markjgsmith

2024/06/30 #

• Weather alright last night, no storms, doesn't feel too cold this morning. Custer-f of a day synchronicity-wise. The hive mind is really going for me in a big way. It's been bad before but this is next level stuff. At times it's second by second, person after person, and it creates a huge traffic jam of race conditions, where everyone, or a lot of people, are speeding up then slowing things down with yah's and woah's, and all it's variants. I've never seen it this bad before. I've been calmly saying 'infiniti no' to it all, which does seem to aggrevate things but I am able to remain mostly very calm.

  There were a few cases yesterday where some groups clearly tried to escallate to physical violence, and wanted me to know they did. As I left the internet place to get some breakfast, someone shouted out 'ow!' loudly, this was repeated in the park as I walked through it. When I got to the sweat breads stand something felt off, there was a small gang of blokes standing right before him that were talking but their attention was on me. Just as I got to the street vendor a motorbike passing by drove way way to close to me, right into one of my bags, and wouldn't you know it, he was heading right to the small gang who were all at this stage hidding laughter. The bloke driving the mororbike included. At the next food vendor where I bought a take away meal the bloke that I paid to receive the food clearly said 'ow!' at some point. He was the bloke that manufactured a 'Pay!' incident cascade last week all around a coffee that he was drinking that I had absolutely nothing to do with, yet was turned into a series of escallations over the next few days. That eventually calmed down but actually now that I think about it, the day before yesterday there was another one of those, seemingly unsuccesful because I 'infiniti no'’d it, and that hasn’t spread through to everyone.

  I wrote up a few of these bullying cascades yesterday, maybe I'll publish something later today, they are quite illustrative. I'm still being mostly starved and thirsted though I was gifted a chicken and rice meal last night.

  The big theme this morning is people yah'ing like it's going out of fashion, from joggers running past, to security guards, to people on mororbikes. Total cluster fuck. This sort of behaviour is really counter productive IMO, because even if you target one person, which clearly happens, all the random people around still hear it, so there is a blast radius, and some of those people will think they are being targeted, or just that it’s today's thing or whatever, and soon enough you get a chain reaction and it‘s a total cluster fuck everywhere. It's happening constantly at a low level, and while it does fuck things up, people absorb it reasonably well, even if it’s a complete waste of resources. But today and yesterday it’s reached new levels and it’s just chaos and dysfunction everywhere. #

• The new everything page archives is fully written and tested, and has been ready for deploy for over two weeks now. I haven't made any code changes. I fully expect the deploy to go relatively smoothly. However this insane level of anarchy and dysfunction in the world around me is not instilling any confidence. It's doing the exact opposite because while in normal regular world times I would fully expect to easily handle any issues with the deploynent, in this insane everything is f-d environment, even small hickups would likely be very dufficult to deal with, and could cause a massive derail, and you run the risk of ending up in a worse place.

  The frustrating thing is that in between all these tsunamis, I can see that the world is mostly calm, things are just carrying on as normal. But for instance where I'm sitting, a group of 2 or 3 young blokes sat down a few minutes ago and are exageratedly swinging their feet, have been quietly saying yah over and over, slapping their foot down repeatedly like you do to signal impatience. All this yah-woah is likely manyfactured, but even if it’s fake, for all intents and purposes the effects are very real if you are at the center if it, and since it’s a cloud that follows you everywhere, you are always at the center if it.

  Oh and did I mention I am being starved. And that's another thing that happens in these situations, people spitting as they pass you, not necessarily aggresively, though that happens too, but to show you they are being thirsted and have no spit left. And people that look very thin start appearing, like they are hungry. Is that all fake too though? Why would me deploying my feature to my inconsequential tiny little unknown static site generator which isn't even open source yet, be in any way linked to any of this mega hurry up'ing. It makes no friggin sense.

  It's like I'm a bus and a huge group of people I don't know keep throwing themselves under me, then getting very annoyed, angry and even occasionally violent at me, when I don't do whatever is in their heads. It often feels like it's just to derail me, but there might actually be real life people suffering from hunger and thirst, but then again maybe they are fake. There is no way to know.

  But the reality, even if it's a manufactured one, even if there are real people starving and thirsting, is that the situation is highly likely to get worse if I do actually speed up and rush things.

  And did I mention that I'm actually for reals being starved and thirsted?

  That last paragraph was going to be the last paragraph, but the instant I finished it, a man arrived shouting, chased by a woman trying to sell him scratch card lottery tickets. This sort of end of task yah is happening constantly. Oh and another man just arrived in this incredible rush to sit down, and I had to move my bags, which I don't mind doing of course, but he was in such a rush he nearly sat in the wrong place, ontop of my bags or dividing my bags up, seperating me from one of them. Very unusual. I had to say to him to wait, to chill out while I move the bag to give him space. I wouldn't be suprised if that will lead to me being punished in some way later. Oh guess what, I just got punished while writting this sentence. The yah loiterers uttered a 'think' right as I finished the sentence which caused me to lose my train of thought, which caused me to look like I had paused to think, which made the yah loiterers strangely happy. So I calmly infiniti-no'd them. I wouldn't be suprised if this entire situation was manufactured. This is how bad it is here sometimes.

  Anyway, and so it goes, I'm going to delay the deploy for a bit.

  Update: I stopped typing, started listening quietly to a podcast, and a few moments later the two yah-loiterers got up and left.

  Update: As I type this two new people have showed up behind me just out of view and are second guessing my typing. Stop, start, stop, start... #

• On the way to the internet place. Just passed the place where the last 2-3 days there was a funeral event happening. That's finished and been put away, but opposite it where the walk path gets narrow, a dead rat had been placed to block the path, I had to step over it. I guess there is minuscule chance it died of natural causes in that exact spot.

  Infiniti no. #

• So I'm in the park near the internet place waiting for the bullying storm tsunami to calm down, but of course it gets worse, with people on loudspeakers and people with paporazi level cameras. Yesterday some kids were messing around so close to the road where I was crossing that they very nearly diverted me into oncoming traffic. It was very dangerous, especially because with the heavy bags it's difficult to change direction.

  It was clearly on purpose they were waiting for me and only sprung into action as I got there. I said be careful and called them paperazzi kids, because that's the type of dangerous paperazi behaviour that got Diana killed. Well guess what the only seat left in the park today was next to a bloke with a paperazi camera. What are the chances?

  This is the level of total disreguard for society the kids have here. No matter what they do, even if they nearly kill you, it's actually your fault and grounds for more bullying. #

• Saw an interesting thing happen in the park while I was being paperizi death bullied by the local youth. Two youths stopped a westerner bloke that was jogging. I couldn't hear what was said but whatever they said, the runner bloke oblidged by taking an A4 piece of card from them that had some words written on it, held it up below his chin, and smiled while they took a few pictures of him. They thanked him and he ran off continuing in his jogging. They walked past me looking at their photo and said 'learn' just as they passed.

  Obviously I replied with the only sane thing remaining in this shitty world we live in that is over-run with fakes created by youths that want to kill you because it's funny:

  'Infiniti no to you too'

  Just in case you don't know, the way Reddit does validation of the people it features on it's AMAs is using a photo of a person holding a paper that has their username written on it. #

• Had to change seat because of the sun. The paperazzi kids had put half drunk coffees on all the benches that are in the shade. They are doing this because they are ordering me back to the internet place that's next to the coffee place. It's the same reason they shout Up! at me, because they know that I can only use the internet while standing up. Pretty frigging cruel, but it's not just the kids, many of the adults do it too. They think it's rather hilarious to torture and mutilate foreigners.

  I guess the foreigners that enable their cruel never ending bullying get treated better than me. I think many of the foreigners don't realise what they are doing, but some do and are only too happy to join in on the bullying. Who knows what story they've been told, but I doubt they mention that they created the issues in the first place, and it always results in me getting mutilated. #