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For some reason during yesterday’s repo git nightmare I must have incorrectly named the current day’s blog content feature branch. They contain the date so that the auto publish workflow creates a pull request containing all the latest content, merges it into the main branch, and launches a build and deploy. But I used today’s date instead. That probably means the build won’t have merged in yesterday’s content, so I’ll have to do that manually later when I get to the internet place. There are always so many pieces to fix when you get sucked into a nightmare like the one yesterday.

You end up fixing things for days. It’s like a reverse mirror image, a negative if you will, of the bullying escalation that caused the problem in the first place. Perhaps I’ve inadvertently been turned into a human Arilaser. I should start charging some fucking money for this service. Wish I new how to. Too many people just assume things will get fixed these days, not realising or not caring about the fact that somebody ends up paying for it.

How long till food world? These bags are not getting much lighter. #

Escallations have increased significantly. I’m getting blamed and ordered simultaneously. Because of the ambiguity I get punished no matter what. If I do what they say, I get punished for not doing the other thing. Food has been cut off, water cut off, electricity cut off. Basically everything cut off.

Build minutes totally wasted, because I've saved loads of minutes this month but can’t use them because I don’t have the energy to stand up to use the internet.

Feels like it’s more plus infiniti minus infiniti, more infiniti for we and none for thee, more turning peace into war, more turning giving into stealing, more be bad no be good, and that’s just the beginning. The same pattern will happen in every dimension, until eventually I’ll get mutilated, even though I’m already being mutilated, I’m still being mutilated from the previous bullying cycle. Then they will just turn maximum into minimum and it will all start again.

Morning bycicle guy drove by this morning casually shouting 'You won!' as he drove by with his gang of racer byciclists. Go figure. Turns out 'Yon won!' really just means, we gonna f you up.

I get f-ed up no matter what I do!

Update: It’s a few hours later, I’m in the park. A girl with a bit of an attitude walked past around 10 minutes ago, said 'you won' as she passed. So that’s defo a thing today, and guess what, a western bloke, tallish and kind of large around the waist, dressed head to toe in black, just passed by non-chalently, looking kind of clueless. Guess what image was on the black plastic bag he was holding in one of his hands? It had the following large white characters on one side which I saw exactly as I looked up and he just happened to unwind the bag which the wind had caused it to be slightly tangled: '1st'. Remember people wearing all black has been a thing for a few weeks now. While writting the previous sentence, a largeish middle aged woman walked past and said the word 'died'. I’m honetly not making any part of this up. Just another day in AI (presumably) scripted reality.

Update: Another all black just walked past! A westerner dressed head to toe in black, they were both wearing shorts btw, brandishing a mostly finished bottle of water. This floppy blond haired all blacker didn’t look quite as clueless as the last one. He looked at me as he strolled past, his long arms swinging back and forth, armed with a very disaproving look. I guess they must have updated the memo. Half expecting some black hawks to start appearing in the skies. #

The weird synchronicities between the podcasts I’m listening to and stuff happening in the RL around me, which are usually quite high anyway, at least compared to say 10 years ago but I’m mostly used to it, well they are noticeably off the charts today. And lots of clusters happening one after the other with bizare precision. Like bam, bam, bam. A couple of times I had to pause what I was listening to because it was so disorientating. And so it goes sometimes.

I know I’ve written this already today, and I’m guessing the more I say it, the less truthfull it sounds, so I’ll stop after this, but I’m not making any of this shit up. #