markjgsmith

Oh wow the past 2 days. Wow. Warpathing from the world on a scale and intensity I’ve never seen before. All the goadings, food, sex, anger, and tsunami after tsunami, including a black tsunami which I don't think I’d seen, certainly not on this scale before. Maybe I’ll get a chance to write about it later. No notes because I’ve been keeping all devices powered off because power and washing water has still been cut off.

Looks like I might be able to charge my devices for a bit at least today.

The observation from the past few days is that the world will help as long as it gets to be nice to me while forcing me to treat myself badly. When I refuse to take on this state of affairs it exposes the world’s cruel treatment of me for what it is and it’s unhappy about that and so punishes me more, which makes it more unhappy, and it blames me more. Some few seem to very much enjoy and thrive in this situation.

In any case there’s been no chance to make any progress on the reusable workflow feature even though it’s essentially complete. Same for listening to podcasts and writing blog posts. Progress on everything is essentially blocked in all dimensions, yet the world continues to 'yah'. Literally 'yah’ing' me even more.

No slaves everybody. Stop being perverts perverts. #

cat << EOF > Perverts vs normies

Some notes on perverts vs normies. When I say pervert here, I’m not talking about sexual perversion but just the more general variety. All these thoughts are just experimental as I sit here waiting for my devices to charge, in a very topsy tirvy, contradictionary and spiritually confused world. And yeah that last sentence isn’t meant to be super precise. Writing about this sort of stuff is next to impossible.

Anyway, the thoughts:

• Is there a max limit any one of these systems can handle?
• It can’t be either all perverts or all normies, or things start to block.
• The minority acts as lubricant
• But there is risk that the minority group get turned into slaves
• Maybe the pendulum swings between each extreme
• Maybe there is an optimum balance?
• Each side not can only see the other side via prediction and instrumentation
• They are essentially asymptotic to each other, there is no way to prove categorically the existence of the other you have to guess
• It’s very difficult to think in both paradigms at the same time, so things become impossible
• But you can sort of ‘feel’ your way through
• The ‘shapes’ of concepts and dynamics are exact mirror opposites so you can guess their position and direction using basic geometry extrapolation
• Is calling this entire line of thinking perverts vs normies accurate or useful? Probably not, but that’s all I got right now
• I could have just as easily called it normality vs the infinite algorythm. Or maybe infinite libertarianism: inside out authoritarianism.
• You very quickly get into the realms of philosophy, art and religion with this sort of stuff. Life goes on.

cat << EOF > Hyper hyper control days

• Things are very delicate
• Every gosh darn movement in synchronous / anti-synchronous, everyone is confused and on edge, walking on spiritual egg shells
• Like passing through double sourced imaginary triangulated data clouds, kind of scary then it passes through you, and you are still fine, then calmly move on to the next thing
• Feeling quite sneezy today, sort of blocked nose, will it turn to full on cold?

The UI in my git client is being extremely adversarial. It’s like the list of file changes is updated by an LLM. It keeps changing it’s mind, showing files, hiding files, secretly selecting files or unselecting files right before you commit. Just spent half an hour adding 2 blog posts I had written. Oh world.

Even more sneezy now.

I'm not going to tell you I told you so, just that it’s happening, yet again.

Hello mutilation world. How are you today? Enjoying your little warpath? #

Blocked by the UI, also blocked at the internet place in more ways than one. Not going to be able to make much progress on anything today. At least I’ve written some blog posts and notes and charged my devices a little bit.

Once it starts happening it usually spreads into all dimensions.

Oh well. #

cat << EOF > Sequence down at the canal

Occasionally here in Vietnam where I am I go down to the canal where it can be pleasant when the weather is nice. One odd thing I’ve noticed is that the regular walkers always show up at the exact same time, and I’m pretty sure in the same order. It’s very strange. This post is just to document it in case I want to refer to it later. I got there at around 1:15pm today and left around 5pm.

• short butch woman with the flask
• thin man showing his chest with the hat
• the pissing security guard
• the two old men one with the gloves
• the old man that walks like he’s a tough guy but he’s not exactly a beef cake
• the two middle aged strong women that always warpath
• the large indian yet sort of western looking woman in the sari with the strangely familiar face
• the point at the ground while he walks no no no imaginary metal detector bloke

I’ll likely update this post as time goes on. There are others of course that walk the canal but these are the ones that are there literally every time I go there. #

Some really aggressive warpathers down at the canal today. Not sure if a memo was sent out or whether they could taste blood given that I was sneezing, or whether it was all some pre-arranged thing, that they knew I was going to be sneezing because they caused it in the first place. All are strong possibilities.

Lots and lots of 'Up!' harrassment. Some 'you learn'. Quite a lot of 'liar!', and 'young liar'. Also in the past hour many 'allow!'.

The sneezing / runny nose is I would say a medium on the severeness scale. No chance of doing any work, as nose is far too sensitive.

This happens so often after a bullying cycle, that there’s no way it’s a coincidence. #

One thing I’d really like to know about the Telegram situation, is whether anyone uncovered any evidence of gang stalkers organising gang stalker activities. I know everyone is worried about all the CSAM stuff, and of course that’s most important, but for me the thing that affects me directly is whether the gang stalkers that harrass me day in day out are using these services. One would think that this sort of thing would have happened using Telegram. It would be great to see something like that, just to confirm that yes indeed gang stalkers do harrass people, and that we’re not all crazy and falling victim to so called 'confirmation bias'. #