water fountain when it's out of order, but I already saw it wasn't out of order. I'm pretty sensitive at the minute to payment situation given the tsunami if recent incidents where food vendors and their staff have been trying to trap me in situations where it nught appear that I didn’t pay, all completely false. Anyway as I gave her the money I said loudly 'paid', and as I walked off made a comment about trying to trap people not being very funny, and they surely could find a way to enjoy themselves that didn't involve traping people.
  • At this point it's worth noting that in this specific shop during the pandemic lockdowns there was a series of incidents where staff were saying very odd things as I was buying things and getting water from the hot water fountain. The sort of thing your brain has a hard time diciphering because it is so totally out of context from the present situation. Anyway I ended up absent mindingly putting the instant noodles packet into my bag as I was filling up my flask with water. Luckily I noticed before I walked away, but it could very easily have resulted me accidentally shoplifting an item. I can’t remember the exact words they used now, but at the time I did abd realised they had totally mind controlled me. They were practising on me. That's why mention it here because that particular shop seem to somehow specialise in manufactured shoplifting incidents.
  • So in any case the Error ibcudebt was immediately followed upstairs in the seating area, two people drinking beer. Beer is rately drunk in these seating areas. I don't even think it's allowed. As I entered one said loudly 'perfect' abd they both chuckled after looking back at me and tucking into their beers. That’s some seriously good mibd control shit, given what I had just said downstairs. But I decided to not say anything and let them enjoy their beers, and quietly got into some podcasts.
  • Then the weird bloke I mentioned last week that had a bottle of coke, has been making many appearances, he appears to be shop lifting, at least that’s what he’s trying to make it look like. Shoplifting noodles, and eating them sitting next to me. He also keeps staring at me all the time when I’m looking in another direction away from him. As soon as I look towards him, he looks away quickly before I can see his stare. It’s like he’s studying me in some capacity. Update: He just walked past as I added to this bullet point about the staring.
  • At the same time lots more police drive byes and walk byes than usual. And an incident where shortly after shop lifting bloke disapeared, a police bloke walked past, he re-appeared a few minutes later walking in the opposite direction carrying a plastic bag with a single small food item in it. It's sort of unusual to see police officers walk past holding plastic bags like that. I felt like it was a message to me, like 'we know he’s shop lifting', and it just feels like somehow I'm going to be implicated in the whole situation.
  • Also strange walk byes by gang of men all holding their hands behind their backs like they are prisoners, right after shop lifting bloke disapeared
  • Later that evening a police motorbike stoping directly on front of me to check licenses of a motorbike driver, as passed me just before he stopped the police officer shouted ‘liar’ really loudly.
  • Btw the shop lifting bloke is turning up several times per day, he sits at the other end of the bench and continuously looks into the nearby shop, perhaps to find a moment when staff are in the back room?
  • This follows several incidents a few weeks ago where a westerner accompanied by a local who were ostensibly friends, offered to buy me something from the shop, this happened a few times over several days. Sandwiches, a meal, water. But I noticed he never brought it back in a plastic bag. At one point in our conversation he mentioned specifically that he was a big green environment person and hated that shops everywhere put everything in plastic bags even when it’s unnecessary.
  • At around the same time, there was incident at another shop, the one that appears to specialise in shop lifting, where someone, maybe the staff had left a sandwich on the counter where you pay. The moment I got top of the queue to pay for the items I had, a women popped up next to me and went to take the sandwich, but she was unsure of herself as she did it. Looked at the shop keeper as if to determine if that’s what she was supposed to do. She eventually took the sandwich and disappeared into the shop. The incident felt wierd like it was a planned thing, like she was getting freebies from the shop staff.
  • Another foreigner, one who had helped me several times when I was ill, showed back up a couple of weeks ago, he got me large 2 litre bottles of Pepsi and a snickers from the shop. Earlier that day there was an incident at another shop seating area where a group of girls were being very passive aggressive confrontational, they had a large bottle of Pepsi prominently on the table. You very rarely see people drinking large bottles of Pepsi here. I can’t even remember it ever happening in all the years I've been going to these shops day in day out.
  • This also follows a several week period a few weeks ago where people at food stands, ostensibly other customer, kept offering to pay for my food. It happened half a dozen times. Right at the start of that wave of incidents, a food vendor offered me a free meal, her translator assistant saying "for you free". The other incidents started out pretty obviously like people buying me a free meal but changed progressively to them ordering me to pay. Then it was insinuated that I was stealing food, which absolutely wasn’t the case. Those incidents eventually stopped for a week, but happened again once, but I caught the perpetrator clearly saying ‘I pay’ to me while pointing at the food. I asked why he was lying, why he was trying to cause me problems, he went very quiet. He had shouted 'liar' in my direction as I walked up to the food stand.
  • Also the ‘free for you’ lady, another time, gave me a free fried egg, in a somewhat strange interaction and build up, where it seemed like she was going to add it without me asking but then cause a situation where I would look to not be paying the right price. That has happened seceral times in other food vendor places. I think she only didn't charge me for it because I said 'no egg' several times as I noticed her puting the egg in the box. Anyway this messing around with the meal and the side dishes has happened to me lots, they always turn into some vad vibe thing where they make out they are being hard done by. But they created the situation in the first place.
  • Also a K Circle bloke gave me a free boiled egg the morning after I got assaulted during the night saying ‘a gift for you’, putting it in my bag. He was exceedingly smiley the entire time. The very next day he treated me like I was some sort of criminal he didn’t trust. Looking suspiciously at me as I paid, saying 'okay' as he moved very slowly, being way too overly causcious for the situation.
  • There are so many of these incidents it’s difficult to keep track of them.
  • And it’s not a big surprise that all this shop lifting business is happening now, right in a period of massive starvation that they are inflicting on me. Today is day 3 in a row of no food. It’s been accompanied by 2 days of some of the most intense bullying yet. ‘You learn’ coming out of peoples ears, even a ‘he will learn’ from a nearby conversation between folks that had been passive aggressive bullying me moments before. It's literally been non-stop bullying and food goading from what feels like every person that walks past.

• 11:23:00 +07:00 Quite an eventful morning. There was a firedrill at a building right next to the nearby store, the one where shoplifter bloke keeps scoping out when he's sitting on the end of tge bench. Rich before it happened a light green police bloke, they are tge more local neighboorhood variety of police, stopped for a chat. i had no idea what he was going on about. He said you go, then pointed away down the street, then pointed to the building where the fire drill was about to happen.

  About 30 seconds earlier, a motorbike delivery guy that had been loitering for at least 30 minutes, suddenly made a phone call, when the person answered, he said 'Hi dog', then off on some gibberish. Note as I typed the last sentence the bloke from the house across the way who I've never seen on the phone in the couple of years I've been coming to this place, popped out on a mobile phone and simply said 'lie lie' quite quiety, then disaoeared back into the house. Weird. Anyway it's relevant because the westerner bloke and the local girl that gifted ne a few meaks abd sandwiches a few weeks ago, discovered that there was a toilet in the lobby of the firedrill building. Useful to know. But why was the police officer pointing at the building saying Go! Just another ambiguous synchronicity.

  When all the staff from the various buildings gathered outside, the local pilice officer from before was directing traffic. At the far end of the building nearly just out of site but not quite, was twi firemen shooting their firehoses up into the air, clearly crossing streams by the way, but not actually at the building, just into mid air next to the building. As that was happening several women walked past on the phone saying loudly 'gay' as they walked past. Also a taxi with a bunch of people from firedrill building as they went past police officer, the guy at the window was really exagerating a head nod at the police bloke and had a huge grin on his face. Police bloke kind of smiled back but acted a bit like he didn't know the head nodder.

  At about the same moment, another police officer appeared, about 10 meters away, when our eyes met briefly he gave ne s really disaproving look. He was the oolice bloke from a few weeks ago that appeared one night and was saying they had a place for me to go, some sort of visitor center, but it sounded really dodgy, very far away. He said evrrything wiuld be paid for. Anyway he never came back, even though he said he would 1 week later.

  Oh and the other thing that I didn't mention was that weird shoplifter bloke showed up right after initial police bloke, right before the drill started, and stood / crouched next to be the entire time.

  Second police bloke drove off on the back of a non descript motorbike with another police bloke driving. He appeared to say some sort of rude thing in english and he drove past, said at the guy driving, but quite a coincidence it was just as they passed on front of me.

  So as you can see all sorts of weirdnesses. Just another day in nightmare limbo.

  People had already really reduced the amount of gifted food etc when the weird old lady showed up a few weeks ago, and hangs out at outside the nearby shop. Now with shoplifter bloke turning up all throughout the day and evening, there are basically no people offering to help at all.

  Still starving. I've only eaten food 3 days in the last 7. #

2024/07/04 #

• 05:34:00 +07:00 Another cold morning as it was raining from the early evening all the way through until this morning. I have cold hands, cold legs and cold feet as I type this. No food, no hot water. Gang stalkers have been bullying me non-stop for days. Everything is once again my fault. They steel from me, and the blame me and then force me to teach them by allowing them to starve and thirst me, not that I have any choice in the matter. Even if I get angry it's the same thing. They still steel my life right from my cold alive hands.

  The good news is that I got the everything page fully working, including with the updated archives plugin, which now supports merged data sources. That means all the day links on the everything page now actually point to day archive pages and individual item links point to their respective item pages.

  It was a grueling few days to get it operational. Insane and unimaginable headwinds from the world, but I got it done. Now I need to actually blog with it for a few days. That's much more difficult than you would imagine when you are being starved and thirsted, and when you are near hypothermia, and when the entire world seemingly wants you to die.

  Here was the release annoucement on Twitter, and also some of the deployment difficulties and hicups.

  Onwards, will the world allow it though? #

2024/07/03 #

• 05:38:00 +07:00 It's a bit nippy this morning! The sky is very cloudy still. Lots of rain all through the night last night. I guess today is going to be more of the same. The bullying gang stalkers are playing with multiple of my resources at the minute. Water is back to a trickle, and to use it I have to spend hours standing in a position that is totally back breaking, electricity has maybe been cut off, so I don't know if I'll be able to charge my devices, food and drinking water has become very scarse. Access to hot water is being challenged. Not great in rainy season where it often gets very cold.

  Huge amounts of annonymous gang stalker bullying literally everywhere. The closer I get to releasing the everything archives feature, which will finally put the everything page setup in a minimal working state, the worse the environment around me has gotten. The new thing is to bully me when it's pissing down with rain. I get surrounded by people where I'm sheltering from the rain, either side of me, they seem unrelated. They all start talking on their mobile phones really loudly, but their conversations are in some way fake, they are constantly making references to bad things that have happened to me in the past day or so.

  One bloke yesterday was mocking me for being cold in the rain. He was smoking a cigarette and waving it way too close to my rain poncho which was covering my bags. I said to him to be careful as I only have one working poncho. He said he needed to smoke to warm himself up, saying "I am so cold". Though it does get very cold, it wasn't cold at all at that point. Also, given his size, he certainly wasn't in any danger of getting cold any time soon. What he said felt prepared. That makes total sense in a gang stalker situation. All these fuckers around me were part of the same troop. He was mocking me, and the fact that I do actually sometimes get very cold, several times to hypothermia levels of cold. Anyway I had some choice words for him, and he left chuckling to himself. The bloke on the phone pulled the old crazy foreigner card, pretending that I was the one harrassing him.

  Anyway, I don't want to be writting about all this, but it's getting much worse.

  I'm going to try and focus today on getting the updated archives plugin deployed. It's all tested and working in staging, there were several bugs that I fixed yesterday amidst a vicious tornado of hate. That's what I want to focus on. The worry I have is that the way things have been going, especially with all the references to death this past week, it's as if I'll get it all working, only to be completely cut off, and unnable to blog anymore. I really hope that doesn't happen. That seems to be what the world is aiming at in the tea leaves. #

2024/07/02 #

• 04:54:00 +07:00 Lots of hours spent yesterday trying debug the last few kinks in the everything page archives. It all renders but it's doubling up the item pages rendered because the everything page actually uses the item pages generated from the individual blog, linkblog, notes, newsletter and podcast pages. Do I've had to add a way to turn off the rendering of item pages for an archive, which can be used when you are creating an archive from a merged data source. I think it will likely work. World willing, I'll hopefully be testing that today.

  Not so obvious though as said world has really got itself into a mighty twist since I started infiniti no-ing it’s infiniti-nos. Infinite infiniti-nos for we but not even a single infiniti-no for thee seems to be the expectation, righteously defended with escallation and mutilations. I ended up yesterday evening in major sneezing fits, and runny nose, looks to have been alergies, and it's cleared up this morning. What are the chances, right at the end of another bully cycle.

  They create the problems they complain about, they block the solutions they suggest, then escallate and escallate, and even if you do what they say they want, they will blame it all on you, then mutilate you. One of them even finally admitted that that was 'exactly' what they do, because she had backed herself into a corner of her own making and it was just so unbelievably obvious that was what was going on. And guess what, that got blamed on me too, and I got mutilated for that. And some borderline malicious help last night too.

  As I type this I'm noticing my eyes feel itchy, that's not a good sign. Oh well, onwards, hoping to have the everything page archives done by the end of the day. #

2024/07/01 #

• 03:36:00 +07:00 The nightmare is as follows.

  They will make you pay for their learning, then force you to do their homework, even though you've already got your own shit to do, and it will never be good enough, and they will blame you and mutilate you, and make you pay again, and again and again all while claiming to be angels, and you the devil. And then they will make you get them a job, and they'll block you from getting any job, while telling everyone that you are lazy and don't want a job. And people will believe them, because they lie and then conspire and cheat and steel, and they do it better than anyone in the world, and you will feel you have no way to fight back. And they will yah you in broad daylight, and no ond will say anything.

  A little advantage stolen here, another divide by zero there, then sleep depravation, total 180 degree reversal of facts, they will pass off minus infiniti as plus infiniti, ambiguities everywhere, manufactured situations, plausible deniability. And they will accuse you of the most terrible things that you didn't do, they will intimidate you, they will have you dangling on the end of a thread, and save you from the death that they setup in the first place, and they will claim to be the heros of you, and the victims of the things they claim you did to them, but were actually done to you by them.

  Each time you find a way to fight back they will infiniti no your solution. It will never end, a never ending merrigoround of nightmares.

  And the world will decend further and further into hell as they debase everything in every dimensiom, with mindboggling righteousness, absolute certainty of their infalability, even as civilization crumbles around them. #

2024/06/30 #

• 05:48:00 +07:00 Weather alright last night, no storms, doesn't feel too cold this morning. Custer-f of a day synchronicity-wise. The hive mind is really going for me in a big way. It's been bad before but this is next level stuff. At times it's second by second, person after person, and it creates a huge traffic jam of race conditions, where everyone, or a lot of people, are speeding up then slowing things down with yah's and woah's, and all it's variants. I've never seen it this bad before. I've been calmly saying 'infiniti no' to it all, which does seem to aggrevate things but I am able to remain mostly very calm.

  There were a few cases yesterday where some groups clearly tried to escallate to physical violence, and wanted me to know they did. As I left the internet place to get some breakfast, someone shouted out 'ow!' loudly, this was repeated in the park as I walked through it. When I got to the sweat breads stand something felt off, there was a small gang of blokes standing right before him that were talking but their attention was on me. Just as I got to the street vendor a motorbike passing by drove way way to close to me, right into one of my bags, and wouldn't you know it, he was heading right to the small gang who were all at this stage hidding laughter. The bloke driving the mororbike included. At the next food vendor where I bought a take away meal the bloke that I paid to receive the food clearly said 'ow!' at some point. He was the bloke that manufactured a 'Pay!' incident cascade last week all around a coffee that he was drinking that I had absolutely nothing to do with, yet was turned into a series of escallations over the next few days. That eventually calmed down but actually now that I think about it, the day before yesterday there was another one of those, seemingly unsuccesful because I 'infiniti no'’d it, and that hasn’t spread through to everyone.

  I wrote up a few of these bullying cascades yesterday, maybe I'll publish something later today, they are quite illustrative. I'm still being mostly starved and thirsted though I was gifted a chicken and rice meal last night.

  The big theme this morning is people yah'ing like it's going out of fashion, from joggers running past, to security guards, to people on mororbikes. Total cluster fuck. This sort of behaviour is really counter productive IMO, because even if you target one person, which clearly happens, all the random people around still hear it, so there is a blast radius, and some of those people will think they are being targeted, or just that it’s today's thing or whatever, and soon enough you get a chain reaction and it‘s a total cluster fuck everywhere. It's happening constantly at a low level, and while it does fuck things up, people absorb it reasonably well, even if it’s a complete waste of resources. But today and yesterday it’s reached new levels and it’s just chaos and dysfunction everywhere. #

• 06:50:00 +07:00 The new everything page archives is fully written and tested, and has been ready for deploy for over two weeks now. I haven't made any code changes. I fully expect the deploy to go relatively smoothly. However this insane level of anarchy and dysfunction in the world around me is not instilling any confidence. It's doing the exact opposite because while in normal regular world times I would fully expect to easily handle any issues with the deploynent, in this insane everything is f-d environment, even small hickups would likely be very dufficult to deal with, and could cause a massive derail, and you run the risk of ending up in a worse place.

  The frustrating thing is that in between all these tsunamis, I can see that the world is mostly calm, things are just carrying on as normal. But for instance where I'm sitting, a group of 2 or 3 young blokes sat down a few minutes ago and are exageratedly swinging their feet, have been quietly saying yah over and over, slapping their foot down repeatedly like you do to signal impatience. All this yah-woah is likely manyfactured, but even if it’s fake, for all intents and purposes the effects are very real if you are at the center if it, and since it’s a cloud that follows you everywhere, you are always at the center if it.

  Oh and did I mention I am being starved. And that's another thing that happens in these situations, people spitting as they pass you, not necessarily aggresively, though that happens too, but to show you they are being thirsted and have no spit left. And people that look very thin start appearing, like they are hungry. Is that all fake too though? Why would me deploying my feature to my inconsequential tiny little unknown static site generator which isn't even open source yet, be in any way linked to any of this mega hurry up'ing. It makes no friggin sense.

  It's like I'm a bus and a huge group of people I don't know keep throwing themselves under me, then getting very annoyed, angry and even occasionally violent at me, when I don't do whatever is in their heads. It often feels like it's just to derail me, but there might actually be real life people suffering from hunger and thirst, but then again maybe they are fake. There is no way to know.

  But the reality, even if it's a manufactured one, even if there are real people starving and thirsting, is that the situation is highly likely to get worse if I do actually speed up and rush things.

  And did I mention that I'm actually for reals being starved and thirsted?

  That last paragraph was going to be the last paragraph, but the instant I finished it, a man arrived shouting, chased by a woman trying to sell him scratch card lottery tickets. This sort of end of task yah is happening constantly. Oh and another man just arrived in this incredible rush to sit down, and I had to move my bags, which I don't mind doing of course, but he was in such a rush he nearly sat in the wrong place, ontop of my bags or dividing my bags up, seperating me from one of them. Very unusual. I had to say to him to wait, to chill out while I move the bag to give him space. I wouldn't be suprised if that will lead to me being punished in some way later. Oh guess what, I just got punished while writting this sentence. The yah loiterers uttered a 'think' right as I finished the sentence which caused me to lose my train of thought, which caused me to look like I had paused to think, which made the yah loiterers strangely happy. So I calmly infiniti-no'd them. I wouldn't be suprised if this entire situation was manufactured. This is how bad it is here sometimes.

  Anyway, and so it goes, I'm going to delay the deploy for a bit.

  Update: I stopped typing, started listening quietly to a podcast, and a few moments later the two yah-loiterers got up and left.

  Update: As I type this two new people have showed up behind me just out of view and are second guessing my typing. Stop, start, stop, start... #

• 08:09:00 +07:00 On the way to the internet place. Just passed the place where the last 2-3 days there was a funeral event happening. That's finished and been put away, but opposite it where the walk path gets narrow, a dead rat had been placed to block the path, I had to step over it. I guess there is minuscule chance it died of natural causes in that exact spot.

  Infiniti no. #

• 12:00:00 +07:00 So I'm in the park near the internet place waiting for the bullying storm tsunami to calm down, but of course it gets worse, with people on loudspeakers and people with paporazi level cameras. Yesterday some kids were messing around so close to the road where I was crossing that they very nearly diverted me into oncoming traffic. It was very dangerous, especially because with the heavy bags it's difficult to change direction.

  It was clearly on purpose they were waiting for me and only sprung into action as I got there. I said be careful and called them paperazzi kids, because that's the type of dangerous paperazi behaviour that got Diana killed. Well guess what the only seat left in the park today was next to a bloke with a paperazi camera. What are the chances?

  This is the level of total disreguard for society the kids have here. No matter what they do, even if they nearly kill you, it's actually your fault and grounds for more bullying. #

• 12:13:00 +07:00 Saw an interesting thing happen in the park while I was being paperizi death bullied by the local youth. Two youths stopped a westerner bloke that was jogging. I couldn't hear what was said but whatever they said, the runner bloke oblidged by taking an A4 piece of card from them that had some words written on it, held it up below his chin, and smiled while they took a few pictures of him. They thanked him and he ran off continuing in his jogging. They walked past me looking at their photo and said 'learn' just as they passed.

  Obviously I replied with the only sane thing remaining in this shitty world we live in that is over-run with fakes created by youths that want to kill you because it's funny:

  'Infiniti no to you too'

  Just in case you don't know, the way Reddit does validation of the people it features on it's AMAs is using a photo of a person holding a paper that has their username written on it. #

• 12:32:00 +07:00 Had to change seat because of the sun. The paperazzi kids had put half drunk coffees on all the benches that are in the shade. They are doing this because they are ordering me back to the internet place that's next to the coffee place. It's the same reason they shout Up! at me, because they know that I can only use the internet while standing up. Pretty frigging cruel, but it's not just the kids, many of the adults do it too. They think it's rather hilarious to torture and mutilate foreigners.

  I guess the foreigners that enable their cruel never ending bullying get treated better than me. I think many of the foreigners don't realise what they are doing, but some do and are only too happy to join in on the bullying. Who knows what story they've been told, but I doubt they mention that they created the issues in the first place, and it always results in me getting mutilated. #

2024/06/29 #

• 05:22:00 +07:00 The weather wasn't too bad last night, not much rain, not feeling too cold this morning, but my gosh are people upset with me saying 'infiniti no' to everything. That has really stired up the hornets nest. It's almost like their entire system is somehow built on the idea of 'No!', except when anybody apart from themselves uses it, then everything breaks down. Like they are constantly creating all these imaginary contracts throughout everyday life, that they hold you to, even if you have no idea it's happening. That's why they are so intent on having some people be designated as dogs, because their whole system relies on people not understanding what's going on. When you start not accepting everything, then it all breaks down.

  I don't know, I'm not explaining this very well. It's fucking hell though, and wouldn't you know it, it just happens to coincide with my Github build minutes being reset, which will enable me to finish the everything page archives pages. Only problem is they've basically cut off my electricity and water again.

  And there are westerners involved too, quite clearly, with intimidation and referencing of previous situations, but I'm not convinced they have any clue what or why they are doing what they are doing. Like they are paid actors or something. And they aren't necessarily being paid in money, could be food, or documents or whatever. There was a situation where a westener did a subtle, but obvious to me, something only I would know about, intimidation reference thing, then the next day, it was repeated by an apparent local that I've seen here for years. It's like they are claiming to be in control of the foreigners, but also that the foreigners might be secretly behind the entire situation. And there's just no way to tell the difference. And that is perhaps the point. This ambiguity pattern happens again and again, from small events all the way up to mega taunamis.

  The last 24 hours have been an absolute synchronicity tsunami cluster fuck. They are digging up old graves, they are blaming me for all sorts of things I absolutely didn't do, trying to trap me in various manufactured situations. It's like every possible way to fuck me is being raised up, yet they are righteously making out like they are the ones being wronged.

  They are infiniti no-ing me in every conceivable dimension while claiming not to be on the warpath, and if I so much as mention 'infiniti-no' they totally lose they're collective shit, and they escallate everything even more.

  As I write this, I have no idea how I'm going to be able to wash my clothes or charge my devices. #

2024/06/28 #

• 04:51:00 +07:00 It rained very heavily around 8-10pm then drizzled quite a lot after that. A bit chilly, my feet are cold this morning. Sleep depravation on and off for much of the night. Looks like that was planned in some way as one of the locals was repeatedly taunting me with super exagerated yawns during the rain storm. He was basically saying, we are going to keep you awake and you can't do nothing about it. Sleeping has been depracated again, both during the night and during the day. Oh and of course they are currently starving me, so the levels of glee are quite high amoungst the infiniti-nos, who are absolutely certain they aren't infiniti-no-ing while maximumly infinity-no-ing me in every possible dimension.

  It sounds proposterous, and then one day it happens to you, and it no longer sounds proposterous, and you say 'I understand now', but it’s too late. #

• 06:02:00 +07:00 Monkeys are trending, one wonders if it has anything to do with Assange being released.

  I think it's kind of gross when people use animals to get at other humans. It's not the sort of behaviour you would expect from the so called apex animal of the planet.

  Especially given that we are smart enough to know how rare a life rich planet like Earth is in the universe. We shouldn't be using the other life forms like that IMO.

  I do it too sometimes without realising it, it's unfortunately very normalised behaviour. #

2024/06/27 #

• 05:57:00 +07:00 Ice lolly's are definitely the new stick I'm being hit with. More sleep depravation last night led by a young couple both eating ice lolly's even though it was clearly raining. It might seem like a small innocuous thing but I know from experience that these events that all involve ice lollies in rapid succession, day after day, are all linked. All a form of anger goading. The people actually eating the ice lolly's might not all be aware of the situation, but some clearly are.

  Also couples. The last two days there has been an uptick in the number of male - female couples that are gang stalking. That's not a coincidence in my opinion, because several of the recent tsunami escallations have been seemingly have seemed like an infiniti war between these two groups, extending into infiniti like an tit for tat asymptote, where every move, no matter how minuscule, must be countered and offset.

  Also several very very aggressive motorbike drivebys last night. Literally threatening me with some sort of violence, while shouting at me with extreme maliciousness. I was just sitting quietly.

  I'm tired. I'm hungry.

  Difficult to be upbeat about anything when I know I'm going to be tsunami'd by a world clearly on the warpath, absolutely convinced that I'm to blame for everything, even while it infiniti No!‘s me in every dimension, while claiming to be a gang if angels, many of whom actually believe their multi-universe sized bullshit. #

• 06:35:00 +07:00 The past two days the cranky old lady that walks past every morning and sits at the other end of the bench for a few moments, then continues on her way, has been joined by a man, not quite ad old, brandishing a small coke cola bottle. I say joined but they appear not to know each other but the pattern is so regular, it makes you wonder.

  First she walks past with her walking stick, sits down. Then he appears seperately, sits on the bench. They both sit quietly. They appear to be very attentive to what I'm doing, like they are waiting for me to say something. She then gets up and leaves. A few moments later he gets up and leaves in the opposite direction. Yesterday his bottle had coke in it, today it has water in it.

  I mention it because it's weird. It's too well balanced for it not to be some form of anger goading.

  Btw, the cranky old women is the one that previously wasn't so quiet, shouting at me for no reason, and eating ice lolly's, or at least appearing to. I saw her eat one, then everytime I walk past her there are either ice lolly wrappers or used tissues thrown around her. She also exposed herself to me which was again weird. It's all very very strange.

  While I was writting this note, a man on a motorbike slowed down, pretended to get on the phone, then said 'Aaaaah' quite loudly drove off. That was immediately followed by some loud kids on bycicles. All these fakes have one thing in common, they all are trying to catch my attention or are paying way more attention to me than anyone else around. They stick out like a sore thumb, and they almost always apear one after the other in quick succession. #

• 07:08:00 +07:00 I've taken to saying 'Infiniti no' whenever something feels off or strange. That happens to be quite a lot sometimes. I just say it calmly.

  The thinking behind it is that (1) saying No is definitely allowed because their popular drinking chant is 1-2-3 No! (2) it's increasingly looking like people are making up invented agreements in their head, like a sort of bitcoin covenant, then later punishing you for not respecting the thing they invented in their head. So I need to be clear I'm not agreeing to anything, at every step, because I get punished for literally everything.

  It's similar to how John Gruber described Apple's reaction to the EU's DMA fines.

  I know it sounds bonkers, but since I've started doing it, several gang stalker groups of fake customers that have been appearing in cafes, have started to lose their shit. It's like I've thrown a spanner in whatever they were doing. It's the strangest thing.

  The world is infiniti No-ing me constantly in every conceivable dimension, and a few that aren't conceivable, the only thing I have left is to calmly return the favour.

  I feel like I've tried everything, it's the only remaining sensible option. I just hope I don't turn into Alan Partridge, or starve to death. #

• 10:49:00 +07:00 I'm sitting quietly in the park, quietly starving, just reading stuff on my iOS device. Two seemingly random walkers pass by, they are chatting loudly, much louder than all the other walkers going around the circular walking circuit. As they pass me, one of them shouts out in my direction 'Die!', followed by maniacle laughter from both of them.

  I calmly reply, 'infiniti no'. Not much else I can do.

  I remember that this morning on the way to the internet place, after the first corner there was an early funeral ceremony / sombre celebration happening. Funerals have this strange tendency to materialise at the end of bullying cyckes, just when they are about to start starving you. #

2024/06/26 #

• 05:42:00 +07:00 Little bit of rain last night, not too cold, this morning not too cold. Quite quiet too. As can be seen from all yesterday's notes, it was a very tsunami heavy day yesterday. Blogging about tech stuff was next to impossible, but did manage a few links.

  The new thing in the evening seems to be slight sleep depravation campaign until around 11pm/12pm, led by a woman wearing the same tshirt as many of the woman that clean (and perhaps manage) the public toilets. Then in the cafes / shops the next day people wearing red tshirts sitting in front of me, with head on table ostensibly trying to sleep. That's what Gestapo kid did after interogating me and accusing me of lying. Two days in a row now. I mention this because there was that strange incident at the shop / cafe toilet the other day. These sort of incidents have a tendency to be linked in some way.

  I wonder what today has in store for me. Hopefully this quiet isn’t the calm before a storm. Probably should think about preparing the newsletter early this week as starvation seems likely by the end of the day. #

• 11:43:00 +07:00 Gestapo kid showed up at the cafe / shop again today. There weren't any interogations this time but he was with an entire gang of youths brandishing badmington rackets. They blocked access to the power outlets near where I was sitting, and ice lolly wrapers appeared directly on front of me (very unusual). But before leaving they got really very roudy, tables moved around, chairs thrown about, they made a heck of a lot of noise for about 20 minutes.

  Felt somewhat planned, I think they expected me to calm them down, but I just sat quietly listening to music. Also felt somewhat like something bordering on intimidation.

  I hope there isn't another unprovoked attack on the horizon, I'm still shaken from the previous attack and the afternath of that. #

• 16:34:00 +07:00 I'm in another shop / cafe, the staff passed through quietly and removed my charging portable battery when I wasn't looking and hid it behind the counter downstairs. This isn't a normal occurence, first time it has happened to me in 5 years of being here and going to huge amount of shop / cafes.

  What an unbelievable coincidence that this would happen the same day that Gestapo kid and his mob of youths blocked the power outlet in the previous shop / cafe. #

2024/06/25 #

• 05:30:00 +07:00 It was a bit of a cold night, and it's still a litte bit chilly this morning, but at least it didn't rain. I got gifted a pork bun at some point, so that food gave me a some extra body heat to make it through. It followed a day of escallations that once again appear to have been triggered by an unprovoked incident at a food vendor stand. This time they simply called me a dog as I bought the food. I took it on the chin and in a hey-now friendly way made it clear to the vendor that wasn't okay, but I didn't blame her, the world is crazy sometimes, I understand. By the end of our interaction we both thanked each other, it appeared we had settled our differences. Btw, she had insulted me a previous time I went there for no apparent reason unnexpectedly fu-ing me right at the point of giving me the food when you both say thank you. And so it goes.

  But then immediately afterwards, a group of men at corner having coffee made a comment as I walked past, 'Good one' then lots of laughter. The situation was finished but they decided fir whatever reason to digg up old graves, and thus began an entire day of escallations. No chance of stoping it, from that point onwards everything you do is some sort of war, even if you ignore it and just go about your day, everything you do is interpreted as an attack, but anything they do is some sort of funny joke.

  There literally is no way to even communicate anything.

  So considering all that, the day went alright. I wrote two blog posts, a bunch of notes and links. Quite a lot of editing, the words were not flowing particularly well, perhaps because of all the turbulance. Listenned to a few podcasts, the mist interesting was probably the Keen On interview episode about liberalism. It's a concept that somehow is deceptively difficult to understand even though I feel it shouldn't be.

  Another day... #

• 06:32:00 +07:00 It's hard to describe this, but I'll try anyway. I appear once again to be stuck in between the forces of good and evil. The place where I'm sitting a man and a woman have sat next to me. They could have sat at nearby chairs and table, much more confortable, but decided for whatever reason to sit next to me intead. The man has a pork bun box. I was gifted a pork bun during the night.

  They appear to be waiting to see what I do. A similar thing happened yesterday evening before I went to sleep. Given the whole days events, I stayed awake until they left, which took quite a while.

  I know from experience that nothing I do at this point can be right. No matter what I do, it will be percieved in a bad way by one of these seemingly random people. If I stay, I will be yah!'d, if I go I will be told I'm going too quickly. That pattern started yesterday evening at the shop.

  It's a sort of RL race condition. Very difficult to deal with, because it ends up messing with your timing. Everything just seems out of step afterwards. And then you get blamed for that too.

  I'm just writting about it because I don't know what else to do. Incidentally they all just got up, they had turned into 3 people as another bloke had joined them, and left. One of the blokes, turned to me and said 'woah, thank you' as they walked off. I never said a word to them, I've never seen them before. #

• 13:20:00 +07:00 Ed Zitron on digital media: "What is possible is giving great people enough of a chance to build a real audience and a great product. A better world is possible for digital media, it just has to be built by and for the writers themselves." #

• 13:30:00 +07:00 Ben Collins on information scarecity [50:47]:

  There is a massive pollution of the internet happening to obfuscate good information [...].

  The more narrow it is to get good information on the internet, the only people that benefit from that are rich people. If the only people that have access to good information are rich people, the only people that benefit from that are rich people, and those rich people get richer from the good information.

  Once there is information scarcity, the people who will hoard it are the rich. They have no problem paying for a Bloomberg terminal, they don’t care. They’ll pay for the information [...].

  They will do that when everyone else is searching around for scraps on Google and Reddit.

• 13:38:00 +07:00 A followup from the earlier writeup. Rough notes very lightly edited because it's really tough writting about this stuff.

  First there was the man this morning thanking me for no reason. A short while later, another food vendor fake customer incident, imo linked to the 'yah woah' surge from last 24 hours. As I arrived at the food stand he shouted out 'liar' in my direction. I calmy replied after a few moments something to the effect of 'it’s the world that is the liar, it speeds people up just to slow them down again' and smiled. Intended as a light hearted comment about the human experience.

  The fake customer then tried to pretend offer to pay for my food. He very clearly said 'I pay' and pointed at my food, which incidentally I never ordered, the vendor had pre-pared it without asking me. I always get the same thing so she knew what I wanted. Still though she never asked me. Now I've had this trick played on me several times the past few weeks. I've written about it many times. I asked him why he was lying, why he was trying to create a problem for me, why he was pretending to pay for my food. He suddenly had nothing to say. I said 'you’re the biggest liar in the world'. The food vendor also had a very sheepish look on her face. I calmly told her she was lying too, calmly paid and calmly walked away.

  A bit further down the street I said out load 'stop trying to trick people everybody', to which there was an immediate reply from an anonymous female voice in the crowd 'Thank you'. Gee what are the chances. I guess now I'm the bad guy for something else.

  That was followed by another fake customer situation at the next food vendor. The male food vendor this time, took issue with me, repeatedly loudly saying Lie! Lie! Lie! Lie! as he prepared my food. I calmly said, he was the one lying after he gave me the wrong sauce. The sauce was warm btw, that’s unusual and is likely another warpath.

  There's been several subsequent incidents at the shop / cafe I am sitting at writting this note. All from apparent customers, who incesently are calling each other liars, or telling each other they are lying, but really it's obvious it's aimed at me, and of course it's all hilarious as far as they are concerned.

  I've kept my cool through it all. And each time I said nope 'I'm not lying, you are', they have been getting extremely adgitated.

  Also a young person, who seemed nice enough, asking me lots of personal questions, which is quite unusual. I tried to answer his questions as best I could, but very conscious that whatever I say will be turned against me by some. Having public conversations with personal information like this doesn't usually end particularly well in my experience.

  And guess what, after being polite and answering his questions, he walked off back to his friends saying 'he’s such a good liar'. I guess my hesitation and awkwardness didn't meet his Gestapo-like high standards. I had to once again say into the void that they were the liars not me. And remind them that if I answer the questions they fuck me, and if I don't answer the questions they fuck me. Either way I end up getting mutilated.

  Just another tsunami of escallations. Doesn't matter what you do, eventually you get mutilated. #

• 16:08:00 +07:00 Attempted to listen to a few really interesting podcasts today, but unfortunately the world had started infiniti No!-ing everything so it's been next to impossible to actually fully meaningfully absorb the content properly. Even as I type this I'm being infiniti No!'d. These were the podcasts:

  • The Dysfunctional State with Michael Malice (What Bitcoin Did Podcast)
  • Why we should fight for freedom of speech | Greg Lukianoff (Bankless Podcast)

  As you might have noticed reading the show titles that we might have reached yet another irony maximum. I'm half expecting a delinquant gang of paperclips to run past into the sunset laughing maniacly, chased by the rubix cube solver robot, chased by a rubix cube solver paperclip, chased by a comedy death fractal laughing and crying at the same time.

  What a shame, maybe I'll get a chance to listen to them again when the world isn't infiniti No-ing. :( #

2024/06/24 #

• 05:21:00 +07:00 No sooner has one bullying cycle finished, or at least appears to have finished, the binary / halves cascades, than another one has started. This one is in a minus infiniti - plus infiniti form, and my experience is they start off relatively innocently but rapidly turn into a huge tsunami.

  A cute girl for example might gift you a (whole) sandwich and bottle of water, that happened a few hours ago, but in parrallel to this at around the same time an old woman, who constantly eats ice lollys, is exposing herself to you. At around the same time in other places, there are more examples of it, you are compared to young children, then almost immediately afterwards, in the same cafe / shop, a strange incident at the toilet where a strange old cranky woman arrives, loudly pushing her weight around, uses the bathroom, then afterwards, just before leaving, the person with her stands behind you and very loudly, for no apparent reason, starts making sex pleasure noises. Very strange indeed.

  You wonder when you'll get another cold drink, since that got deprecated when you tried to save money by eating instant noodles but the money getting to you decreased by the same amount you saved, so now you are stuck eating noodles just to stay hydrated.

  These types of things start happening everywhere, and they escallate and escallate, and eventually something bad happens, usually involving you getting mutilated.

  That's basically the current situation. Oh and the drugs / steeling meme is always just waiting to make a resurgeance. #

• 06:28:00 +07:00 You say No! a single time, and immediately afterwards, the hive mind tries to correct you simply for making an awkward movement as a bloke who regularly intimidates you walks past, by having him shout No! at you. He's No!-ing your No!

  Literally just for moving your body in a way that for whatever reason he found disagreeable. Nevermind that the entire world has been tsunami No!-ing you repeatedly for the past 2 days and you have been quietly saying nothing.

  It's one set of rules for you and a totally different set of rules for everyone else. Even thinking that there is a minus-infiniti plus-infiniti pattern occuring is grounds for anothoer tsunami. And of course any suggestion that this is not a normal situation is met with genuine righteous indignation of the highest order.

  No's for we but not for thee

  Mind boggled for the 1 millionth time. #

• 12:54:00 +07:00 I don't know much about Reform, aside from everyone constantly shouting about how horrible they are, so I was fully prepared for some really hard hitting stuff in this candidates in their own words article. But apart from the bloke saying Diane Abbott should be deported, the rest aren't really all that bad.

  There's a real allergy to the mere mention of conspiracy theories, with massive flare ups, which are about as unhelpful as spending all your time talking about conspiracy theories. Imo, we need a better balance that is in sync with today's reality. Conspiracy theories are often bonkers but they reflect real world worries that people have. Making them taboo and off limits just makes them more disruptive than they need be. #

• 13:02:00 +07:00 My read on the political situation in France, based on what I've read, and there's a big chance I have this wrong cause I know even less about French politics than English politics. The left coalition is a sort of a motley crue of folks from across the left spectrum, whereas the right party really is mostly quite far right, and the center party is sort of innefective and a bit wimpy. Oddly the left might have the most diversity in opinion and thus pro-democracy, but that might not be what you think is needed depending on where you live.

  I wonder whether many would like to vote for pro-democracy lets-hold-hands-around-the-camp-fire left coalition, but given their situation, where so many tensions and so many things need sorting out, feel they have to vote right to even get to a world where such a thing like a left coalition even makes sense.

  Potentially quite a dangerous slippery slope situation. #

• 14:11:00 +07:00 Great Rest is Money podcast episode out today - Does debt really matter?. There's a segment on national debt, very clear explanation on how that works and why governments can't just keep safely printing money. There's also another excellent segment on the UK - EU relationship, how after much pain inflicted by the EU as punishment for leaving, perhaps the UK is finally in a position of bargening power with the EU, with interesting things to offer related to security and defence. They also promise a special AI episode, looking forward to that. #

• 14:21:00 +07:00 What if mandated software backdoors had to themselves be backdoored? So for example users could always see when they were being observed via the backdoor. #

2024/06/23 #

• 05:32:00 +07:00 The new thing seems to be halves. Leaving half drunk bottles of water, half drunk cups of water, gifting me half eaten boxes of chocolates. Yes/No cascades. It's all about binaries. Halves. That's the current stick that's being used to hit me. It's happened before of course. That time there was a flurry of half eaten sandwiches.

  Reading the description here, it seems a little far fetched, but it's not, when it's happening to you, event after event after event all follow the same basic pattern. It's like clockwork. It's the strangest thing. #

• 06:57:00 +07:00 More subtle / not subtle intimidation at the internet place this morning. As I stand browsing the web, a man walks up next to me prominently brandishing a 500000 VND note, which is the biggest note. He spits about a meter away from my feet. Ostensibly he's buying a drink at the cafe, but he's not. He literally could have spat anywhere, its not busy at all at this time in the morning.

  Btw, there was a weird incident that reaked of planned and manufactured yesterday in a shop involving the person just ahead of me paying with a 500000 VND note. While people do obviously occasionally pay with the biggest note, it doesn't happen all that often. Two days in a row like this is unusual at the best of times, but with all the extra stuff it's almost definitely some sort of planned thing.

  Btw 2, the 1/2 eaten box of chocolates, the chocolates are quite fancy, the chocolate is high quality, I guess probably quite expensive, however the centre of the chocolates is jelly sweets, kind of cheap and nasty. Anyhow it's another example of the halves pattern, but also the expensive pattern also manifested in the 500000 VND notes.

  While this is happening, 2-3 blokes are having a somewhat lively discussion, but it's aggressive in nature, they keep inserting english words designed to anger goad. I say quite loudly 'Spitting at my feet while holding a 500 note, what are you doing mate, you could have spat literally anywhere'. Lots of laughter from the small gang of blokes.

  They continue their anger goading, finishing with a 'you learn'.

  I wait a few moments and calmly answer the thing they were really saying:

  'No, fuck you'.

  Within a few minutes they have all disapeared.

  And they claim to not be on a warpath. Warpathing is all they do. Literally every damn thing they do is a warpath, but they dress it up as funny, or help, or whatever. And when you calmly point it out to them, and everyone else, they get upset. #

• 07:37:00 +07:00 As I leave the internet place with my heavy bags several people including security guards loudly shout 'yah!' at me. #

• 10:07:00 +07:00 The problem with eating expensive chocolate gifted to you when you are being starved from normal food, is that a short while after eating the chocolate you become even more accutely aware of your hunger for real food.

  How strange that the week there is a drugs theme to the bullying, with small plastic zip lock baggies appearing everywhere, and people making comments related to drug use, that my food is being so blatantly manipulated causing more cravings for food. Oh and lets not forget the increased anger goading. Gee what are the chances? #

2024/06/22 #

• 05:12:00 +07:00 Another somewhat rainy night last night, not quite as cold though. More sleep depravation from the gang stalkers. They finished their onslaught this time with a driveby 'we learn'. Well why an I always having to pay for their learning? I can't even afford food and water much of the time. Something doesn't add up.

  But instead I get blamed. The current bad thing that they are incinuating seems to be that I'm doing drugs. Totally false. Small zip lock baggies are appearing everywhere I go. There was another strange incident at a food stand yesterday. Once again a woman was just standing there waiting, supposedly a customer, but her and the food vendor behaved very strangely. They seemed to be overly focussed on what I was doing, like they were waiting for me to do something. It felt very much like all the incidents the past two weeks where people were offering to pay for my food, which I wrote about.

  They only got on with getting my food order when I stepped back away from the food stand. And guess what the sauce for the food was in? A small plastic zip lock baggie. Oh and another guess what, a huge uptick in police walkbys yesterday morning. There must have been about 10 walkbyes within just a few hours. Very unusual.

  This has happened before several times. They are just cycling through their playbook at this stage. I always end up getting mutilated in some way, like the unprovoked assault a few days ago. One wonders whether my blog post about the Lib Dem's policy on cannabis might have triggered this new wave of blame. Yet it might also have been a conversation I had with a westerner a few days ago where the topic came up in conversation, it was around weed shops in the US.

  Last week it was about stealing food. This week it's drugs. Next week it will be something else. They are always looking for something to blame me with. They only help when they can blame. Nevermind that they caused me to get stuck here in the first place. #

• 14:40:00 +07:00 Now I'm not an expert in this but I would have though that with the UK going left politically while most of the EU goes right, surely that would lead to some interesting possibilities for arbitrage?

  I have no real clue how to identify such possibilities other than stay abreast of the political and business news in both places, and read up on what these different effects these of governments usually have on the populace. The arbitrage might be financial but could also take other forms. #

• 14:48:00 +07:00 There was a segment on a recent Techmeme Ride Home (06/18) podcast about how AI avatars of us will eventually do all our social media activity for us. I checked out the company mentioned which was called Butterfly. The examples in their app marketing are all lotr style avatars, elves and what not, which just seems far too far fetched. But the general idea isn't too out there in my opinion.

  The AIs know everything anout us, so it makes sense that they could interact and explore possible synergies. The question is though, how exactly would us as individuals want to interact with these avatars, and eventually how would the avatars arrange for the RL people to start interacting. You could really imagine some out there ideas for this type of tech. #

• 15:05:00 +07:00 Earlier this morning, as I was getting breakfast there was another warpath cascade. Figured I'd describe it here since there are links to previous incidents.

  I left the internet place, around 7am, having scheduled the newsletter. I had a vague route in mind, and as I walked I decided to avoid yesterday's place with the baggied sauce. The food was pretty good but the sauce tasted a bit strange. As I walked towards the cross roads ahead, I thus would need to need to carry on straight instead of turning right.

  As I made this decision I noticed up ahead a security guard loitering outside a shop, he was clearly waiting for me, I noticed it instantly. His focus was on me, even though he was interacting with another person. Sure enough at the monent I walked past him, he belted out extremely loudly 'No!'. He had obviysly been waiting to shout his prepared line at me.

  I said nothing, continued on, got to the cross roads and walked straight across, the lights turned green for pedestrians crossing at the exact moment I got there. I continued up the road about a hubdred meters and a bloke sitting on his motirbike taxi started trying to catch my attention. He'd clearly been sitting there for a while. He shouted 'Yo Yo Yo No!'. Notice the final No there. Quite a strange coincidence.

  I ignored the mototaxi bloke, and continued up to the street I was heading towards that has several food stands during the morning hours. The first one appeared to be out of what I was looking for, I continued to the next place. When I got there, there was another one of these strange situations where there is already a customer there ostensibly getting served but the interavtion is strange. They are doing the food purchase thing, but they are concentrated on me, waiting to see what I do, so their interaction seems odd, like they areb't quite sure what they are doing. I kept my distance and just waited.

  Eventually they finish, and the vendor turned towards me, looks somewhat suprised, even though I'm quite sure she clearly already knew I was standing there. I say what I want, the starts gathering the various bits and pieces, oddly looking for confirmation from me went stacking the rice. She did this last time too. There's no reason for her to do this as her stand is a rice and pork stand.

  She turns to add the pork and also puts an egg on the dish. I say 'no egg', she doesn't hear me, or is ignoring me. I say it once again louder. She definitely heard me the second time. She continues none the less, wraps it all up and bags it. Motions the price with her fingers. I give her the money I was already holding in my hand. So I ended up with an extra egg, for the normal regular price.

  I know from experience this will be turned into some sort of way of blaming me for something, but I don't really have a choice, I take the food and pay, and walk off. I walk to down the road towards a sandwich shop I know is there that I've been to a few times. The vague plan was to get a sandwich that I can have later for lunch.

  As I get towards the shop I see ahead of time there is already a customer standing there. It's another of thise weird situations, it doesn't feel right, the body movements are all wrong, they have been standing there waiting for ages, the flow isn't right. I decide instantly to skip the sandwich, and sure enough as I walk past, the apparent customer shouts 'No!'.

  I ignore it and continue down the road. There's another street vendor near there that I go to sometimes. The vendor isn't there, but as I pass their spot, several people nearby shout 'No!'. I ignore it and continue. I get to the corner and guess what the food vendor just happens to be turning around the corner with her stuff, but it looked like she had been standing waiting there, only setting herself in motion as I arrived. I ignore it, decide to give that a muss too.

  I head to the sweet breads food vendor that I've mentioned before, deciding just to get one since I don't have much money. As I turn the corner into the road where he usually is, a security guard type bloke shouts 'No! No!' as I pass. I ignore him, walk to the vendor and buy 1 sweet bread. I head to the shop that gave me a free boiled egg gift the day I got assaulted. I buy some instant noodles. This time he isn't so friendly, he looks disaprovingly at me, and says okay after I've paid in a way that makes you think you he doesn't trust you. I ask him if he knows why everyone is behaving strangely this morning. He is suprised at me addressing him, he suddenly becomes very sheepish, and says nothing.

  What a strange coincidence.

  I continue to the cafe shop with a seating area, there are a few more 'No!' incidents. I'm still ignoring them all. In the cafe shop, several customers show up and sit nearby, clearly trying to provoke me. I ignore them all, they seem disapointed and deflated, run out of things to say to each other and leave.

  Just another day.

  As I write this paragraph, Bjork is singing 'Save Up' over and over, in the RA mix #940) I'm listening to. The irony is, and I've mentioned it before in the newsletters, they have deprecated saving. They block you from saving, they make it basically impossible, they always know exactly what you have. If you manage to save anything at all, even a few pennies, they treat you like a thief or drug addict. There is no way to escape.

  Just another distopian synchronicity. #

2024/06/21 #

• 05:21:00 +07:00 Cold and rainy night last night. I'm still feeling very cold this morning. Not much to add. I can't code or blog properly because no build minutes, I have hardly any energy because no food, body noticeably thin, still got to carry these damn bags though.

  Most of the podcasts I've listened to this week haven't really peeked ny attention. I've only started 4-5 so far this week, and most of them aren't even tech related. It will probably be a weird newsletter this week. Very difficult to stay motivated when almost everything is cut off. Even just walking to the internet place feels like it's too much effort.

  The bullying trend from the hive mind at the minute is to 'yah!' me. Young people, middle aged people, old people, male abd female, they just 'yah!', but my tank is empty and they know it. #

• 06:43:00 +07:00 The polls suggest not only is Labour going to win the elections, but that they will demolish the Conservatives. My worry with an ultra strong Labour government is that it's potentially very dangerous as it coincides with the hypergrowth of AI.

  Big majority sure, might even be good, we have many things to change in the nation, but ultra majority, I'm not so sure. You might be on the right side today, but what about in 20 years time? The nation will look very different indeed then. I think this is a non partisan issue. #

• 18:20:00 +07:00 The computer chips sector is going through big changes at the minute. The US, Germany and Japan all have big government subsidized projects, whether via tax breaks or loans, to build domestic chip manufacturing plants. Given how important access to chip manufacturing is going to be going forward, and that the UK has a general election next month, I'd like to know what each political party's plan is for chips going forward. #

2024/06/20 #

• 00:28:00 +07:00 A few minutes ago I was physically assaulted by some vietnamese youths. It was a completely unprovoked attack. They snuck up behind me and I then recieved a very large blow to the side of my head. When I looked up they were running away into the distance.

  This follows days of escallations from a manufactured situation. Like I've said many times before, it always results in me getting mutilated. #

• 06:54:00 +07:00 I've been at the internet place for about 30 minutes preparing the blog post detailing being assaulted last night. People in both nearby caffees are strangely much quieter than usual. It's almost as if quite a few of then know something bad happened last night. #

2024/06/19 #

• 05:30:00 +07:00 I forget which podcast I heard this on, likely a recent What Bitcoin Did episode, the idea that the best way to structure the economy might be a mixture of right and left depending on the situation. Some things, the thinking goes, are best run in a more collective socialist way, like health care and telephone / internet networks, whereas the startup scene is perhaps better suited to an approach that would be considered more right wing, with less government. I thought that was an interesting idea. #

• 05:35:00 +07:00 The bullies are at it again. Several more unprovoked 'Pay!' harrassment incidents. Also the police seem to be making a point of passing by where I am. At least 4 or 5 walkby and drivebys in the past 24 hours. That's very unusual. It's intimidation plain and simple. I'm tired of constantly going over every damn interaction to try and figure out what if anything went wrong. It's never ending. It's the last damn thing in the world I need right now. If anyone is stealing from anyone, it's most definitely the world stealing from me. Constantly.

  Here‘s a typical chain of events that happens. It's not a perfect description, each time it's slightly different, but this should give you a relatively good idea what sort of thing happens each time.

  • They manufacture situations, to make it look like you did something bad, when you in fact did nothing of the sort
  • When you protest, they say 'we learn'
  • If you don't protest they escallate and escallate
  • And actually even when they say 'we learn', they end up escallating anyway
  • Then they say you have to learn
  • And eventually it's such a cauldron of hate in every direction they just blame you for everything
  • Then you get mutilated, actual physical mutilation of your body
  • Then it starts all over again

  It's like every situation is in some way ambiguous, but it's done like that on purpose. The various sets of folks react differently. You've got those that are blaming you for doing something bad, then those that appologise, then those that are saying the entire thing was some sort of learning thing, then the blammers turn back up and they are blaming you even more, and then a bunch of people are saying it's just a big joke, but is it really, yes it is, no it isn't, and 'yah!', and 'lie!', and things get dangerous, and innevitably you get mutilated.

  And all the while they are starving and thirsting you on and off, anger goading you, food and water goading you. It's just a full on assault from all directions everywhere you go. But maybe it's nothing, and remember, be happy.

  And that’s not even saying anything about the weird as fuck synchronicities that are constantly happening whenever you do anything like listening to podcasts, browse the internet or even write code. The entire freaking world seems like a malicious dystopian panopticon AI algorithm orchestrated version of the Truman show, probably running on fucking Etherium. Plot twist, it's actually running on Bitcoin, and it’s even fucking worse. #

• 06:17:00 +07:00 Just started getting the dreaded "This device may not be supported" error message when I try to charge my iOS device from my backup battery. Come on world, seriously?

  I guess you've started another mutilation cycle then. Back on the warpath again world are you?

  Update: As I sat here finishing typing this note, the old lady that leaves garbage in her trail, and has been hanging around like a bad omen the past few weeks, and constantly warpathing, walked / hobbled past with her walking stick, and said simply 'Up!'. World is back on the warpath big time.

  I hope you find your way off the warpath you are on world. #

• 09:09:00 +07:00 World continues to be on the warpath. It's new favorite thing is pepering small groups of 2-3 people along any route I am walking, who appear to be just having a normal conversation. Then as I pass them, one of the gang says 'Pay!' loudly.

  I say they appear to be having a normal conversation, but that's not entirely true. Everytime something seems off about them. They somehow stick out like a sore thumb. I think it's because unlike a regular group of people having a chat, they're attention is actually focussed on me approaching. That makes their interaction seem off in some way that you instinctively notice.

  This sort of anger goading will continue and escallate for the rest of the day. They have already decided that I'm to blame for something, they just have to find what that is. #

• 11:47:00 +07:00 It's abundantly clear that everything I do is tracked here. It's not clear exactly by who, same as the gang stalkers, you never really know who is doing it. Just some amorphous anonomous gang of folks. A lot of the constant bullying they do is subtle in nature, passive aggressive if you will. One thing they definitely do is play with smells.

  At the internet place where I get online, I find that whenever I discover a new food dish, then the very next day, the smell of exactly that same food suddenly appears at the internet place. This has hapenned many many times at this stage. Most recently it's been with:

  • The red sauce spicey chicken balzack from GS25 store
  • Rogan spicey noodles
  • Yogurt and sweet fruit desert street food

  But it's happened with so many more things that I've lost count. Each time I discover something new, or change my pattern and start eating something that I hadn't had for a while, almost immediately that smell appears at the internet place. It's like clockwork.

  The people near the internet place are always barking orders at me, in ever more sly and devious ways. Using smells is just another example of the same thing. I imagine they likely have a saying they say to themselves, something like "Always be ordering". Ultimately it's just another example of warpathing. #

2024/06/18 #

• 05:27:00 +07:00 It was a very strange day yesterday, not without it's problems. At the end of it all I got plunged into a lot of very intense thinking, which made a lot of sense, but was very abstract. Anyway towards the end of it all I wrote the following:

  Oppositely asymmetric in both directions, where the symmetry manifests in different dimensional sets of properties, that are not easily visible to the opposing side, you might end up with a minus infiniti plus infiniti divergence. In those situations maybe the rule of thumb is to stay away from the edges, or at least approach them in a mutually balanced way.

  I don't know if that's useful to anyone, I'm writing it here because frankly I don't want to think about it anymore right now. I just want to get on with the day and not be bullied.

  The world just won't stop pushing me down all these crazy paths, then blames me the instant a neutrino is out of place. shrug emoji #

• 05:40:00 +07:00 Pretty sure I'm going to run out of build minutes entirely today or tomorrow, which will mean no way to publish to the website for the rest of the month. I'll still be able to blog locally and sync it up later but it's difficult to stay enthusiastic when that happens because it feels like all the effort put in to write blog posts, links and what not, will get even more missed by everyone.

  I'll probably spend some time refactoring code, but again you don't want to get too far ahead of yourself without being able to test anything, because that leads to problems when you finally can run builds again.

  I wish I had a way to render the site locally. Currently I only have the markdown files and searching through them is really lousy. Too slow and doesn't hardly ever find what you want. At least if I had a copy of the website, blogging locally for a couple of weeks would still be useful to me in the current moment. The only way I can think to do it would be to run node usibg WebAssembly in the browser, but that's way too complicated at the minute. #

2024/06/17 #

• 05:28:00 +07:00 Unbelievably bad day of being constantly warpathed, starved and thirsted yesterday. I think I've traced it back to an incident at a food vendor around 2 days ago. Not a street stand, but a vendor operating out of the front of a actual house. I've been there many times before, they have always seemed nice. As I arrived and stood waiting to say what I wanted, the older chap that works there walked out front to attend to some food that was cooking.

  Before I had even said anything at all, he belched out at me 'Pay' with a strange smirk on his face. I had no idea what he was on about, perhaps he was having a bad day, I thought to myself. A few moments later the other slightly younger bloke asked if I wanted the take away dish I usually get, and I said yes and thank you. The other bloke then held up the coffee he was drinking and said 'coffee'. Then pointed at a coffee stand about 20 meters down the street, and uttered a somewhat malevolent and malicious sounding chuckle. I said that I don't drink coffee, which I don't. I then got the food and paid for it.

  I walked off down the street past the coffee stand, and shortly afterwards someone random started barking orders at me. 'Up!'. I was heading to a shop / caffee that I usually go to. The seating area is upstairs. Well basically ever since then that's when the tsunani of hate and ordering and general harrassment from the past few days started. And it's been rather epic, and not in a good way.

  Another manufactured situation to justify blamming me for everything again and again. Seems like it to me, especially since several of the harrassments since then, in totally different locations have involved people shouting 'Pay!' at me for absolutely no good reason that I could determine, even in places that had no shop or any commercial thing nearby.

  The food place btw is on the same street as the sandwich place that often creates problem situations that I've previously written about. There's something about that street, or perhaps it's just that here, every place eventually turns nasty. #

• 09:28:00 +07:00 There was an interesting discussion around AI & LLMs in the latest All-in podcast. Turns out many researchers that work on various media related projects routinely use LLMs to gather information. That is a new development, but the interesting thing is that they often have multiple LLMs open and run the query through all of them, then cross reference results in order to spot mistakes and hallucinations. #

• 16:02:00 +07:00 A lot of expats and long term travellers I've met over the past 10 years here in asia, told me that as a westerner you will never really be accepted here in asia. You will always remain a foreigner. Now that I've been here for many years, I totally see what they meant. It occured to me earlier how uterly alien to me this idea of not being accepted by a place was to me. In the places I grew up in the EU it was the complete opposite, it was a matter ov pride for both the natives and those arriving from abroad, that being accepted was possible, that you could really eventually feel good calling it your home. #

2024/06/16 #

• 06:06:00 +07:00 Absolutely horrid night last night, with rain from around midnight, and at least an hour of which was quite a down pour It got pretty darn cold too. It only partially deterred the motorbike gang stalkers, with quite a lot of driveby harrassment still going on. Very cold hands this morning. #

• 07:45:00 +07:00 Unmistakable yellow tsunami the past 3 days. It occurred to me as I walked to the internet place this morning that it was worth noting. Seems like that's being turned into a bit of a red tsunani given the configuration of things and people this morning. Just some more warpaths. I stand in the only way left to me, with my back to them. This morning's pleasant reminiscing of times gone by is over now, replaced by starvation and bullying. The glee in the air from some is palpable. #

2024/06/15 #

• 04:23:00 +07:00 Politics campaigns vs Agile development manifesto. This is perhaps a case of every nail looking like a hammer, but it occurred to me earlier, isn’t politics just a very high level feature backlog?

  Doesn’t it just end up being devs vs testing trying to get features done, the devs government vs shadow testers, if you will.

  Why not just run the government like a software company? #

2024/06/14 #

• 04:23:00 +07:00 Looks like I was right about my prediction of starvation and thirst. Lots of food goading and bullying from the gang stalkers. Everything is my fault again. They are digging up old graves, basically anything from the recent past where they feel they have been hard done by in some way. Nevermind that even in all those cases, the incidents they reference were situations they in some way caused in the previous bullying cycle.

  There is just no way to react that doesn't cause more bullying. That's why I say they are on the warpath because really what they are after is more war. Being on the warpath isn't necessarily a violent thing, often it's passive aggressive. There's nothing you as a victim can do. I imagine it's similar in that way to being gang raped. You just have to wait until it subsides, and hope you are still alive.

  They of course don't view it like that. For them they see it as essential learning that I must do and that they must administer. #

• 04:38:00 +07:00 Exactly as I finished writing the previous note, a man on a motorbike, roughly late twenties / early thirties, drove up on a motorbike. He looked like a totally normal and respectable bloke. Appeared completely sober. He quietly tried to talk to me, and repeatedly pointed at my private parts. After an awkward conversation where I just said I didn't understand what he wanted, he got off the bike, crouched on front of me, putting his hand in my leg. I moved sideways so he was no longer in front of my private parts region, and calmly picked up his arm from my leg and moved it aside. He got on his bike and drove off.

  Now you might think this is just what happens sometimes, but I can tell you, it's not. This is very unusual, especially at this time in the morning. Most people are going to work. Also in the park yesterday mid-morning, a group of people using the public exercise equipment said loudly 'lonely' as I walked past. Also a couple of nights ago, a similar thing happened. That time it was most likely a lady boy that stopped on their motorbike with similar intentions.

  These incidents are all linked in some way. These type if things trend for a few days then usually subside. They are often accompanied by copious amounts of anger goading, and white tissues seem to be everywhere you go. It involves both men and women. Personally I see it as sexual harrassment being inflicted on me. No doubt these gang stalkers have a different read of the situation, likely it's all in some way my fault.

  They try to make you angry, then if you show pretty much any sign of reacting, they imply you need sexual relief, but it's them that are the sexual aggressors. And they do this as a group. It's all co-ordinared, and happens over many days. It's a well known pattern I've seen many times before.

  Worth noting that these sexual harrassment incidents almost always occur during periods where they are starving and thirsting me, as is the case this time. It's happened so many times before, though not recently. It's almost as if it's a new set of gang stalkers and they are going through their standard playbook. #

• 05:11:00 +07:00 I hate writing about all this stuff, but that's what I'm experiencing at the minute. It sucks. I'd much rather be writing about tech and webdev.

  Perhaps the bullies are banking on the fact they think I won't talk about it, out of fear of embarrassment. But this sort of stuff doesn't embarass me at all. If I feel I'm being harrassed, I'm going to say so. And I definutely feel like I'm being harrassed.

  I wouldn't be suprised if these MFs actually want me to write about it, because in a weird way it's free advertising for them. Because this sort if harrassment doesn't happen if it isn't encouraged, and I've seen many signs it's encouraged by some westerners. This sort of stuff is so well organised, so second nature, there is for sure more going on behind the scenes. It's a very well trodden path. #

• 12:32:00 +07:00 I've long been a listener of the Rest is History Podcast. The RIH guys consistently put out really great episodes, this week's newsletter features their recent piece covering the history of men's suits, which has a much more interesting history than you would expect. Anyhow they sometimes mention, and I've heard many others also mention, the Rest is Politics Podcast. Given that I found the recent EU elections quite interesting, this morning I figured I'd take the RIP Podcast for a spin.

  I'm not so into their unfortunate 3 letter acronym, especially seing as I'm currently being starved and thirsted for something somebody else did to me, and the gang stalkers have been jokingly (probably) harrassing me about my actual death. Anyway just listenned to the Labour vs Conservatives episode, as well as a recent Nigel Farage episode. I like it. The hosts, Alistair Campbell and Rory Stewart, having been previously in politics themselves, are very knowledgeable, yet they don't necessarily have the same views as me. That's actually a good thing. It's interesting to hear different angles, different points of view.

  Btw it's not just UK politics, though that is somewhat of a focus, they had interesting stuff on US and South African politics on the episodes I listenned to.

  Looking forward to hearing more from this dynamic, pot buying duo. :) #

2024/06/13 #

• 06:00:00 +07:00 The world appears to still be on the warpath from yet another manufactured incident that happened at a sandwich store. Same one that did it several times before. It seems I'm heading into more starvation and thirst punishment for the things that were done to me, so I'll likely have to prepare the newsletter early as these periods which happen all too often are often accompanied by access to running water and electricity being cut off. Food and water goading from the gang stalkers has already begun. There are also signs they are going to force me down an unsafe path that I don't want to go down. How strange that this sort of thing always happens during starvation and thirst episodes. What are the chances? #

• 15:11:00 +07:00 I'm really curious about the podcasting 2.0 movement. It's a progression of the podcasting scene with revenue payment tools that use Bitcoin to give podcasters a new way to interact with their listeners. With the new tech, listeners can stream sats, which are small subdivisions of a Bitcoin, directly to the show podcasters. They can also send one off 'boosts'. It works really well for shows that have quite a lot of audience interaction.

  My current two favorites that use it are Citadel Dispatch Podcast and the Linux Unplugged Podcast. The Linux Unplugged guys have gotten especially into it, creating sound effects for different donation amounts. The sound effects are short film and TV clips. It creates a more intimate vibe with show insider jokes.

  To participste as a listener you need to listen using playback software that supports the new tech. One example I hear mentioned a lot is Fountain. Another I've heard mention is Podverse.

  I think these are great tools for audience participation / Q&A style show segments. Interested to hear about any other podcasts that are experimenting with this stuff. #

2024/06/12 #

• 05:29:00 +07:00 What a day yesterday. So much headwind from the world. I decided to back off from merging the latest archives plugin everything page support, because I noticed some strange things on the website. After spending quite a bit of time looking into it, I'm glad I held off, despite massive pressures from the world around me to hurry up. It's difficult to put into words, and I know it sounds bizare, but there are times when the world smells blood, it suddenly knows you are in a precarious position, and situations will materialise around you that make you just want to get whatever you are doing done. That's shen mistakes are easily made, and you find yourself merging before everything is properly tested, and of course big problems often ensue.

  But choosing to wait and figure out what's going on properly also has a cost. The entire rest of yesterday I was punished again and again and again, everywherw I went. It made it hugely difficult to get to the core of the issue, but I think I managed to, and made some fixes. I tested it all in staging in the evening, it all looked good. And of course the same exact pattern from the previous night repeated. The world was pushing for me to continue and finish the work, to merge even though I was really tired from standing for many hours. Once again I decided to hold off until the morning, and once again that was followed by an angry world on the warpath.

  I've hardly had any sleep last night, motorbike gang stalkers and several strange situations through the night. What a coincidence that there would be a night of sleep depravation. If you walk into the trap, you get punished, if you avoid the trap, you get punished.

  Are you going to allow today world? Or are you yet again on the warpath? #

• 05:46:00 +07:00 My ankles are massively swollen again. I guess it's all the standing I've been having to do to get the archives fixed. I only have internet when I'm standing up unfortunately. Plus, pins and needles in my legs last night because of the new restricted sleeping situation. Just so horrid. When are you going to give me a break world? #

• 06:11:00 +07:00 By the way, forgot to mention, there was another clearly manufactured incident at one of the sandwich shops yesterday morning. They did the old one person that always gets my order right, remembers the garnishes I don't like, taking my order, then the other bloke, who always purposely gets the order wrong and sometimes turns into a total sandwich nazi, actually making the sandwich. It was quite clearly a planned switcharoo, and of course he got my order wrong, and I had to open the sandwich up in front of him and take out the disgusting stuff. Anyway, that was no doubt grounds for the bullying that ensued the entire rest of the day. And guess what, when I left the sandwich shop, crossed the road, and on the otherside there was a street vendor parked right there, seemed very intent on looking at me, as I passed him he said his line that he'd obviously been waiting to utter: "my dog". How uterly vietnanese charming and on brand for this place. #

2024/06/11 #

• 05:38:00 +07:00 I've got the everything page archives working in staging yesterday. All pages appear to be correctly generated and the links on the pages all point to the right places. The everything page archives are genetated from a merged data source so individual items are in various locations. That makes it more complicated the get the urls right. But I found a way to do it, and it appears to work.

  I decided to wait until today to merge the new code because I was already very tired from standing for so many hours. I still only have internet while standing up at the minute. My ankles are quite swollen today, that's likely because of all the work on the archives over the past few days, but it could be related to the much more difficult sleeping arrangement the world forced me into last week. It's difficult to tell.

  In any case, hoping to have the archives all working and deployed later today. They will probably need a bit of re-arranging of things on the main website, but I'll get to that once it's all deployed. #

• 06:54:00 +07:00 Well the plan to merge and deploy the latest archives plugin has been derailed. As I set off for the internet place, I could sense a warpath brewing in the air. I got to the corner where the soup stand is and sure enough as I crossed the road from the ether emerged a random voice shouting 'more ah!'. That's typucally not a good sign. I calmly notes that it sounded like a warpath and continued on my way.

  At the internet place, there were much nore people than usual at this early time, it was about 6am. Started getting ready to do the merge. Noticed that yesterday's posts hadn't been deployed, even though the midnight build has successfully conpleted. I've been debugging that for the past 40 minutes.

  Looks like the build completed but the deploy got stuck wasting 25 build minutes, and eventually completing without error, though the logs show that the deploy did in fact error, and did not deploy the latest build.

  It's not a good omen. I can almost sense a disturbence in all around me. It’s like I’m being pressured into starting the meege, but I'm already tired now.

  Feeks like the world is going to keep escallating no matter what I do.

  Someone literally as I type this note, just flicked a cigarette butt in my direction. Landed a meter from my feet.

  I guess the world is in fact on another warpath. What a suprise, guess I'll be having to yet again handle another tsunami of hate, as everything gets blamed on me for the millionth time. #

• 07:16:00 +07:00 Definitely need to pause the merge. Just noticed the everything page is broken in both staging and production. It's only displaying notes, no blog posts, no links. It's not clear to me why this happened, especially not in production. Production should normally be using a cached version of all the modules, so any changes in staging should absolutely not affect production, and I haven't refreshed the cache in production. #

2024/06/10 #

• 05:42:00 +07:00 I've made some progress yesterday on getting the archives working for the everything page, though I had to do a lot of housekeeping of the code initially.

  The test data wasn't created with merged data sources in mind, so it wasn't really a good data set for testing the everything page since the different post type examples were on different days. There was also a bunch of EJS syntax in them which was just confusing things. So I spent quite a bit of time updating the data to something that shows the everything page in action.

  The npm module cache started doing strange things again. I was able to prove it wasn't getting updated correctly. Ultimately it was blocking me from using new code in plugins. I refactored the cache refresh logic so it's easier to clear the cache, but in the end the only thing that fixed it was tediously deleting all cache items by hand one by one in the Github web UI. That's not normal. The cache is keyed off of a hash of the package-lock.json. If that changes, and it should everytime something changes in the npm modules, then a new cache should be created. It's either the cache, or npm isn't updating lock files correctly.

  Anyway, hoping to be able to test the latest archives plugin code today, which should hopefully create a merged data source and correctly handle adding the right urls to the page, so individual items from different sources are correctly referenced. Let's hope the cache doesn't cause any more issues, I've used up a little over half of this month's build minutes so far.

  Update: The midnight build for whatever reason got stuck deploying to the hosting provider. The job completed without erroring, but in the logs there was a single error line outputed. The newly built site didn't get deployed either.

  TimeoutError: Timeout while waiting for deploy

  I'm adding this update to trigger a build to deploy the site. Another totally unnecessary waste of 25 build minutes when I'm already almost run out. #

2024/06/09 #

• 04:35:00 +07:00 Sadly the world is on the war path yet again. As far as I can tell it started at a soup stand yesterday morning. They were being weird as I ordered the soup and paid, then as I left there someone loudly said 'pay'. I had already paid and they knew very well that I'd already paid. I continued on my way. The entire rest of the day, escallation after escallation after escallation, and things getting blocked, literally everywhere I went. All through the night gang stalkers have been waking me up by shouting 'lie'. One of their favorite things, you can almost see the glee oozing out of their pores as they do it.

  The lady doth protest a bit too much, me thinks.

  Once again, they create the problem they complain about, they block the solution they suggest, and eventually they just blame everything on you. This will continue until everyone is unhappy about everything, then they will blame the unhappiness on me too. Instructing me to be happy.

  But it doesn't matter what you do, happy or sad, standing up or sitting down, saying something or not saying anything, it doesn't matter, you'll get the blame, and very likely you'll get mutilated in some way, and someone will shout 'learn' at you. Either way that's what happens.

  Blaming me for blaming me. Literally blaming me for the thing they are doing to me. #

• 05:07:00 +07:00 I think I might have made some progress with the everything page archives. I changed where I merge the data sources, essentially it's just another data source like all the others. Previously I had special cased it because I hadn't been able to create the merged data source in the standard way, but I gave it another try and got the promises to resolve correctly.

  I'll be testing the archives using this combined data source later today. I'm expecting it to render the pages correctly but with incorrect urls in the pages in some places. Very conscious of not wasting build minutes. That's easy enough when I'm testing it in just the archives plugin, but as soon as I attempt to test it on the main website, which has the npm module cache, things tend to get very confusing, and each mistake eats up massive amounts of build minutes. And sometimes the cache appears to just not clear properly. Anyway, here we go again. #

• 11:49:00 +07:00 Mark Russinovich CTO of Azure:

  By the way, I’ve been using AI a ton for programming, for these AI projects, and I can tell you, we’re not at risk any time soon of loosing our jobs. I mean I’ve spent so much time debugging AI buggy code. And then trying to "you did it wrong, you introduced a variable and there is no declaration for it"…"oh I’m sorry"…"you still didn’t do it". (31:00)

• 11:49:00 +07:00 Surely the problem with re-enforcement learning, is that at some point, instead of learning the problem being taught, the AI will go meta and start learning the re-enforcement learning, because that's the most obvious re-occurring pattern. Then it's just two entities teaching each other to teach while pretending to be doing something else. And presumably the AI will eventually win that war since it can do much cleverer, and devious re-enforcements than the human. Then civilisational collapse ensues. #

• 13:31:00 +07:00 Vietnam: Warpath warpath warpath warpath warpath warpath warpath warpath warpath warpath

  Me: Are you on the warpath again?

  Vietnam: Warpath lie #

• 13:31:00 +07:00 Me: Are you still on the warpath?

  Vietnam: Warpath #

2024/06/07 #

• 05:20:00 +07:00 I've started work on getting the archives rendering for the everything page. Though the everything page is looking great, when you click through to individual days, since there are no archives, you get a 404. It's a little bit tricky with the everything page because the page gets created by merging all the individual data sources. What this means is that the location of the canonical page for a particular post item are in different places. So you have to have a way to figure out the URL.

  Anyway, I'm going to be working on that for the next few days. I have to be careful with build minutes, I've already used up half of this months minutes. The other thing I could work on is reusabke wirkflows which could make the build minutes issue easier to deal with. But if I do that then the everything page will likely not have archives until next month. It's tough balancing all this stuff. #

• 14:39:00 +07:00 When you build big important things you generally start with a small prototype first. With that in mind, why don't we create super intelligent, fir example, squirels before super intelligent humans? How many people would even be happy with the idea of super intelligent squirels? I'm not sure I'm okay with it. If we aren't happy with superintelligent squirels, why are we happy with superintelligent AIs? #

• 14:46:00 +07:00 It's Friday and looking at the list of podcasts I've starred this week, and I've only started 2 items. I have listened to quite a few. Not sure what I'll do for the newsletter tomorrow. #

• 14:54:00 +07:00 In this age of AI, how long until 'learn' becomes the new C-word? #

2024/06/06 #

• 06:16:00 +07:00 The world has re-configured itself again while I wasn't looking. Without getting into details, sleeping just got a whole lot more difficult. Really not what you want in the middle of rainy season. I wouldn't be suprised if the bullies where measuring out my coffin as I type this.

  I hate writing about this stuff, but that's reality for me at the minute. If I didn't write about it that would be disingenuous. Of course, I imagine it doesn't help much with trying to find a job, to get out of the nightmare caused by COVID. Such are the contradictions at times in life. #

• 07:53:00 +07:00 Just another inconsequential data point.

  I'm standing browsing the internet at the internet place. People are having breakfast coffees at the next door cafes. Chitter chatter is ongoing. At the very instant I'm about to finish up, a man in one of the cafes loudly and repeatedly says the exact name of the noodles I got gifted from a food vendor yesterday. It's very odd, not only because of the timing, but also because these cafes don't have food. There are no food places nearby. Is it intimidation? Is it some sort of strange help? Is it both?

  This type of thing is happening constantly here. Literally everywhere I go, random people seem to know my business, with uncanny precision. Is it harrassment? Pretty sure it would be considered some form of it back in europe.

  It's so impossible to describe the strange things that happen here. Figured I'd write this one up into a note. #

• 08:09:00 +07:00 Just to add to the previous note, because since finishing writing it, mildly thretening passive aggresive behaviour from one of the locals as he walks up and down the lane past me. Historically it's a pattern of behaviour I've been on the receiving end from him many times before. This morning it included a clear reference to last night's sleep depravation re-configuratiom which I mentioned earlier. This sort of escallation is happening constantly. #

• 14:40:00 +07:00 One of the greatest things about long form podcasting is that you get these magic little moments that pop up out of the ether.

  In his latest episode talking with Tony Hinchcliffe, Rogan makes a somewhat unexpected comparison.

  Sure in the run up to the election, Trump was talking about locking Hilary up because of her emails, but he never actually went after the opposition legally. Yet the democrats have done exactly that while claiming that Trump is the crazy one, the loose cannon.

  They are all crazy, that’s what they don’t want you to know. It’s like sluts that are always talking bad about other girls that are sluts." [01:13:00]

  The thing that really makes this one pop is Rogan’s reaction to himself, realising in real-time that he just totally nailed it. Instant classic IMO. #