markjgsmith

2024/07/31 #

• Since most things had been cut off yesterday, I couldn’t continue with much, having to save on power and water. I chilled for much of the day. The escallations subsided somewhat. There was a load of weird synchronicities in the early morning, but harrassment appeared to calm down or at least change a bit in tone, and there was some piece and quiet. I was able to rest for a few hours.

  I found an annoyingly difficult to spot bug in the reusable workflows feature. When you’re having to stand to use the internet, the needle in a haystack bugs become really difficult to spot. Anyway hoping to spend a bit more time on that today. Looks like I’ll be able to charge my devices again.

  Really would like to figure out how to avoid these boom and bust starvation cycles. So just mentioning it here, if you have any ideas universe, I’m listening as best I can.

  Sending out good vibes to all you regular readers, and much luck :) #

• A large masonary brick was left, on the way to the internet place, on the same corner that a dead rat was left previously about a month ago. The dead rat thing happened the same day an apparrent funeral memorial service was errected across the street from said corner. I wrote about it at the time.

  That was about the same time the people dressed all in black thing started becoming a thing. Just wanted to summarise in case there are more escallations. Seems the world is once again on the warpath. #

2024/07/30 #

• No food for ages then breakfast, lunch and dinner pretty much all at once. Got gifted a couple of croisants late last night, then two meals in quick succession in the wee hours, hence I’m up earlier than usual. I’ll get a few hours of coding done at the internet place where I can test my code online, and now that I’ve eaten something I’ll have some energy.

  Hopefully the starvation from the last few days won’t have too many side effects. I’ve found in the past that my body has needed a day or two to recover. This time it wasn’t total starvation, as I managed to eat a few small snacks here and there, though mostly quite devoid of any nutrition. We shall see.

  I think my build minutes reset today or tomorrow so it’s the last chance to use those minutes up. The good news is that next weekend’s newsletter is already done so that takes the pressure off a bit. I’ll keep on adding links and posts and listening to podcasts, and update the newsletter at the end of the week.

  I find it odd but not unnexpected that the week after I published a newsletter and blog post about kicking poverty’s ass, that the universe decided to totally kick my ass. What are the chances? #

• The Swiss example of open source software being used in government is awesome. It’s great but let’s make sure it’s done responsibly.

  I wonder if the type of government has an impact. There’s a lot of politics happening at the minutes, the tectonic plates are shifting somewhat in many places. In Europe, in the US, and even in the Middle East, there have been several landslide elections, often with controversy.

  Does a lefty government do open source differently to a righty government?

  What are the dangers and pitfalls to watch out for in each case? #

2024/07/29 #

• For some reason during yesterday’s repo git nightmare I must have incorrectly named the current day’s blog content feature branch. They contain the date so that the auto publish workflow creates a pull request containing all the latest content, merges it into the main branch, and launches a build and deploy. But I used today’s date instead. That probably means the build won’t have merged in yesterday’s content, so I’ll have to do that manually later when I get to the internet place. There are always so many pieces to fix when you get sucked into a nightmare like the one yesterday.

  You end up fixing things for days. It’s like a reverse mirror image, a negative if you will, of the bullying escalation that caused the problem in the first place. Perhaps I’ve inadvertently been turned into a human Arilaser. I should start charging some fucking money for this service. Wish I new how to. Too many people just assume things will get fixed these days, not realising or not caring about the fact that somebody ends up paying for it.

  How long till food world? These bags are not getting much lighter. #

• Escallations have increased significantly. I’m getting blamed and ordered simultaneously. Because of the ambiguity I get punished no matter what. If I do what they say, I get punished for not doing the other thing. Food has been cut off, water cut off, electricity cut off. Basically everything cut off.

  Build minutes totally wasted, because I've saved loads of minutes this month but can’t use them because I don’t have the energy to stand up to use the internet.

  Feels like it’s more plus infiniti minus infiniti, more infiniti for we and none for thee, more turning peace into war, more turning giving into stealing, more be bad no be good, and that’s just the beginning. The same pattern will happen in every dimension, until eventually I’ll get mutilated, even though I’m already being mutilated, I’m still being mutilated from the previous bullying cycle. Then they will just turn maximum into minimum and it will all start again.

  Morning bycicle guy drove by this morning casually shouting 'You won!' as he drove by with his gang of racer byciclists. Go figure. Turns out 'Yon won!' really just means, we gonna f you up.

  I get f-ed up no matter what I do!

  Update: It’s a few hours later, I’m in the park. A girl with a bit of an attitude walked past around 10 minutes ago, said 'you won' as she passed. So that’s defo a thing today, and guess what, a western bloke, tallish and kind of large around the waist, dressed head to toe in black, just passed by non-chalently, looking kind of clueless. Guess what image was on the black plastic bag he was holding in one of his hands? It had the following large white characters on one side which I saw exactly as I looked up and he just happened to unwind the bag which the wind had caused it to be slightly tangled: '1st'. Remember people wearing all black has been a thing for a few weeks now. While writting the previous sentence, a largeish middle aged woman walked past and said the word 'died'. I’m honetly not making any part of this up. Just another day in AI (presumably) scripted reality.

  Update: Another all black just walked past! A westerner dressed head to toe in black, they were both wearing shorts btw, brandishing a mostly finished bottle of water. This floppy blond haired all blacker didn’t look quite as clueless as the last one. He looked at me as he strolled past, his long arms swinging back and forth, armed with a very disaproving look. I guess they must have updated the memo. Half expecting some black hawks to start appearing in the skies. #

• The weird synchronicities between the podcasts I’m listening to and stuff happening in the RL around me, which are usually quite high anyway, at least compared to say 10 years ago but I’m mostly used to it, well they are noticeably off the charts today. And lots of clusters happening one after the other with bizare precision. Like bam, bam, bam. A couple of times I had to pause what I was listening to because it was so disorientating. And so it goes sometimes.

  I know I’ve written this already today, and I’m guessing the more I say it, the less truthfull it sounds, so I’ll stop after this, but I’m not making any of this shit up. #

2024/07/28 #

• I had written a note early this morning when I woke up, but it somehow disapeared during earlier's repo git nightmare. I can’t remember exactly what I’d written. It was mostly about the insane levels of sleep depravation and harrassment that I experiences last night. It seemed like almost every possible group from the motorbike gang stalkers to the security guard mafia, to the middle aged yuppies with laptops crowd, to the weird old lady that hangs out outside the shop, to a young couple to name but a few, they were all harrasing the whole night in one way or another. Stealing my sleep, my food, my life and finding it all hilarious. The weird thing is it felt like watchers being watched by watchers being watched by watchers. They left one by one, finally just before dawn they were all gone. I got hardly any sleep.

  And this morning somebody had left an earthworm for me, I guess to eat. Such kindness has rarely been seen. The earthworm died btw, ravaged by the ants.

  Well things were once again made to be my fault for much of the day today. Again lots of harrassment from young and not quite middle aged peoples. Managed to stay mostly calm through it all.

  I managed to listen to a few podcasts and write a somewhat satirical blog post. I say somewhat because it is born out of my very strange experiences here in Vietnam over the past few years.

  Anyhow, another difficult day nears it’s end. Hardly any food today. Feeling quite low energy, bags are heavy, not very entusiastic about much. #

2024/07/27 #

• One of the I suppose nice things from yesterday, was that in amongst all the bullying and stealing from me, there was finally an admission that they were actually stealing from me. They kept on stealing from me but they did at least admit they were doing it. I don’t know in practice if this will have any net benefit to me, maybe it will mean I stop getting mutilated. That would be great.

  Reasonably good night’s sleep, not much sleep depravation. But this morning as soon as I woke up there was a big wave of drive-by harrassment, starting with a bloke on a bycicle shouting Bear! at me. That’s him trying to justify the starvation that they are currently inflicting on me.

  Then there was a bunch of motorbike drive-bys shouting Liar! and one with a ridiculously camp quite large man in a pink T-Shirt shouting Leeeegal! over and over to the person sitting behind him.

  I did manage to get what I think is quite a good blog post yesterday all about our challenge to solve starvation. It fits in quite well with this week’s newsletter theme, which I haven’t quite figured out, but it’s something like "Kicking Poverty’s Ass". I'm not too into the violence in that tagline, but it’s the best I’ve been able to come up with that doesn't sound like a total buzzkill.

  Anyhow today I need to write the newsletter, send it out, and hope some food materialised because it’s been a few days since I ate any real food. The bags I'm carrying are heavier than usual because I got gifted a bunch of non-food items. This is the latest malicious help btw, whenever they start starving me, they now try to ensure my bags are as full and heavy as possible. It’s happened on the last 3 or 4 starvation cycles.

  No doubt they will be yah’ing me even more than usual as I drag the heavy bags, super low on energy from not eating anything. And they know exactly what they are doing. This is pro-infiniti-slavery. Coming to a town like yours soon! But don’t make any jokes about it, that’s not allowed. You’re not even allowed to make self depracating jokes. Only they can make jokes, and they are always aimed at you. #

• You would think that since the US is so ridiculously divided that this would be the perfect time to launch a centrist political party, for sane people that are tired of the extremes on both sides. I mean, especially in this age of AI, where does the division end? You could even promise to change it so every 4 years it shifted to be center-left or center-right.

  Surely if things continue in the current direction, at some point you just end up with two sides that are completely unnable to talk to each other at all. Kind of makes you wonder how they got into that nightmare in South Africa. That didn’t sound like much fun.

  Isn’t Apartheid the end result when you have total dysfunction? #

2024/07/26 #

• I was physically assaulted again last night by what appears to have been a drive-by attack from the motorbike gang stalkers. I didn’t see exactly what happened, but at some point in the early hours when I wasn’t looking I recieved what felt very much like lots of small stones hitting my face. It felt like there was some type of impact. It was painful, I shouted in pain, and I instinctively held both hands up to my face to protect myself.

  After a moment when I realised I was okay, I looked around and the very strange thing, is that there was no debris or rocks or any sort of projectiles around me. I still haven’t completely figured out how it could have happened, but I have a few ideas. In any case a few monents later several motorbike drive-by harrassment attacks occurred, in quick succession. At least one of them was someone shouting 'you learn' directly at me while reving their engine. These appear all to have been by young adults in their late teens / early twenties.

  I was quite shaken up by the whole episode, but I’m okay. This appears once again to have been part of a bigger planned escallation that has been happening over the past few days. I might write more about that later, it’s very weird, including elements sexual in nature, starvation, anger goading, but much darker than most previous incidents. I just wanted to have at least something writen about the attack here regardless.

  This happened the day after a westerner tried to help me, trying to give me some options to improve my situation, and imo is just another example of me being blocked any time I try to fix my situation being stuck here. The message is pretty clear: you try to leave, we will hurt you. #

2024/07/25 #

• I managed to get the bulk of the refactoring needed to move to reusable workflows for all the builds. The world was of course trying to trip me up the entire way. The new favorite thing is to have someone give me an order early morning then make that thing they ordered me to do impossible. It’s just more examples of their 3 step manouver: create problem, block solution, escallate & blame.

  For example, day before yesterday, in the shop where I get hot water for noodles, another apparent customer in the queue after me told me to 'work!' as I was arranging my bag, then in the cafe seating area of a place I go to to listen to podcasts, write blog posts and code, the entire day there was what can only be described as a relay race of eggregious blocking that ensued. One after the other, from gangs of youths playing group video games making a racket, to loud angry women on the telephone, to solo gamers loudly getting angry at their video game and continuously tutting, to women telling off small children, and much more people not working. It just never ended. Blocked again and again by the opposite of the thing they are telling me to do. Literally one would leave and another would arrive within 60 seconds. The entire day. Then of course they blame me for everything and mutilate me.

  It was the same yesterday except the order was 'happy', followed by literally tsunami after tsunami of extremely unhappy people, doing much the same. Always back to their 3 step manouver.

  So so so bleak.

  Someone bought me a sandwich yesterday evening, that was nice. But the world was right back to it’s bullying with sleep depravation from women on motorbikes all through the night, and white tissue anger goading this morning. Oh and of course they are back to starving me again, while doing drive-bys shouting 'Money!' at me. #

• Since hearing that some americans think MI6 is behind the failed Trump assassination, I've been trying to figure out a scenario where that would even make sense. My lived experience in the UK is that aside from the occasional joke, the vaste vaste vaste majority of people just don’t spend any time at all thinking about the US being independant. In fact we all think it’s awesome.

  The MI6 conspiracy just makes no sense to me at all. The only reason I can think for MI6 to do something that extreme is that they believe the US, or an entity controlling the US, is doing something even more extreme.

  Likely my experience here in Vietnam over the last few years is affecting my thinking on this, but I’ve become a bit sceptical about infiniti. In fini tea. What are the chances?

  Can’t we all just chill out, go to the pub, and all get along?

  Btw, probably compleately unrelated, but MI in Vietnam means noodles, but bizarely is also used in the word for sandwich which is Banh Mi. I always thought was quite odd.

  Update: Bang means cake according to Google translate #

2024/07/24 #

• I did eventually get the code for the reusable workflows feature I mentioned yesterday writen, but oh gosh was there push back from an angry world definitely on the war path pretending quite unsuccessfully to not be on the war path. I also managed a blog post, and that too was a slog to get through. Just so much hate and anger, disguished as 'you learn' and 'pay' harrassment incidents. Getting blamed quite literally for the things being done to me. That’s the thieves little trick, they steal from you while blaming you for stealing. It’s not always obvious because the thing they steal often isn’t a physical thing, but it equates to one because ultimately in one way or another you end up paying for it with time or money.

  I listenned to a pretty wild episode of Gold Goats ’n Guns podcast, talking all about the Trump assassination attempt. It meanders on for quite a while but it sure does finish on a whopper of a conspiracy theory. I had no idea people in the US thought like this. Kind of want to hear more about these wild ideas.

  Seems like I’m on the brink of another starvation cycle from the gang stalker thiefs who just want to control every single concievable aspect of my life. Makes the pro-choice issue in the US seem a bit quaint. Broadly I would describe it as pro-infiniti-slavery. It’s so extreme that people simply don’t believe it’s a real thing. Finding it hilarious like some kind of joke. Meanwhile it’s totally happening.

  I have a few podcasts to review, and need to go through yesterday’s code I wrote. Let’s see how far I get, hard to do on an empty stomach.

  Another day... #

• Ashley Esqueda on TWIT [10:42]: "There is an interesting device though, with younger people, particularly GenZ and younger, there’s this permeating feeling of, and I’ve seen this several times with multiple research and data that’s been published, they really feel like the most important news will make it to me. They feel that they don’t need to go looking for it because the most important news is going to find me. Like the thing that is the most relevant to me…they really trust the algorithm, which is slightly terrifying, but also it’s an interesting change, an interesting shift. The first group of people that have grown up entirely in algorithms, are people that really trust them to bring them the news that they need to know, as opposed to a even younger millennial who remembers a time when there wasn’t an algorithm to contend with." #

2024/07/23 #

• Crappy day full of fucking bullying from the dirty fucking thieves, non stop both aggressive and passive aggressive bullying. Managed a blog post, but it was a nightmare to write, and now once again I have a runny nose. Fucking thieves. Stop stealing from me thieves. #

2024/07/22 #

• Lots of low grade escallations this morning from motorbike drivebys. Yesterday there was a massive, IMO clearly co-ordinated, escallation that lasted the entire day. Literally every location I went to, and at key points I passed as I walked between places, there were folks waiting to shout harrassment at me. These were clearly manufactured incidents in each location. The general theme was you-do-what-we-say, you-belong-to-us. Yah’ing basically everywhere. I calmly responded in each case by calling the perpetraitors theifs and said for them to stop stealing from me. Ultimately, when all is said and done that’s what’s going on here. They might not like to hear it but that’s what it is.

  I’m not here by choice. I’m got stuck here and continue to be stuck here because of decisions other people made. I did all the right things I was asked and supposed to do at every step, and now I’m having my life stolen from me, by people who believe they literally own me. That’s theft of the worst kind. Stealing someone’s life is literally equivalent to murder. Calling them thieves is extremely generous, in reality they are murderers. Slow murdering me. Every. single. day.

  I took some notes about the escallations yesterday so maybe I’ll write them up into a blog post today.

  Trying to blog as much as I am able to but the conditions are very confrontational, adversarial and bleak everywhere. #

• I see this morning that president Biden has dropped out of the race. I have to admit part of me is a bit disapointed there won’t be a Rocky Balboa coming back from the brink moment in this story. That would have been a very american thing to happen, at least based on all the Hollywood movies I’ve watched in my lifetime, and the situation sure does feel like some sort of movie a lot of the time. Anyway, it will be interesting to see where this takes us. It’s not a Rocky movie.

  I wonder what kind of movie fits the current moment. What movies did GenZers grow up watching?

  Also video games, I don’t know anything about those though.

  Also what movies are scheduled to be released in the next 12 months. I’ve found in the past that somewhat bizarely movies can be quite an accurate bell weather of things to come. #

• It feels like societies are reaching some kind of maximum. Peak fakeness. Peak everything.

  It’s is happening so much quicker than in the past. Films have much more complicated plots than in years gone by, same for television series, video games, and it’s the same for other literature based art. We’ve been ramping up the complexity in many different dimensions for decades at this point.

  I wonder whether the pendulum will start to swing in another direction at some point, because in a similar way to Moor's law, perhaps we are running out of space. We are bursting at the seams. Is there a maximum complexity that these city based systems we live in can feasibly process?

  As a reaction to all the crazy fast paced infiniti everything, maybe there will be a shift towards more ambient and ephemeral ways of existing, maybe we need some time in the Chill Out room. More Brian Eno. Less Gaba. #

• I just can't bring myself to writing up the latest escallation I mentioned in this morning's note. Everything is just too dam bleak. Not much interesting to blog about today :( #

• Lots of people dressed in black today, many fake sneezing, and I’m sneezing now with runny nose, and wouldn’t you know it, the people all dressed in black are saying 'you learn'. I guess that signals the end of the current escallation cycle, me once again mutilated.

  Everything is clearly too difficult now that they’ve escallated everything in every dimension and the only solution is to mutilate me and blame everything on me for the millionth time. Lazy fucking thieves. #

2024/07/21 #

• Some thoughts about theft and stealing brought about by the past few days. I’m just thinking out loud.

  A bunch of malicious help last night. It’s unbelievable how 1 lot of malicious help leads to another, which leads to another. It’s like theft being used to fix a theft, which is being used to fix a theft. Each time they created the problem in the first place, yet blamed it on you.

  Theft just doesn’t work as a core of society, eventually you run out of people to steal from. Then you are stuck at this stupid self imposed maximum, an equilibrium between thieves and victims. If there is no stealing, there is no maximum, everyone can grow together and help each other without worrying.

  If you are stealing from somebody to teach them I think it’s likely that at best you are teaching them to steal. If you are stealing to teach you aren’t teaching, you’re stealing. #

• I wrote yesterday about Rogan’s advice to create successful and cool businesses. If the US is so incredibly divided politically, I mean everyone is saying the divide is the worst ever, that there is this insane level of hate, then how is it that people from both camps can go to the same comedy places and laugh at the same jokes?

  Wouldn’t you expect that eventually there would be Republican comedy places and Democrat comedy places and never the two shall meet? Or is that perhaps a thing that might still happen? Should we be taking measures to make sure this doesn’t happen?

  Is there a weird world possible where one side just decides to ditch comedy all together, and the other side then creates fake people to make it look like both sides are still laughing together when in fact they aren’t. The infiniti comedy division is a pretty dark thought. #

2024/07/20 #

• The new thing, since the evening before yesterday evening, is people dressed in black. Mostly head to toe black, occasionally just a black tshirt. They have been appearing everytime some sort of manufactured anger goading is in progress. They will often appear to be having a normal conversation, but then they drop in a word that was used in a key moment during the previous anger goading situation, which was usually in a totally different location. It sticks out like a soar thumb in amongst the apparent vietnamese they are speaking.

  There was quite a bit of sleep depravation by roudy groups that kept showing up one after the other yesterday evening like some sort of relay race. It was clear I was being blamed for something. There were several seruptitious 'you learn' shouting in amongst the frollicking cleary aimed directly at me.

  I’m still calling out people stealing from me. That’s going down about as you would expect. Usually resulting in even more stealing. Sandwich shops suddenly run out of ingredients, cafe shop seating areas suddenly get mysteriously sealed off with cardboard box tape, shop staff counters closing as you get to the front of the queue, getting redirected to another queue, only for that queue to also get mysteriously closed. Even self depracating jokes about being a tennis ball, go down like a ton of bricks. Only they are aloud to be funny, you can never be funny, even if you are taking the piss out of yourself.

  The hypocracy reaches the end of the universe and pokes a whole through to the next universe, while simultaneously springing a leak into 12 different dimensions you never even knew existed.

  Got issue #173 of the newsletter writen and published though. That felt pretty good.

  And I’m right back at it listening to podcasts, taking notes, writing blog posts and posting links. #

• Likely no blog posts today. I’ve gone through all the low hanging fruit from my daily notes, the ones remaining require a bit more thought and attention and space to think. The world has been yah’ing me for days now. Of course there is only so much of that I can withstand, eventually it turns into an infiniti block. I’m going to try and chill for the rest of the day. I've got the newsletter out, published a bunch of links, and done most of my backlog pruning, ready for next week.

  This past week had been a productive one, yet I need to find a balance where I can write code as well. Writing code and 3 blog posts a day, isn’t realistic. Certainly not on the puny hardware I'm currently stuck with. #

• There’s something really egregious about people that are openly generous but then passive aggressively discourage you from accepting their generocity. It’s really a very pernicious form of stealing, and the worst kind because it’s essentially stealing from everyone, it’s stealing from society. And it often comes from folks that say they are all for working together, for the common good. Double egregious. #

2024/07/19 #

• I’ve been able to write quite a few blog posts the past few days. One thing I changed in my routine is I started drinking a hot cup of coffee in the morning, and occasionally one in the afternoon. It definitely helps with getting focussed and into gear as far as writting goes, at least it has done for the past few days. The downside is that I’m not too into how it makes you feel afterwards when the coffee wears off. It’s not terrible, but I find I’m perhaps somewhat more irritable.

  The world of course gas noticed my slight change in routine, and has been doing it’s best to royally f it all up. Manufactured situations where people in cafes / shops are setting themselves up to sleep for the entire day, yet if I so much as put my feet up on a chair I get in trouble with the shop staff. It’s basically impossible to change anything without it causing enormous problems, as the malicious types try to find all the holes in the new configuration. It’s absolutely madenning.

  I call it what it is which is theft. Theft of your life is the worst kind of theft. It’s basically slow murder IMO.

  I've continued trying to do the podcast reviews as I listen to podcasts, creating links on the linkblog. When it works it feels good, but the world constantly getting in the way so it feels like a struggle. Somehow it’s easier to do that all in one go, rather than after each episode. I wish that wasn’t the case. It would be great to have all the reviews done when I start writing each issue.

  I'm a few reviews behind, so I’ll hopefully get those done today, world willing. Overall I kind if like this new way of doing it, but I’m not sure it’s very practical given my circumstances. Unfortunately.

  Anytime I start typing for more than a few minutes, it‘s like I trigger some sort of immune response from the hive mind, and the world starts yah’ing me, trying to hurry me up, and of course that has the opposite effect. Oh well, one must persevere regardless as they say. #

• I wonder if in the distant future governments will eventually just consist of AI brain trainer specialists. In this world a change of government, would essentually be a national brain transplant. The turn up with the new brain, plug it in, then everything just gets put through the new brain. #

2024/07/18 #

• Here’s a infiniti No! total reality inversion classic example that happened to me yesterday afternoon:

  It’s raining and wet everywhere. It‘s been raining for about 5 minutes. I'm walking to a sandwich shop, carrying all 3 of my bags, which are all quite full and heavy. As I walk / clamber around a tricky part in the pavement where there's a lamp post, a man on a motorbike pulls up close to me, veering towards me unexpectedly, asking me ‘where you go?’ motioning to get on his motorbike. It's bysy heavy traffic everywhere.

  That’s already quite unusual though not unheard of, but as I look at him I realise he is western. That really is VERY unusual. He repeats himself, he had a French accent. I politely decline, but it’s very awkward because the curb is very high where I am walking, and remember it’s raining, and I’ve got these heavy bags, and I’m now having to deal with this surprise offer. I stumble, my foot slips on the enormous curb, I go flying directly into some parked motorbikes, with enormous momentum because of the heavy bags.

  I’ve fallen over previously a few times with these bags and it’s really really dangerous, your legs literally buckle under you, so when it happens this time I get flash backs of previous times it happened. Miraculously I don’t fall to the ground, I stabilise myself with the parked motorbike, that I imagine are scratched by my bags after crashing into them.

  I instinctively say out loud "careful mate", because well, his manoeuvre was frankly bloody dangerous given the conditions. He looks very annoyed at me and shouts ‘No!’, then drives off. No sorry, no ‘are you ok’, no help getting back stable on my feet. Just a loud somewhat angry 'No!'. Like the entire thing is my fault. He then drives off.

  I finally get to the shop, buy what I went there for, and just before I walk off the girl working there, who historically is very often on a warpath, shouts ‘liar’. I call her a thief, she immediately says thank you in Vietnamese, like she was expecting me to say that, I’m completely exhausted and spent after continuous bullying all morning in every location and walk away, a few meters down the road I gather my thoughts and tell the world to stop stealing from me.

  I notice that on the top shelf of the items I was buying, that come in various sizes, the top shelf now has a size that’s 1/2 as big as the previous smallest size. Note there has been both 1/2 size food portion anger goading, as well as large butch women suddenly turning up and running all the sandwich shops along side the previous, often very moody, non-butch sandwich shop staff.

  This is what it has come to. The level of pettiness is such that people would quite happily consume an entire universe of resources just to win an argument on why a neutrino was out of place by a distance of one neutrino.

  The odd thing is that the girl and bloke from this sandwich shop always give off a sort of french vibe, in the way they behave, the things they say, perhaps they used to live there or something, but I always got a French vibe from them. What are the chances? #

2024/07/17 #

• The new thing is once again harrassment of a sexual nature, combined with starvation and food goading. A few days ago I was gifted a fancy croisant from an expensive bakery, by a woman on a motorbike. Now every evening a well dressed tall bloke turns up, sits nearby. He is always holding a large bag from the expensive bakery, full of nice pastries. He looks to be waiting for someone in the building across the road.

  While he waits the security guard in the building opposite, sits directly facing me, and repeatedly makes up and down motion with his right hand, very quickly. It looks very much like he’s pretend masterbate. He eventually stops, and fancy pastries bloke crosses the road and walks off with the person he was waiting for. About 30 mins before this a young woman offered me 1/2 a bagel, because she apparently "was full" and couldn’t eat it. I politely declined. The half food portions has been a thing for several days now, which I have written about.

  She had a very shifty attitute. Every morning, and I’m sure today will be no different, the sexual harrassment weird old lady puts used tissues in my path in the gutter. Yesterday evening whenever she appeared, right afterwards somebody appeared gorging on food. All these things are linked. It’s all harrassment, it’s all some form of stealing from me. Stop stealing my life world. #

• Eric Semler on Bitcoin company treasuries: "Bitcoin is the cheapest way to buy the future because it’s the only currency that doesn’t get debased." #

• I’m a couple of days into the newsletter prep experiment, and I have to say, it feels way more laborious. Doing each review right after listening to each podcast really creates a lot of friction to the listening experience. Feels a lot less free flowing than just listening to them all, taking notes, then boshing out all the reviews in one sitting. I’ll soldier on for the rest of the week.

  I think it’s partly made worse by the dire state of the hardware I’m using. Adding links to the git repo takes aaaaaggges. It’s disapointing because I had high hopes I could have added some cool automation to create the newsletter later down the line.

  Anyway, maybe I’ll feel different about it by the end of the week. #

• I’ve been using the podcast queue feature in my podcast app quite a bit recently. It’s a cool feature. Here’s how I use it:

  • Add to it the most interesting looking episodes after downloading every morning
  • Listen throughout the day
  • Add mostly new stuff, also maybe a few old ones you missed
  • You have to clear it every few days
  • More than 10 items starts to get a bit unmanageable

  The nice thing is that you do all the choosing agead of time, so you are never in a position to have to choose when the world is on the warpath with you. #

• The butch women army appears to be on the warpath with me again. All this morning, when I was trying to buy food they were joking / not joking about food access, and turning up on motorbikes surrounding me, very intimidating. What did I do? I’ve been calling out people as thieves when they quite clearly are steeling my life from me. Since people are constantly steeling my life from me in one way or another, seems to have ruffled some feathers. People want to be able to infiniti block you, but you can’t even call it out. When they do it, it’s a hilarious joke, when you so much as think about it, you are an infiniti Adolf Hitler. #

2024/07/16 #

• Right in the middle of another gang stalker escallation cycle. When all is said and done it’s theft. Theft plain and simple. So I’m calling what it is, everytime it happens, which is a lot because each time they try to fix the situation with another theft, each time disguised as something else. Before you know it it’s malicious help after malicious help after malicious help. Each time making the situation even worse while pretending to be the saviours. Until maximum perversion, at which point the entire social system starts to break down. And eventually I get blamed and often mutilated.

  Another starvation cycle is just about to start. The malicious help from last night involved two girls in their twenties on a motorbike ostensibly giving out meals, except they made a point of giving the weird old lady, who now is permanently camped outside the shop, a meal too. I could sense there was something up the second they artived. Anyway, opened the meal to find it was half sized. Thiefs.

  The other very weird thing that happened earlier in the evening, was that during the rain storm the weird old lady came over to where I was sheltering and started acting very bizarely, what can only be described as sexual advances. She eventually went away. During the night a meal was left in the place she had been sitting. All this stuff is harassment, it’s of a sexual nature. It’s combined with starvation, and constant anger goading. It is frankly disgusting.

  It’s all ultimately theft. Stop stealing from me world. Stealing someone’s life is murder.

  There have been at least 4 police walk bys this morning, so it’s clear it’s going to escallate in some way and everything will once again get blamed on me. #

• I’m going to try to write the podcast reviews as I listen to them this week, rather than wait until the end of the week. Hopefully it will improve both the reviews and the newsletter intro. It remains to be seen how the world will react to this new way of doing things. Let’s hope for the best.

  Update: Almost immediate push back from a world on the warpath yet again. Even a wiff if possible change sends the wirkd into perversion mode, where everything gets perverted and escallated and warpathed. One must persevere. #

• Following on from yesterday evening’s bizare sexual harrassment from the weird old lady, there was more of it this morning. Her new thing is to dump enormous amounts of tissues in your path, right in the gutter. Avid readers will remember that there was an incident in last week’s escallations involving condoms left in the gutter on front of the internet place. And you will also remember that ice lollys have started to feature everytime the weird old lady gets on a warpath.

  Well wouldn’t you know it, this morning at the shop / cafe, ice scream lolly wrapers left exactly where I charge my devices. Add to that all sorts of anger goading involving not flushing the toilet, sugar free coke bottles, and a bunch of other weird shit I won’t get into right now. It’s intimidation escallation, masquerading as perhaps humour, but really it’s harrassment.

  Ultimately it’s theft, using up even more of my time that’s alteady being fully stolen by the gang stalker pervert thieves. #

• I partly really like the expression / turn of phrase "And so on and so forth". It means roughly speaking something like "etc etc" but slightly cleverer because it demands of the listener to extrapolate based on what you just said and imagine similar examples.

  It’s good because it can save time when you are talking about something quite complex, time you can use to build up important ideas rather than laboriously be going over examples. When it’s used well, it is saying to the other person, "I know you know what I mean, you are a smart person, I'm not going to bother you with unnecessary explanations". If it’s used sparingly and respectfully it can be very effective at keeping the conversation moving forward.

  Having said that, there is the danger of over-use, of using it as a crutch, a way to be lazy, asking the listener to do your job for you. These are not respectful ways to use this expression.

  Anyway, I'm writting about it here so that I remember to use it sometimes. My impression is that I rarely use it. I think if used correctly it can make you sound quite smart. #

• Having been more focussed on UK and US politics than I usually am for the past few months, one thing that I think many brits are suprised about in the US is the level of hatred between various groups. Of course in the UK we have all sorts of disagreements too, but my impression is that the level of underlying hatred is much less pronounced.

  I could be wrong about this in some places, but on average, I think people tend to get along better most of the time.

  I wonder what people in the US think about the levels of hatred in the UK? #

• Just heard that brain - machine interface companies are collectively now referred to as Neurotech. I guess it makes sense, even if it feels a bit icky that there are folks building companies around our neurons. #

2024/07/15 #

• Shoplifting bloke appears to have disapeared the past 2 days, but he’s been replaced by another bloke who basically does the same charade. This bloke has a mobile phone and a backpack, looks much more normal. He stands there for ages looking at his mobile phone, looking confused. Then over to the shop, looking confused. He’s holding a plastic bag with something in it. Then eventually disapears.

  There’s also been this other older bloke on a motorbike that’s stopped two days in a row, yesterday evening with some food gift. He's very grumpy.

  The police did several walk-bys early this morning. That’s unusual. I mention all these things because I know from experience that they will all coalesce into some sort of thing where I get blamed for everything. They always do.

  Even as I write this note, two motorbike gang stalkers drove past and shouted No! at me. And so it goes, everything will be my fault now for the rest of the day. #

• I’ve listenned to several politics podcasts discussing the Trump assassination attempt and though there was much mention of the fist in the air, no one has mentioned the bizare nazi salute thing as he was evacuated from the stage. Was the video I watched a fake?

  Apparently he was shouting 'fight' rather than the f-word, which is what I thought at first. A bit weird but I can see how in the heat of the moment that could happen. But a nazi solute? WTF is that about?

  If it turns out I did watch the official real video, it’s really strange that everyone is just pretending the nazi solute didn’t happen.

  As part of today’s escallations from locals, there has been another photographer (there was one yesterday too), some sexual harrassment and a walk-by past me as I sat in the park earlier loudly saying 'fight fight'. Oh and another police walk-by in the shop / cafe I’m in now. What are the chances? #

• I hope I've reached peak blog post weirdness.

  They seem to be getting a bit weirder everyday.

  Must keep reminding myself we are living in the best days.

  Pretty sure there’s a Beatles song about all this :) #

• There was an interesting interaction between lawyers on a recent Vergecast episode all about music copyright in the age of AI [20:10]:

  Nilay Patel: Professor, let’s say you didn’t have Jonny B Good in the training data, but then you had the entire architecture of Rock ‘n Roll, that is built on Jonny B Good. Could you back your way into Jonny B Good?

  David Pierce: Monkeys and type writers and Shakespeare right? Is that the theory here?

  Nilay Patel: Do you need the seed crystal when you have the whole diamond mine of Rock ‘n Roll?

  Professor Charlie of NYU: That’s a really good question because if you look at this entire era of music where RnB, Rock ‘n Roll, Rockabilly, are all kind of one entity, the music is drawing on 12 bar blues, a very standard song structure, they are often in the same keys that play well on guitar, they are using the same guitar licks, they are mostly using pentatonic scales, they are using the same language, and you might think yeah you could sort of back into that. But the precise rhythms, the exact words? Let’s be clear, the copy is worse, it does not sound nearly as good as the real Jonny B Good.

  He goes on to say anyone defending the AI would lose. But it brings up an important question. Could you train an AI, remember it’s an infinite training regression, that would guarantie a specific output? What if you actually could?

  This is likely bigger than just copyright. It’s much more akin to fate. #

• Isn’t it a bit strange that the EU appears to hate vertically integrated companies like Apple, throwing all sorts of antitrust cases at them, but they also hate crypto, which is basically the opposite of a vertically integrated company? #

2024/07/14 #

• The world has gotten itself into another muddle, and it’s blaming me for everything again, going through the by now very familar escallation cycles, that eventually stop making any kind of sense, and you get mutilated. Several malicious help incidents yesterday evening, and motorbike gang stalker intimidation for much of the night and into the morning. Lots of yah’ing already today and it’s hardly even daylight. Looks like another day of spiritual traffic jams is upon us.

  I re-read my elections turnout blog post from yesterday, which at the time of writing felt a bit confused, but it’s not that bad. I think it expresses vaguely what I was trying to say.

  Worth noting, now that I’m up and writing, all the gang stalking has completely stopped. No more drive-bys from loud clunky motorbikes loaded up with scummy kids shouting abuse and driving around like hooligans, no more drive-bys by gravely voiced old men, or from mid twenties normies also on motorbikes. When the gang stalking and intimidation starts, it’s from all walks of life. But it can cease as quick as it started, and then it’s as if it never happened.

  Hopefully the world will somehow find a way off the warpath it’s gotten itself snagged onto. #

• Raoul Pal: "These are all decentralised businesses that sell blockspace, and they have different qualities to their blockspace, or a different narrative on what makes their blockspace effective"

  Reminds me of when Amazon S3 was introduced all those years ago. Maybe we’ll start to think about crypto as the blockspace internet. #

2024/07/13 #

• I got this week’s newsletter issue writen and scheduled. That’s always a relief. There’s something odd that it does to time, which can upset your rythm a bit. I can’t quite put my finger on the specifics, but the process of writing the newsletter is some sort of huge compression of the entire week. I find it often leaves you in a strange state where you feel like you're having to catchup with everything.

  Anyway today is going to be about listening to some podcasts, trying not to stress too much, eating some food, maybe a blog post. Doing my best not to get all caught up in the weird newsletter compression thing. #

• I totally did get caught up in the newsletter compression thing. I don’t know if I’m describing this very well. Anyway this is me sort of getting out of that, having published a blog post, some links and a few notes. Gosh it sure was very confusing getting this all sorted though.

  Sometimes the world just wants to fight you on absolutely everything. It punishes you for punishing you then forces you to pay for your own punishment, then is righteously offended by you just for existing.

  Still managed a newsletter issue, a blog post, a few links, some notes, and listened to a few cool pods. Oh and I ate some really nice food.

  Peace world, your friend Mark. x #

2024/07/12 #

• Today I'm going to try to tentatively take a look at the re-organisation of deploy workflows I had been working on last month when I got blocked by a build minutes shortage. The scope has decreased somewhat in the interim because I've improved the npm module caching in the existing main website deploy workflow, so I likely no longer need to separate out the cache refresh code. The plan is to move to reusable Github Action workflows, so that all the repos, including the plugins all use the eact same build and deploy workflow which are all in a special shared repository.

  This is one of those bits of work that makes you feel much better with the code base because something which is vital and often used, which currently has quite a lot of duplicated code, suddenly becomes 1 cohesive and consuatent well tested bit of code. All sorts of silly mistakes that can easily get introduced by copy paste mistakes that lead to almost the same code diverging, just totally disapear. It’s the sort ot thing that feels a bit like when you do a very thorough spring cleaning of your house, but where you've additionally built some shelves and put together some neat looking Ikea cupboards. Everything feels more robust and useful.

  I’m going to ease into it, and continue with the main focus on blogging. I don’t want to get into any issues with the build minutes this month. From what I recall I had a minimum viable version working, and it was just a question of moving over the more complicated workflow into 3 seperate workflows that are each reusable. One for build, one for deploy and one for backup. Quietly optimistic and excited about it. #

2024/07/11 #

• Rough few days, especially after last week where I only ate a meal 3 out of 7 days. After each bought of starvation my body takes a couple of days to recover, only to be plunged right back into another starvation. A westerner that occasionally stops for a chat passed by earlier this evening, gifted me a meal and a bottle of coke. The food was wonderful, my body was craving some nutrients, and it was also really great to have an actual conversation with another human lasting more than two words long. About 20 minutes later someone stopped on a motorbike and gifted me some chicken and rice. After days of bullying and starvation it’s nice just for my existence to be acknowledged.

  Pretty sure I'll realise later that there’s some meliciousness mixed in somewhere that I just haven’t noticed yet. I know from experience there always tends to be, it’s like clockwork. The dark side of things is always hiding between the cracks somewhere. In any case, for now it feels good. #

2024/07/10 #

• Rained quite a lot last night. Weird shoplifter bloke still hanging around. He appears to be pretending he was actually bringing gifts to the weird old lady that now hangs out outside the shop almost 24/7. Of course he would do that wouldn’t he if he was shoplifting, because he doesn’t want her to rat him out. I'm still calling him little boy to try and put him off so that I don’t get blamed for his criminality. There's not much else I can do. I certainly don’t want any violence. And the reality is he’s actually steeling from me. I saw him walk past the internet place yesterday, so no doubt something is going to happen there soon related to all this.

  I fixed the website's everything RSS feed, which was quite the challenge because the world literally always starts starving me any time I do any work on the RSS feeds. I pretty much only have to look at the feed code and starvation gets initiated, along with enormous infiniti total reality inversion bullying from every direction. It’s like a mass delusion pavlovian response or something. Anyway the urls in the by date everything feed had an undefined variable, breaking the urls.

  I had to add a way to seperate the webRoot and the itemsWebRoot in the template where you define a feed. That fixes the urls for feeds that are based on mixed data sources. I also updated both the Twitter and Mastodon autoposter tools, so there should only be a single auto posted link each day to the latest everything page post, rather than seperate auto posts for notes and links. I decided to keep an auto poster for individual blog posts. I want these to stand out a bit, since they are the most valuable content. Over the next few days it will hopefully be more obvious if the balance is right.

  Okay pat yourselves on the back 10x everyone, time to do some work. #

• In what-are-the-chances-world news, a new hot social media app called No Place is in the headlines, barely a week after the infiniti No! saga. #

• Jeff Snider from the Eurodollar University podcast asks why isn’t Bitcoin dominating the commercial landscape?

  It‘s an interesting episode, a recording of a recent conference presentation he made. He looks back at the fascinating history and evolution of ledger based money. He notes that each time there had been a massive step change in the technology, the adoption has happened rapidly within less than 15 years. Bitcoin had been around for that amoung of time, and it’s getting very popular, but the adoption just isn’t comparable.

  One problem he identifies is that in order to use your Bitcoin you have to convert it to Eurodollars, the current best version of ledger money that we use. He argues that that’s not a payment system. Jeff believes Bitcoin took a wrong turn by overly focusing on store of value, when the market wants a dynamic highly useable money. A better way of exchanging value.

  It’s not to say it’s store of value isn’t really useful, but it does make you wonder whether Bitcoin will become the next evolutionary step in ledger based money. #

2024/07/09 #

• Weird shoplifter bloke has been making more and more appearences. He just sits at the other end of the bench and tries to see when the nearby shop staff go into the back room so he can swipe stuff. At the same time to this, not unco-incidentally police have been turning up in other places that I go to. Yesterday one, who was enormous and a bit fat, sat directly on front of me next to a small young woman that had been sitting there for a while. He proceeded to continuously pat her on the back and side, just like how you would pat a dog. He then was basically necking with her interspersed with patting for most of lunch time.

  Once again perhaps not uncoincidentally previous to this at the internet place there were used condom packets in the street in the gutter.

  And once again previous to that, an old women dressed entirely in red was ostensibly doing early morning exercises in the exact spot where last week the gang stalkers had left a dead rat. Her exercise was very strange. She was facing the wall, both hands on it, then girating her torso backwards and forwards, so she was basically being the man in some bizare doggy style position.

  Don’t try to tell me none of this stuff is linked. That’s fucking bullshit. All these events are totally linked. It's anger goading, it’s intimidation, and it’s a total time suck for me, and that’s equivalent to murder. Get your feets off my neck world.

  Whenever shoplifter bloke shows up, I’ve started loudly saying 'go to bed little boy'. I have to deter him peacefully, because I’m going to end up being blamed for his shoplifting. Not to mention that people don’t stop to help when he’s loitering there, so he‘s literally starving me. He's now showing up early morning and all through the evening.

  Rowdy scummy gang stalker kids on motorbikes are driving by shouting 'Lie!' loudly right after shoplifter bloke leaves now. These are the same type that a few weeks ago physicslly assaulted me. They have attacked me with rocks many times before. Once they threw a huge stone brick at me that hit me directly in the face. These events always have huge aftermaths that last for days.

  Just another impossible situation. I’ll be the one who ends up being mutilated, and blamed for everything, then starved even more than they are already starving me.

  I wish I had more positive things to write about, because it’s not doing much for my employability, but this is life for me at the minute. And since I'm a blogger, I write about life, so it would be disengenuous for me to pretend it wasn’t happening.

  Everything is a catch-22 these days. #

• What the world says: Commons for everyone!

  What the world really means: No safe commons for you, and if you try not to use the commons, we'll punish you too! #

• John Gruber on iPadOS [01:53:34]:

  It’s like they’ve painted themselves into a corner and blindfolded themselves so they can’t see that they are painted in a corner. […]

  There is no easy solution. […]

  I feel like collectively Apple is just pretending it’s not a problem. […]

  General rule of thumb, you should eliminate modes, cause modes just aren’t intuitive, and they aren’t how people think. But the iPad is all about modes.

• From my blog post The Future of iPados vs Macos [30/05/2024]:

  Would Vim style quick mode switching solve the MacOS - iPadOS integration connundrum?

• John Gruber on The EU and DMA [02:19:16]:

  I really can’t help but think though that there are a lot of DMA proponents who really think it’s just about busting up the App Store, when it’s way more far reaching than that, and really does open up Apple non-compliance fines for anything that they do that is vertically integrated within their own products and services. […]

  I think henceforth, every future thing Apple does is going to come late and possibly limited to the EU. If Apple Watch were brand new, it would definitely be delayed, because it only works with iPhones. I think that’s illegal under the DMA, or it could be. They would need them to rule, and they don’t want to rule in advance, and Apple doesn’t want to tell them in advance. That’s not the Apple way of doing things.

  "Hey we’re thinking about unveiling these new smart glasses next year. What do you guys think in the EU?" - They’re not going to do that.

• Alistair Campbell and Rory Stewart on the french mind [30:06]:

  Alistair: And she said, I'll translate as I go, she said "it's not the least of the paradoxes, that on the evening..."

  Rory: I love the fact that when you translate french you have to go, "it is not the least of the paradoxes". If you were editing this into english prose, would you start with "it is not the least of the paradoxes"? [laughing]

  Alistair: "Ce n’est pas le moindre des paradoxes"..."that on the eve of the most important european elections in history, the most european of french presidents, took the least european of decisions to shake up Europe."

  Rory: Wait wait wait...before we go on, what a beautiful expression of the french mind. Not the least of paradoxes, the most european of presidents, on the eve of the european elections, took the least european of decisions...

  Alistair: It’s brilliant, exactly exactly, exactly

  I absolutely love this interaction. You really have to listen to it to get the full picture. The thing is, both Rory and Alistair speak very good french, as do I, and the unspoken bit, is that when you read the french press, it really is absolutely packed with this kind of unbelievably flowery language.

  It’s such a wonderful insight into french culture. But it’s great because it’s two politics nerds and admirers of France stumbling upon something that is so very very french.

  They are both taking the piss somewhat, but also being affectionate, at the same time. I can confirm it really is a very french turn of phrase.

  And it probably says something about the UK and even Europe in general as well. Btw, the english press has it’s own quirks when it comes to turns of phrase.

  Imagine all the shit we’ve had to go through that have resulted in these ridiculus yet beautiful ways of speaking. It boggles my mind. #

2024/07/08 #

• I listenned to quite a few great podcasts today. Brain, mind and body apear to be getting back into the swing of things following the past few days difficulties.

  Listening to music everywhere seems to be helping somewhat with averting escallations. I used to do that but the world didn‘t like it much, and also the headphones have a tendency to break much quicker. Anyhow maybe I won't need to do it once the world has calmed down a bit.

  The next few days are about trying to get back into more regular blogging. Just need to clear some of the digital clutter. #

• Mt Gox is finally giving back their customers money that they stole. But they are only paying back 15% of funds. That's an outrage, and it's even more outrageous to claim they were doing their customers a favour putting them through years of hell. It's disgusting victim blaming, something I’m unfortunately all too familiar with.

  How unbelievable that this should happen the exact same week I finished the everything page, after months of delays, and mentioned I would be retiring the current mountain homepage.

  It's just another example of total reality inversion that I experience daily, in this case it’s especially bad because the ordeal the Mt Gox customers have gone through feels earily similar to what I'm still going through here in Vietnam.

  What are you doing to me world?

  Update: While I was writing this note and associated linkblog link, a couple in their twenties had been sitting behind me relatively queitly. Just as I was putting the finishing touches to my wording, the bloke said audibly 'sorry' in my direction. They both then got up and left a few moments later. #

2024/07/07 #

• Yesterday everything felt incredibly rushed. For a start there was an insane amount of yah-blocking from seemingly everyone, everywhere. You get yah’d for absolutely no good reason, only to be immediately blocked in what you are doing. It can be infuriating if you don’t know it’s happening, and it very much appears to be the point by many. Personally I think it’s counter productive, as it spreads and just causes traffic jams real and imaginary, and generally seems to put everyone in a bad mood.

  I was already having to play catchup, having just been allowed to eat again after about a week of starvation. So I had many days of clothes to wash and just try to get back into the swing of things. Not so obvious, everything felt rushed, brain constantly doing that thing where it feels like it‘s having buffering issues, and just constantly wants to multi-task. All the yah-ing just makes it worse. Still I caught up with most of the physical stuff I needed to do. Still quite a bit of digital things to catch up on.

  I spent much of the day listening to music, and smiling each time a yah-block occurred. Ok world, you are doing another one of your innefective counter productive yah-blocks, I would think to myself. Knowing full well people would ultimately be more unhappy later. Then just slow down and try to keep a constant pace to get through it.

  I listenned to several podcasts, but had to pause and move on to another several times. Today has been a bit better. Your body and brain really get very affected by starvation and bullying, and it takes a while to recover.

  The music helps to ignore it and all the people calling you 'dog', which also happens all the friggin time. It's very brutal. Once it starts it spreads everywhere like the plague.

  I notice after each time they put me through these starvation days, that my hunger gets worse. I'm constantly thinking and feeling I should eat something, even if I've recently eaten plenty to get by to the next meal. I've never had trouble with weight, but I wouldn’t be suprised if that becomes an issue at some point. But maybe that‘s part of their plan, one other thing they shout at me is 'bear'. #

2024/07/06 #

• It's unreal how glorius food is after 3 days of not eating, and thinking you might die. Forget about drugs food is where it’s at. Got gifted some sweet breads and a hamburger last night. First time I've been gifted a hamburger here. A bit different to a western one but nice nonetheless. It's also nice to know that there are still kind people in the world.

  Lots of very weird incidents the past few days. This typically happens when being starved. I've found that the bullying in these times is often sexual in nature. First, the old lady that’s been hanging around outside the nearby shop exposed herself to me again the other day. Bit of a shocker. She walks up the street so she is directly in front of my field of vision, stands with her back to me, then 1-2-3 does a sort of Braveheart raised kilt thing but by pulling down her pants. I looked up exactly as she did it, not what you expect to see. I looked away almost instantly, let me tell you, it wasn't a pretty site.

  Then the next day there was the firedrill incident with the loud bully women repeatedly shouting 'gay' on their mobile phones, while the weird shoplifting bloke, who sits nearby and just stares at you, was loitering next to me.

  Then later and for the past two days in the park there has been this western bloke that takes a nearby bench and starts doing what I guess are yoga poses. Both times he installed himself with his back to me, then into what is some variation of downward dog position, looking more like a cat though, arse right up in the air. Frankly it really didn't look like the sort of pose one should be doing in a public park.

  And then finally perhaps the weirdest, and the thing that makes you wonder if all these events are linked in some way. An oldish lady gets off her motorbike, sits down next to me, wants to talk. I take out my earplugs, and smile. She starts whitering on about something. Sounds a bit like english, but I can only understand about 5% of the words she is saying. She says words like 'Vietnam' and 'president' and 'money', but these are interspersed with mumbling, and she appears to lower the volume considerably when she's mumbling. I strain to understand what she's saying, try having a conversation, it's impossible, it's apparent and obvious after a while that the whole mumbling is a put on thing, on purpose. I'm very polite to her.

  Then she says 'bottom' and motions what can only be described as the motion you do when you are wiping someone else's arse. I say to her that‘s strange and ask her why she said that and why she is pretending to wipe someone’s bottom, she does it again and continues to mumble. Eventually the 'bottom' turns into 'Biden'. At which point you know it’s definitely some sort of prepared bit.

  She walks away and comes back a few times. Eventually leaves. I just sat there with a wtf look on my face. After she leaves, I remember she'd done something similar to me before a few months back. That time she stayed on the motorbike, did the same mumbling thing, but kept starting to leave, then stoping. She must have done it 10 or 15 times. As it happens I really needed the bathroom at the time. Very strange. Pretty sure they, whoever the group is that she is a part of, track your bathroom visits.

  Btw this time she tried to get me to get on her motorbike with her. I politely declined. After she left, about a minute later a motorbike gang stalker drove by and shouted 'good liar' directly at me.

  WTF vietnam? #

• I'm hoping to be able to listen to a few podcasts today, read some javascript programming articles I have saved, eat a bit of food and do a tidy up of the features backlog for my static site generator. Just trying to stay sane in an insane world. Looks like I'll be able to wash my clothes and charge my devices again, which is lucky because I was down to 20% on iOS device with almost nothing left in spare batteries. #

• Time is money, money is property, stealing someone’s money is theft #

• Time is money, money is life, stealing someone’s life is murder #

• Bitcoiners, gold bugs and sound money folks are all against debasing money, and they make really great arguments that make a ton of sense. Maybe though the problem with making money completely bulletproof is that the debasement just gets moved somewhere else. What if debasement is in some way part of the human condition?

  And what if the debasement gets moved to somewhere where it’s even worse? Maybe the money layer is the safest place for the debasement to happen. What if it moves to the social layer, or language itself. Many feel that society is going to hell, but what if that was quaint compared the maximum debasement that was possible. Maybe we can't even imagine how badly society could get debased.

  Perhaps we should setup some metrics to track key aspects of societies to ensure that doesn't happen? #

2024/07/05 #

• Weather quite cold last night and this morning. I've written up some notes on the recent current theme they are bullying me with, which appears to be shoplifting, which I absolutely haven't done anything if the sort, but that's what they are trying to make it look like. Anyway I'll put all that in a seperate note.

  It's the second day of the new everything page, I'm super happy about getting it completed, but it's difficult to be happy because of all the bullying. It's the 3rd day without food. They are starving + food goading + shoplifting intimidating me at the minute. I have barely any electricity left in my batteries, with no way to charge any devices. Also washing clothes has been essentially cut off. It's all a nightmare, and people have clearly been spreading false rumours about me. I am some sort of pariah. I think most people would be happy for me to die at the curb of the road in the gutter.

  I got the everything page rendering though. That bit of knowledge cheers me up enormously. #

• Some notes about the recent shoplifting theme the gang stalker bullies appear to be on with me at the minute. These are very lightly edited, because I'm very low on power for my devices, but also because it's very difficult to write about this stuff, while I'm being bullied. Weird synchronicuties keep happening. Thankfully this morning is a bit quiet. The notes are because I want to document it in some way so that I can remember these incidents, for others to see what it can be like here, but also in case something bad happens like getting accused of something by police. They are only very lighyly edited, so they probably won't meet my usual high standards of readability :)

  • Shoplifting is the new theme. First there was this manufactured incident at Circle K Shop where staff said "Error" as I paid. That what is says sometimes on the hit water fountain when it's out of order, but I already saw it wasn't out of order. I'm pretty sensitive at the minute to payment situation given the tsunami if recent incidents where food vendors and their staff have been trying to trap me in situations where it nught appear that I didn’t pay, all completely false. Anyway as I gave her the money I said loudly 'paid', and as I walked off made a comment about trying to trap people not being very funny, and they surely could find a way to enjoy themselves that didn't involve traping people.
  • At this point it's worth noting that in this specific shop during the pandemic lockdowns there was a series of incidents where staff were saying very odd things as I was buying things and getting water from the hot water fountain. The sort of thing your brain has a hard time diciphering because it is so totally out of context from the present situation. Anyway I ended up absent mindingly putting the instant noodles packet into my bag as I was filling up my flask with water. Luckily I noticed before I walked away, but it could very easily have resulted me accidentally shoplifting an item. I can’t remember the exact words they used now, but at the time I did abd realised they had totally mind controlled me. They were practising on me. That's why mention it here because that particular shop seem to somehow specialise in manufactured shoplifting incidents.
  • So in any case the Error ibcudebt was immediately followed upstairs in the seating area, two people drinking beer. Beer is rately drunk in these seating areas. I don't even think it's allowed. As I entered one said loudly 'perfect' abd they both chuckled after looking back at me and tucking into their beers. That’s some seriously good mibd control shit, given what I had just said downstairs. But I decided to not say anything and let them enjoy their beers, and quietly got into some podcasts.
  • Then the weird bloke I mentioned last week that had a bottle of coke, has been making many appearances, he appears to be shop lifting, at least that’s what he’s trying to make it look like. Shoplifting noodles, and eating them sitting next to me. He also keeps staring at me all the time when I’m looking in another direction away from him. As soon as I look towards him, he looks away quickly before I can see his stare. It’s like he’s studying me in some capacity. Update: He just walked past as I added to this bullet point about the staring.
  • At the same time lots more police drive byes and walk byes than usual. And an incident where shortly after shop lifting bloke disapeared, a police bloke walked past, he re-appeared a few minutes later walking in the opposite direction carrying a plastic bag with a single small food item in it. It's sort of unusual to see police officers walk past holding plastic bags like that. I felt like it was a message to me, like 'we know he’s shop lifting', and it just feels like somehow I'm going to be implicated in the whole situation.
  • Also strange walk byes by gang of men all holding their hands behind their backs like they are prisoners, right after shop lifting bloke disapeared
  • Later that evening a police motorbike stoping directly on front of me to check licenses of a motorbike driver, as passed me just before he stopped the police officer shouted ‘liar’ really loudly.
  • Btw the shop lifting bloke is turning up several times per day, he sits at the other end of the bench and continuously looks into the nearby shop, perhaps to find a moment when staff are in the back room?
  • This follows several incidents a few weeks ago where a westerner accompanied by a local who were ostensibly friends, offered to buy me something from the shop, this happened a few times over several days. Sandwiches, a meal, water. But I noticed he never brought it back in a plastic bag. At one point in our conversation he mentioned specifically that he was a big green environment person and hated that shops everywhere put everything in plastic bags even when it’s unnecessary.
  • At around the same time, there was incident at another shop, the one that appears to specialise in shop lifting, where someone, maybe the staff had left a sandwich on the counter where you pay. The moment I got top of the queue to pay for the items I had, a women popped up next to me and went to take the sandwich, but she was unsure of herself as she did it. Looked at the shop keeper as if to determine if that’s what she was supposed to do. She eventually took the sandwich and disappeared into the shop. The incident felt wierd like it was a planned thing, like she was getting freebies from the shop staff.
  • Another foreigner, one who had helped me several times when I was ill, showed back up a couple of weeks ago, he got me large 2 litre bottles of Pepsi and a snickers from the shop. Earlier that day there was an incident at another shop seating area where a group of girls were being very passive aggressive confrontational, they had a large bottle of Pepsi prominently on the table. You very rarely see people drinking large bottles of Pepsi here. I can’t even remember it ever happening in all the years I've been going to these shops day in day out.
  • This also follows a several week period a few weeks ago where people at food stands, ostensibly other customer, kept offering to pay for my food. It happened half a dozen times. Right at the start of that wave of incidents, a food vendor offered me a free meal, her translator assistant saying "for you free". The other incidents started out pretty obviously like people buying me a free meal but changed progressively to them ordering me to pay. Then it was insinuated that I was stealing food, which absolutely wasn’t the case. Those incidents eventually stopped for a week, but happened again once, but I caught the perpetrator clearly saying ‘I pay’ to me while pointing at the food. I asked why he was lying, why he was trying to cause me problems, he went very quiet. He had shouted 'liar' in my direction as I walked up to the food stand.
  • Also the ‘free for you’ lady, another time, gave me a free fried egg, in a somewhat strange interaction and build up, where it seemed like she was going to add it without me asking but then cause a situation where I would look to not be paying the right price. That has happened seceral times in other food vendor places. I think she only didn't charge me for it because I said 'no egg' several times as I noticed her puting the egg in the box. Anyway this messing around with the meal and the side dishes has happened to me lots, they always turn into some vad vibe thing where they make out they are being hard done by. But they created the situation in the first place.
  • Also a K Circle bloke gave me a free boiled egg the morning after I got assaulted during the night saying ‘a gift for you’, putting it in my bag. He was exceedingly smiley the entire time. The very next day he treated me like I was some sort of criminal he didn’t trust. Looking suspiciously at me as I paid, saying 'okay' as he moved very slowly, being way too overly causcious for the situation.
  • There are so many of these incidents it’s difficult to keep track of them.
  • And it’s not a big surprise that all this shop lifting business is happening now, right in a period of massive starvation that they are inflicting on me. Today is day 3 in a row of no food. It’s been accompanied by 2 days of some of the most intense bullying yet. ‘You learn’ coming out of peoples ears, even a ‘he will learn’ from a nearby conversation between folks that had been passive aggressive bullying me moments before. It's literally been non-stop bullying and food goading from what feels like every person that walks past.

• Quite an eventful morning. There was a firedrill at a building right next to the nearby store, the one where shoplifter bloke keeps scoping out when he's sitting on the end of tge bench. Rich before it happened a light green police bloke, they are tge more local neighboorhood variety of police, stopped for a chat. i had no idea what he was going on about. He said you go, then pointed away down the street, then pointed to the building where the fire drill was about to happen.

  About 30 seconds earlier, a motorbike delivery guy that had been loitering for at least 30 minutes, suddenly made a phone call, when the person answered, he said 'Hi dog', then off on some gibberish. Note as I typed the last sentence the bloke from the house across the way who I've never seen on the phone in the couple of years I've been coming to this place, popped out on a mobile phone and simply said 'lie lie' quite quiety, then disaoeared back into the house. Weird. Anyway it's relevant because the westerner bloke and the local girl that gifted ne a few meaks abd sandwiches a few weeks ago, discovered that there was a toilet in the lobby of the firedrill building. Useful to know. But why was the police officer pointing at the building saying Go! Just another ambiguous synchronicity.

  When all the staff from the various buildings gathered outside, the local pilice officer from before was directing traffic. At the far end of the building nearly just out of site but not quite, was twi firemen shooting their firehoses up into the air, clearly crossing streams by the way, but not actually at the building, just into mid air next to the building. As that was happening several women walked past on the phone saying loudly 'gay' as they walked past. Also a taxi with a bunch of people from firedrill building as they went past police officer, the guy at the window was really exagerating a head nod at the police bloke and had a huge grin on his face. Police bloke kind of smiled back but acted a bit like he didn't know the head nodder.

  At about the same moment, another police officer appeared, about 10 meters away, when our eyes met briefly he gave ne s really disaproving look. He was the oolice bloke from a few weeks ago that appeared one night and was saying they had a place for me to go, some sort of visitor center, but it sounded really dodgy, very far away. He said evrrything wiuld be paid for. Anyway he never came back, even though he said he would 1 week later.

  Oh and the other thing that I didn't mention was that weird shoplifter bloke showed up right after initial police bloke, right before the drill started, and stood / crouched next to be the entire time.

  Second police bloke drove off on the back of a non descript motorbike with another police bloke driving. He appeared to say some sort of rude thing in english and he drove past, said at the guy driving, but quite a coincidence it was just as they passed on front of me.

  So as you can see all sorts of weirdnesses. Just another day in nightmare limbo.

  People had already really reduced the amount of gifted food etc when the weird old lady showed up a few weeks ago, and hangs out at outside the nearby shop. Now with shoplifter bloke turning up all throughout the day and evening, there are basically no people offering to help at all.

  Still starving. I've only eaten food 3 days in the last 7. #

2024/07/04 #

• Another cold morning as it was raining from the early evening all the way through until this morning. I have cold hands, cold legs and cold feet as I type this. No food, no hot water. Gang stalkers have been bullying me non-stop for days. Everything is once again my fault. They steel from me, and the blame me and then force me to teach them by allowing them to starve and thirst me, not that I have any choice in the matter. Even if I get angry it's the same thing. They still steel my life right from my cold alive hands.

  The good news is that I got the everything page fully working, including with the updated archives plugin, which now supports merged data sources. That means all the day links on the everything page now actually point to day archive pages and individual item links point to their respective item pages.

  It was a grueling few days to get it operational. Insane and unimaginable headwinds from the world, but I got it done. Now I need to actually blog with it for a few days. That's much more difficult than you would imagine when you are being starved and thirsted, and when you are near hypothermia, and when the entire world seemingly wants you to die.

  Here was the release annoucement on Twitter, and also some of the deployment difficulties and hicups.

  Onwards, will the world allow it though? #

2024/07/03 #

• It's a bit nippy this morning! The sky is very cloudy still. Lots of rain all through the night last night. I guess today is going to be more of the same. The bullying gang stalkers are playing with multiple of my resources at the minute. Water is back to a trickle, and to use it I have to spend hours standing in a position that is totally back breaking, electricity has maybe been cut off, so I don't know if I'll be able to charge my devices, food and drinking water has become very scarse. Access to hot water is being challenged. Not great in rainy season where it often gets very cold.

  Huge amounts of annonymous gang stalker bullying literally everywhere. The closer I get to releasing the everything archives feature, which will finally put the everything page setup in a minimal working state, the worse the environment around me has gotten. The new thing is to bully me when it's pissing down with rain. I get surrounded by people where I'm sheltering from the rain, either side of me, they seem unrelated. They all start talking on their mobile phones really loudly, but their conversations are in some way fake, they are constantly making references to bad things that have happened to me in the past day or so.

  One bloke yesterday was mocking me for being cold in the rain. He was smoking a cigarette and waving it way too close to my rain poncho which was covering my bags. I said to him to be careful as I only have one working poncho. He said he needed to smoke to warm himself up, saying "I am so cold". Though it does get very cold, it wasn't cold at all at that point. Also, given his size, he certainly wasn't in any danger of getting cold any time soon. What he said felt prepared. That makes total sense in a gang stalker situation. All these fuckers around me were part of the same troop. He was mocking me, and the fact that I do actually sometimes get very cold, several times to hypothermia levels of cold. Anyway I had some choice words for him, and he left chuckling to himself. The bloke on the phone pulled the old crazy foreigner card, pretending that I was the one harrassing him.

  Anyway, I don't want to be writting about all this, but it's getting much worse.

  I'm going to try and focus today on getting the updated archives plugin deployed. It's all tested and working in staging, there were several bugs that I fixed yesterday amidst a vicious tornado of hate. That's what I want to focus on. The worry I have is that the way things have been going, especially with all the references to death this past week, it's as if I'll get it all working, only to be completely cut off, and unnable to blog anymore. I really hope that doesn't happen. That seems to be what the world is aiming at in the tea leaves. #

2024/07/02 #

• Lots of hours spent yesterday trying debug the last few kinks in the everything page archives. It all renders but it's doubling up the item pages rendered because the everything page actually uses the item pages generated from the individual blog, linkblog, notes, newsletter and podcast pages. Do I've had to add a way to turn off the rendering of item pages for an archive, which can be used when you are creating an archive from a merged data source. I think it will likely work. World willing, I'll hopefully be testing that today.

  Not so obvious though as said world has really got itself into a mighty twist since I started infiniti no-ing it’s infiniti-nos. Infinite infiniti-nos for we but not even a single infiniti-no for thee seems to be the expectation, righteously defended with escallation and mutilations. I ended up yesterday evening in major sneezing fits, and runny nose, looks to have been alergies, and it's cleared up this morning. What are the chances, right at the end of another bully cycle.

  They create the problems they complain about, they block the solutions they suggest, then escallate and escallate, and even if you do what they say they want, they will blame it all on you, then mutilate you. One of them even finally admitted that that was 'exactly' what they do, because she had backed herself into a corner of her own making and it was just so unbelievably obvious that was what was going on. And guess what, that got blamed on me too, and I got mutilated for that. And some borderline malicious help last night too.

  As I type this I'm noticing my eyes feel itchy, that's not a good sign. Oh well, onwards, hoping to have the everything page archives done by the end of the day. #

2024/07/01 #

• The nightmare is as follows.

  They will make you pay for their learning, then force you to do their homework, even though you've already got your own shit to do, and it will never be good enough, and they will blame you and mutilate you, and make you pay again, and again and again all while claiming to be angels, and you the devil. And then they will make you get them a job, and they'll block you from getting any job, while telling everyone that you are lazy and don't want a job. And people will believe them, because they lie and then conspire and cheat and steel, and they do it better than anyone in the world, and you will feel you have no way to fight back. And they will yah you in broad daylight, and no ond will say anything.

  A little advantage stolen here, another divide by zero there, then sleep depravation, total 180 degree reversal of facts, they will pass off minus infiniti as plus infiniti, ambiguities everywhere, manufactured situations, plausible deniability. And they will accuse you of the most terrible things that you didn't do, they will intimidate you, they will have you dangling on the end of a thread, and save you from the death that they setup in the first place, and they will claim to be the heros of you, and the victims of the things they claim you did to them, but were actually done to you by them.

  Each time you find a way to fight back they will infiniti no your solution. It will never end, a never ending merrigoround of nightmares.

  And the world will decend further and further into hell as they debase everything in every dimensiom, with mindboggling righteousness, absolute certainty of their infalability, even as civilization crumbles around them. #